Bariatric buddies, I need help with encouragement. I've done SO MUCH for 9 months worth of bariatric pre-op requirements and surgery is on Thursday coming up. Now that I'm getting closer it seems like I want to back out but at the same time I don't. I'm having a battle with myself right now and it sucks. I've been overweight almost my whole life (since 6, 30 now) and I'm sick of it but I know I will miss being able to eat to feel good again if I have the surgery or so I think right now. I am able to control myself but it's the reality of not having that choice that bothers me. Also I can like chug a nice cool whole water bottle down nonstop in like 5 seconds (and I'm proud of it lol) and I won't be able to do that anymore. I do want a healthier life but that gut feeling is getting more intense and real the more time ticks. Feels like I'm almost at the high peak of roller coaster except you can get out before it drops.