drj

I'm on Spring Break this week. I have a lot of homework to catch up on. I hope to make time to attend to some projects left incomplete. Monday, April 10, 2006 meals: breakfast-nothing-stress test at hospital lunch-venti java chip decaf frappaccino, 2 oz. ground beef dinner-serving pasta w/ homemade meat sause, iced tea snack-2 cinnimon crackers, cup diet iced tea I would be very surprised if the stress test results don't show up as positive. I have so much stress due to the job and school. I have projects to turn in next week when school resumes. I should be spending this week off work to complete the paper I have to write. Plus I have my 2 credit course to start. I haven't done anything for it yet. And the semester ends in just a few weeks. Today Joey goes for his sleep study. Tomorrow he goes to see the gastric band doctor to determine if he qualifies for surgery. I hope he does. ut

When I'm on vacation, I don't pay atention. I went out of town on Friday and returned late last night. Let's see if I can retrack my eating patterns. Friday breakfast-nothing lunch-bite chicken, 1/2 meatball, salad, water dinner-6 shrimp with shrimp sause, wine cooler, about 12 oz. Mountain Dew Saturday breakfast-2 slices bacon, 1 sausage link, 2 eggs-over easy, cup decaf coffee lunch-venti java chip decaf frappaccino dinner-two bites sole stuffed w/crab, two chips & cheese w/artichoke, wine cooler, Long Island Iced Tea, small slice bread w/ butter snack-slice cake w/ decaf coffee Sunday brunch-1/2 egg, 2 slice bacon, 1 sausage link, 1/2 cup coffee, bite french toast lunch-nothing dinner-1/4 baked potato w/ chives, sour cream, butter, 16 oz. Dr. Pepper, pinch cheeseburger snack-bite ground beef & chorizo w/ chichorron I think I did okay on food, although I was in my usual environment. Being out of town makes me out of control. But I kept thinking Protein, protein, protein. I think my family got sick of hearing about it. My sister noticed that I had lost a lot of weight and ask how I did it. (She is expremely heavy too.) I bragged about the LB and told her that she could do it too, if she wanted to. I mentioned this website and that she could apply to join and hear about what others struggle with and their successes. She never got the information from me. I told her I'd show her my marks from surgery. She never asked to see. I guess she's not ready. My other sister also noticed. She said that I looked great. She should know how I look. We live only 25 miles from each other, and never see each other. She asked all about it too. She said that our neice noticed too, but thought I'd be embarrassed if they said anything. I said that I was when I first started to lose. Now I love the compliments. I can't enough of them. Friday, my neice took me to a store to buy a new pair of jeans. I found a pair to match my jean coat. They were two sizes smaller than the last pair I bought a year ago. I couldn't believe they fit, almost. I wore them to our reunion. That's how everyone noticed the smaller me. I'm so glad and happy they all said something. It made me feel good about myself in a say that I never frlt before. Now if I could jump start my weight loss again. I've been the same weight for about two months. I'm glad that I haven't gained any weight, but I'd like to lose about 45 more pounds. On Wednesday, I have a band adjustment. Maybe that will do it for me. I hope so. Until next time.

When I'm on vacation, I don't pay atention. I went out of town on Friday and returned late last night. Let's see if I can retrack my eating patterns. Friday breakfast-nothing lunch-bite chicken, 1/2 meatball, salad, water dinner-6 shrimp with shrimp sause, wine cooler, about 12 oz. Mountain Dew Saturday breakfast-2 slices bacon, 1 sausage link, 2 eggs-over easy, cup decaf coffee lunch-venti java chip decaf frappaccino dinner-two bites sole stuffed w/crab, two chips & cheese w/artichoke, wine cooler, Long Island Iced Tea, small slice bread w/ butter snack-slice cake w/ decaf coffee Sunday brunch-1/2 egg, 2 slice bacon, 1 sausage link, 1/2 cup coffee, bite french toast lunch-nothing dinner-1/4 baked potato w/ chives, sour cream, butter, 16 oz. Dr. Pepper, pinch cheeseburger snack-bite ground beef & chorizo w/ chichorron I think I did okay on food, although I was in my usual environment. Being out of town makes me out of control. But I kept thinking Protein, protein, protein. I think my family got sick of hearing about it. My sister noticed that I had lost a lot of weight and ask how I did it. (She is expremely heavy too.) I bragged about the LB and told her that she could do it too, if she wanted to. I mentioned this website and that she could apply to join and hear about what others struggle with and their successes. She never got the information from me. I told her I'd show her my marks from surgery. She never asked to see. I guess she's not ready. My other sister also noticed. She said that I looked great. She should know how I look. We live only 25 miles from each other, and never see each other. She asked all about it too. She said that our neice noticed too, but thought I'd be embarrassed if they said anything. I said that I was when I first started to lose. Now I love the compliments. I can't enough of them. Friday, my neice took me to a store to buy a new pair of jeans. I found a pair to match my jean coat. They were two sizes smaller than the last pair I bought a year ago. I couldn't believe they fit, almost. I wore them to our reunion. That's how everyone noticed the smaller me. I'm so glad and happy they all said something. It made me feel good about myself in a say that I never frlt before. Now if I could jump start my weight loss again. I've been the same weight for about two months. I'm glad that I haven't gained any weight, but I'd like to lose about 45 more pounds. On Wednesday, I have a band adjustment. Maybe that will do it for me. I hope so. Until next time.

Dinners are a challenge for me. I get home late or early and want to eat, eat, eat. I'm usually hungry and don't take time to think as I should. I look for the first edible thing I can find. How can I manage this? Plus, I don't drink enough water. I still drink coffees and hot chocolate instead of choosing no calorie beverages. Last day at the conference meals: breakfast: hot chocolate lunch: 1/2 chocolate chip cookie, cup mocha coffee dinner: pork rib, bite of greens, bite of salad, glass fruit punch Why is it easier to record what I've already eaten rather than plan ahead? Dinner today was impromptu with the Leadership Team. We went to Dicky's way out in Dolton. I've never been there and had no idea what to expect. I didn't eat much. I didn't want food to get "stuck" during our meeting, so I ate light. Now its 11:00 p.m. and I'm starving. I don't want to eat because I may have bad dreams. So I go to bed hungry. Life is an experiment. Will my hypotheses and theories come true? Plans for tomorrow: drink water, take two meals since I have school at night, eat slowly. :eek:

:girl_hug: Dinners are a challenge for me. I get home late or early and want to eat, eat, eat. I'm usually hungry and don't take time to think as I should. I look for the first edible thing I can find. How can I manage this? Plus, I don't drink enough water. I still drink coffees and hot chocolate instead of choosing no calorie beverages. Last day at the conference meals: breakfast: hot chocolate lunch: 1/2 chocolate chip cookie, cup mocha coffee dinner: pork rib, bite of greens, bite of salad, glass fruit punch Why is it easier to record what I've already eaten rather than plan ahead? Dinner today was impromptu with the Leadership Team. We went to Dicky's way out in Dolton. I've never been there and had no idea what to expect. I didn't eat much. I didn't want food to get "stuck" during our meeting, so I ate light. Now its 11:00 p.m. and I'm starving. I don't want to eat because I may have bad dreams. So I go to bed hungry. Life is an experiment. Will my hypotheses and theories come true? Plans for tomorrow: drink water, take two meals since I have school at night, eat slowly.

Below are the plans that I laid for the conference I attended today and will attend Sunday and Monday all day: Plans for Saturday at the conference: breakfast: vitamins, water lunch: McDonald's cheeseburger, no bread; diet drink or water dinner: some kind of meat: Mexican steak or arrachera, drink I plan to drink more water. I'll update on how much I actually drank all day. Actual intake: breakfast: cup hot chocalate snack: 1/2 slice lemon loaf lunch/dinner @ 5:00 two slices pizza (no crust) ate only cheese and pepperoni, salad, cup root beer I'm not getting water in. I need to be much more diligent in this. The problem is that I hate plain water. I need to buy flavored water, and I bet I'll drink again. Clearly I cannot eat in the morning. But I can drink warm liquids. I think that's why I like coffee or hot chocolate for breakfast. At lunch, if I haven't eaten much for breakfast, I can barely eat. Maybe some meat. At dinner, I'm dangerous. I'm usually hungry and I want to eat the first thing I see, whether I can actually eat it or not. I try sometimes. Usually it proves to be a pb. I live to learn and learn to live. Tomorrow will be more of the same. no breakfast or some hot drink lunch: burger-if I can find the McDonald's dinner: meat or soup, depending on what my husband makes :girl_hug:

Below are the plans that I laid for the conference I attended today and will attend Sunday and Monday all day: Plans for Saturday at the conference: breakfast: vitamins, water lunch: McDonald's cheeseburger, no bread; diet drink or water dinner: some kind of meat: Mexican steak or arrachera, drink I plan to drink more water. I'll update on how much I actually drank all day. Actual intake: breakfast: cup hot chocalate snack: 1/2 slice lemon loaf lunch/dinner @ 5:00 two slices pizza (no crust) ate only cheese and pepperoni, salad, cup root beer I'm not getting water in. I need to be much more diligent in this. The problem is that I hate plain water. I need to buy flavored water, and I bet I'll drink again. Clearly I cannot eat in the morning. But I can drink warm liquids. I think that's why I like coffee or hot chocolate for breakfast. At lunch, if I haven't eaten much for breakfast, I can barely eat. Maybe some meat. At dinner, I'm dangerous. I'm usually hungry and I want to eat the first thing I see, whether I can actually eat it or not. I try sometimes. Usually it proves to be a pb. I live to learn and learn to live. Tomorrow will be more of the same. no breakfast or some hot drink lunch: burger-if I can find the McDonald's dinner: meat or soup, depending on what my husband makes

I've been keeping a food journal for about a week now. It contains meals and commentary for public viewing. Feel free to read it and comment. I could use the help. I am finding when I record I am more conscience of my choices. Now I'll try to alter the poor ones and make them right. Good luck everyone. drj

The weekend is here again. This is a particularly difficult time for me. My husband is home and we have errands to run. We eat out, usually when we are past the hungry stage. That means I might eat or try to eat foods that aren't good for me, usually carbohydrates or foods that don't go down very easily. This weekend I will be at a conference in Chicago. I don't know what food choices I will have. But I do have a plan. I will make meat or protein choices. My food choices from today: Breakfast: bacon, 3 slices, cup hot chocolate Lunch: beans, ground beef and peas, can soda Snack: decaf coffee (Frap) Dinner: can Campbell's chicken and rice soup (I don't feel good tonight) I have noticed that I don't drink nearly enough water or any real water at all. Second, I drink way too much coffee, especially those types WITH calories. I think if I cut those out again, I'll lose weight right away. I think they have a lot of liquid calories, though I never asked the company for the nutrition information. I should ask one day. Plans for Saturday at the conference: breakfast: vitamins, water lunch: McDonald's cheeseburger, no bread; diet drink or water dinner: some kind of meat: Mexican steak or arrachera, drink I plan to drink more water. I'll update on how much I actually drank all day.

The weekend is here again. This is a particularly difficult time for me. My husband is home and we have errands to run. We eat out, usually when we are past the hungry stage. That means I might eat or try to eat foods that aren't good for me, usually carbohydrates or foods that don't go down very easily. This weekend I will be at a conference in Chicago. I don't know what food choices I will have. But I do have a plan. I will make meat or protein choices. My food choices from today: Breakfast: bacon, 3 slices, cup hot chocolate Lunch: beans, ground beef and peas, can soda Snack: decaf coffee (Frap) Dinner: can Campbell's chicken and rice soup (I don't feel good tonight) I have noticed that I don't drink nearly enough water or any real water at all. Second, I drink way too much coffee, especially those types WITH calories. I think if I cut those out again, I'll lose weight right away. I think they have a lot of liquid calories, though I never asked the company for the nutrition information. I should ask one day. Plans for Saturday at the conference: breakfast: vitamins, water lunch: McDonald's cheeseburger, no bread; diet drink or water dinner: some kind of meat: Mexican steak or arrachera, drink I plan to drink more water. I'll update on how much I actually drank all day. :girl_hug:

I think Taylor's hot. Don't tell my husband, who's sitting right next to me that I say that. Plus, I love the way he sings. I love his moves. So my vote goes to him!!!

Wednesday, March 29, 2006 I said yesterday that I would enter my plan and see if I stuck with that plan, thereby eating less junk and more healthy foods. Let's compare: yesterday's plan for today's food: Breakfast: nothing, cup juice Lunch: 2-3 bites meat, 2 portions vegetables, can soda Dinner: meat, vegetables actual: cup hot chocolate, glass juice snack: slice coffee cake lunch very small salad, 6 oz. Gatorade dinner: liver & onions, beans, decaf coffee So let's see. breakfast-I drank, no food, often I can't eat in the a.m. lunch-no meat was served, so I had salad, only Gatorade was in the soda machine, chose fruit punch dinner-as planned, I had liver and onions and beans What I do notice is that I drink a lot of coffee. I should investigate how many calories these coffees have. I think I'll be surprised. Maybe this will convince me to change my drink coices. So not too bad in planning. Let's try again for tomorrow. Breakfast: bacon, 3 slices Lunch: ground beef taco meat with peas (I already planned and cooked this) Dinner: same as lunch-I'll probably eat leftovers snack: coffee-decaf (I'll check the calorie count)

Wednesday, March 29, 2006 I said yesterday that I would enter my plan and see if I stuck with that plan, thereby eating less junk and more healthy foods. Let's compare: yesterday's plan for today's food: Breakfast: nothing, cup juice Lunch: 2-3 bites meat, 2 portions vegetables, can soda Dinner: meat, vegetables actual: cup hot chocolate, glass juice snack: slice coffee cake lunch very small salad, 6 oz. Gatorade dinner: liver & onions, beans, decaf coffee So let's see. breakfast-I drank, no food, often I can't eat in the a.m. lunch-no meat was served, so I had salad, only Gatorade was in the soda machine, chose fruit punch dinner-as planned, I had liver and onions and beans What I do notice is that I drink a lot of coffee. I should investigate how many calories these coffees have. I think I'll be surprised. Maybe this will convince me to change my drink coices. So not too bad in planning. Let's try again for tomorrow. Breakfast: bacon, 3 slices Lunch: ground beef taco meat with peas (I already planned and cooked this) Dinner: same as lunch-I'll probably eat leftovers snack: coffee-decaf (I'll check the calorie count)

Thank you, I plugged my information in. 47 months to get to target. arggggg

I'd like to join the slow loss club. I've lost about 63 lbs. in 15 months. I thought I'd be done after 12 months. But I still have about 40 lbs. to go. Do I qualify? An interesting note: I think I sabbatoge my own weight loss. I eat foods I shouldn't. I found out, through experimentation, that some bad foods that I shouldn't eat go down. I drink while I eat, which helps the food go through the band. I drink liquids containing (a lot) calories. And I don't exercise. So for me, I feel I can only hold myself responsible for my destiny. When will I learn? Plus, I'm afraid of how I'll look when I do lose all the weight. Will people look at me? Will they be attracted to my shape? I have spent 40 years putting on layers upon layers to protect myself from unwanted lookers. How will things change once all the protective layers are gone?! Then I'll have to deal with the real me that is underneath. That scares me. Until then, if then, I continue to sabbatoge my band and subsequent weight loss. Any ideas, suggestions, comments? I welcome them. drj

Wednesday, March 29, 2006 It's still Tuesday. I'm going to try something different. I am going to plan my meals for tomorrow. I'll then enter what I actually ate and see if how closely I stuck to my plan. Breakfast: nothing, cup juice Lunch: 2-3 bites meat, 2 portions vegetables, can soda Dinner: meat, vegetables tbc

Wednesday, March 29, 2006 It's still Tuesday. I'm going to try something different. I am going to plan my meals for tomorrow. I'll then enter what I actually ate and see if how closely I stuck to my plan. Breakfast: nothing, cup juice Lunch: 2-3 bites meat, 2 portions vegetables, can soda Dinner: meat, vegetables tbc

Today is class night; I don't get home until 9:00 p.m. from woork, school. So I have to be prepared when I go to work to take something for two meals. This is a challenge. Now that the truck visits our place, I can order something from the truck. Today I bought a grilled chicken salad. Healthy except for the dressing. I need to find an alternative for the dressing. Breakfast: 3 slices bacon, cup hot chocolate Lunch: a few bites of the salad, can Sprite Dinner: most of the rest of the salad from above, can Mountain Dew, bag Cheetos Snack: cup Cappaccino, one serving cookies Stress still causes me to eat. I know that chips go down very easily. So I use them to "destress". It's a long night, so the Mountain Dew gives me the energy I need to stay awake and alert. What I need to do is find other energy-giving foods that are acceptable, rather the chips and soda. I'm not sure what that will be at school, but I will think about it and see if I can find something healthier. Band adjustment is scheduled for April 12 @ 8:45 Now my doctor is changing the way he does band adjustments. Before he used barium and x-ray to determine where the port was and how much to fill. Now he will no longer use x-ray or barium. He'll use water, and the sense of feel to find the port and figure out where to put the needle. Then after I drink some water, I'll tell him if I can "feel" the water going down. If so, I guess he'll take out some. Somehow this seems less exact and less scientific. I like the other way better. We'll see how it works. Another lady at my support group meeting said that she received a huge bruise from doing it this way. I'm afraid that this will happen to me as well. I think I bruise easily. We'll see.

Today is class night; I don't get home until 9:00 p.m. from woork, school. So I have to be prepared when I go to work to take something for two meals. This is a challenge. Now that the truck visits our place, I can order something from the truck. Today I bought a grilled chicken salad. Healthy except for the dressing. I need to find an alternative for the dressing. Breakfast: 3 slices bacon, cup hot chocolate Lunch: a few bites of the salad, can Sprite Dinner: most of the rest of the salad from above, can Mountain Dew, bag Cheetos Snack: cup Cappaccino, one serving cookies Stress still causes me to eat. I know that chips go down very easily. So I use them to "destress". It's a long night, so the Mountain Dew gives me the energy I need to stay awake and alert. What I need to do is find other energy-giving foods that are acceptable, rather the chips and soda. I'm not sure what that will be at school, but I will think about it and see if I can find something healthier. Band adjustment is scheduled for April 12 @ 8:45 Now my doctor is changing the way he does band adjustments. Before he used barium and x-ray to determine where the port was and how much to fill. Now he will no longer use x-ray or barium. He'll use water, and the sense of feel to find the port and figure out where to put the needle. Then after I drink some water, I'll tell him if I can "feel" the water going down. If so, I guess he'll take out some. Somehow this seems less exact and less scientific. I like the other way better. We'll see how it works. Another lady at my support group meeting said that she received a huge bruise from doing it this way. I'm afraid that this will happen to me as well. I think I bruise easily. We'll see.

This entry is for Monday, March 27, 2006 Breakfast: nothing, not hungry Lunch: beans, 1 oz. Mexican beef steak Dinner: Mexican beef steak, 3 tomillos Snack: serving cookies, cup cappaccino I notice since my husband has been home, I've been eating an actual dinner. And at about 8:00 p.m. I've been eating a snack. This is, I'm sure, the reason for my 2 pound weight gain. That, and I'm expecting my cycle soon. Now that I realize that in only a week's time, I can mke a change to my eating schedule.

This entry is for Monday, March 27, 2006 Breakfast: nothing, not hungry Lunch: beans, 1 oz. Mexican beef steak Dinner: Mexican beef steak, 3 tomillos Snack: serving cookies, cup cappaccino I notice since my husband has been home, I've been eating an actual dinner. And at about 8:00 p.m. I've been eating a snack. This is, I'm sure, the reason for my 2 pound weight gain. That, and I'm expecting my cycle soon. Now that I realize that in only a week's time, I can mke a change to my eating schedule.

Does anyone have a suggestion for losing more weight without having PBs? It's been about a month, and I haven't lost any weight. I'm afraid to go in for a fill because it will cause me to "get sick", and I don't like that feeling. I wonder if I'm sabbotaging my own weight loss. Also I had surgery 12/30/04 and I've only lost 65 pounds. As I've been reading other people's entries, I see they've lost this much in only six months, or those who had surgery when I did and have lost about or over 100 pounds. Your help and gudance and suggestions would be greatly appreciated. drj

The weekend is very difficult for me. My husband is home. We have places to go, which causes us to be out much of the day on Saturday and Sunday. This in turn causes us to miss meals or go out to eat. And this is where I have difficulty. Going out isn't the problem. The problem is that I want to eat. And I want to eat the wrong foods for me. Usually we eat Mexican, which contains a lot of carbohydrates. Usually I don't order my own meal because I can never actually eat a whole meal for myself. I order, and my husband eats my meal and I have a few bites. But then there's the tortillas, drinks, and dessert. I need to learn to control myself when I'm out. I almost always end up sick in the bathroom before I learn the day's. Another problem is that the lesson I learn I have to learn over and over again. I guess I haven't actually learned the lesson yet. Only eat foods I can digest: meat. And eat slowly. Usually when we eat, I'm so hungry that I just want to inhale rather take small bites and chew my food well. I still have a lot to learn. I believe this was theproblem today, because I tried to eat foods that I can tolerate. I just tried to eat too fast. When will I learn these lessons so that they don't have to continue to present themselves? Something to think and pray about. Until tomorrow. meals: breakfast two bites of donut, Venti Java Chip decaf Frapaccino lunch: chicharron, 4 oz. Dr. Pepper, dinner: cup cappaccino, two bites arrachera, pinto beans, small eggplant snack: slice cheese cake, Polish cookie (from neighbor), two cups cappaccino

The weekend is very difficult for me. My husband is home. We have places to go, which causes us to be out much of the day on Saturday and Sunday. This in turn causes us to miss meals or go out to eat. And this is where I have difficulty. Going out isn't the problem. The problem is that I want to eat. And I want to eat the wrong foods for me. Usually we eat Mexican, which contains a lot of carbohydrates. Usually I don't order my own meal because I can never actually eat a whole meal for myself. I order, and my husband eats my meal and I have a few bites. But then there's the tortillas, drinks, and dessert. I need to learn to control myself when I'm out. I almost always end up sick in the bathroom before I learn the day's. Another problem is that the lesson I learn I have to learn over and over again. I guess I haven't actually learned the lesson yet. Only eat foods I can digest: meat. And eat slowly. Usually when we eat, I'm so hungry that I just want to inhale rather take small bites and chew my food well. I still have a lot to learn. I believe this was theproblem today, because I tried to eat foods that I can tolerate. I just tried to eat too fast. When will I learn these lessons so that they don't have to continue to present themselves? Something to think and pray about. Until tomorrow. meals: breakfast two bites of donut, Venti Java Chip decaf Frapaccino lunch: chicharron, 4 oz. Dr. Pepper, dinner: cup cappaccino, two bites arrachera, pinto beans, small eggplant snack: slice cheese cake, Polish cookie (from neighbor), two cups cappaccino

Today is Saturday, March 25, 2006 My husband is working today, and I'm feeling very lazy. I just got up half an hour ago. The first thing I did is look for something to eat. Yesterday's leftovers. Afer two bites, of course, I'm stuck. So much for that idea. Now I'm journaling. Maybe that's good for me. I'm not thinking about food, but I'm feeling depressed. Normally on the weekends we do all our errands, shopping, cars, etc. But with T at work, I'm sitting here saying, "What am I going to do with my day, until he gets home. I think if I could find something to do, I'd feel better and have more energy. food plans for the day: lunch: some kind of meat or leftovers dinner: some kind of Mexican meat and beans Is it true that if you plan out your meals, you have better success of eating right and less? This is wonderment for the day. I'll see if it works. to be continued... :mad: