Erin18

It really sucks. I went from 210 last May back to my starting weight of 240. Its so freaking stressful and frustrading. I don't really know what I want to do. I want surgery, then I don't, then I do. I feel like I'm trying to do it on my own, there's way too many temptations inbthis house and too uch junk food. I feel like I try and my mom too...but we give in. I try to watch what I eat but sometimes I just say screw it, what's the point anymore. I feel like its too hard on my own. At least when I had the band I felt full and and didn't early think about foodas much as I do now. I'm constatly thinking about food non stop and I never feel full. I'm scared that one day I'll wake up and I'll be 300 to 400 pounds. I feel like my family is all against my choice of WLS again. Wish they can just say "do whatever you think is best for you, we will support you along the way" I wish :/ makes weight loss that much more stressful when you feel like youdont have the right support from your own family. I wouldn't have gotten weight loss surgery the last timevifvi didn't think ivneed the help.

So, I think I have decided to go through with surgery. So first thing is first, I'm going to set up an appointment with my surgeon, hopefully I can get in some time in April. I'm going to just talk to him about the surgery choices. I'm really thinking about Plication surgery. I d9nt care how long it'll take to get approved as long as its after July. It'd be awesome if I could get approved right off but I know I won't. Plus I just want to talk to him about it and tell him I'm interested in Plication and see what we can do from there. I don't care what my family will say, I'm doing this for myself. Yes I know its very, very scary, I'm scared too, but I don't see myself losing weight any other way, at least I will have a tool to help me half the way.

This photo of me is my most recent photo. I took it on 3//2514. I'm at my original starting weight of 240. That's how much I weighed before going through with the Lap-Band. Icks that the 37-47 pounds that I did lose, almost instantly piled back on once I HAD to have my band removed due to infection. My mom says I haven't been trying, well, yes I have. She just doesn't want me to have surgery. But you guys I think its best for me

Hey, long time no talk. I cannot decide what I want to do! I am not getting anywhere on my own. I am pretty much where I started when I first got the surgery the first time. It's just making me more depressed. I am trying and trying to lose it all on my own, but not having that restriction of feeling full I don't know when to stop. I never feel full like I did when I had the band. I was actually able to lose weight when I had the band, looking back, it really was helping me. It sucks that my infection i recieved when I had revision surgery made me lose my band I am SO scared to get it again because what if this time my body can't handle it and I die? :/ I'm so scared that what happened back in april where I had to get the revision surgery and get my band removed due to the abscess and then having high fever and high heart rate because of it. Being stuck in a hospital for a week with drain tubes and a feeding tube, what if that happened again? That was such a traumatic event So scared. I feel like I should do it tho. I am not getting anywhere with what I am doing now. The only way I lost like 10 pounds in October was because I wasn't really eating and you have to eat to lose weight. People are trying to back me out of it too. Why can't they just support me in what I think is best for me? The people that back me out of it are already skinny people and they seem to not understand that some people just can't lose it on their own. I am one of them. Decisions, decisions. *sigh*

Would I be jumping the gun if I said that maybe I should just get the surgery?

Random. Just curious, people! How old are you? What surgery did you have? Male or female? How much weight did you lose? How fast did you lose your weight? If you are female and didn't have cosmeticr surgery, are you comfortable enough to go to the beach in a bikini? How much loose skin do you have?

-forgot to add that I don't eat Breakfast and sometimes I won't eat until dinner, but then I'll eat and snack until I go to bed. But I've always did this, skip breakfast and lunch, eat dinner a snack and one more snack. Or two. Then go to bed. I used to never snack all through the night when everyone was to bed. I do now. But when I had the band I didn't eat as much especially before I met one.of.my friends. And I didn't snack as much and I tried eatting breakfast and lunch even if it was just a yogurt or a cheese stick or Soup. I never had as much fast food before the band or with the band as I do now. Its just that my friend is super skinny and hes always hungry, so I take him, we used to go every time we hung out. We barely hang out now so we don't go as much. Another MAJOR thing is soda, soda, soda!!. Omg I drink a lot of soda now that I don't have the band!!. I avoided soda when I had the band unless it was like fountain or Mt. Dew which I only had like 2 to 3 times a month! Everything skyrocketed since the removal.

2muchfun: I was trying, I was starting to actually get the hang of it before it had slipped. It could have been from all the puking I did in 2012, it was like constant, whenever we did go out to eat, none of my friends besides one or two knew about my surgery and I didn't want the others to know, so I didn't take my time eatting and caused myself t get food stuck. But in 2012, I met a friend and I have never had fast food as much as I did that year and last year. The fast food like you said and plus the puking should have been the reason for my slippage. The surgeon somehow caused the abscess, I believe. When I first got the band, I was doing what I was supposed to do. take 30 minutes to eat, chew very well, drink only Water or diet tea, gatorade, took my Calcium and Multivitamins. I walked a lot, I would go for walks with friends and family. Then I got way off track and couldn't get back on the tracks. Now that my band is gone, I've fell into the deep end. Depression kicked in more and very stressed. I'm a stressful eater and I eat when I am down. I also tend to go for the junk. I turn to food even if I do talk to someone. I do have a therapist for my depression. Started going to Therapy in July 2012. We do talk about my weight, I bring it up because it is one of the reasons that caused my depression in the first place. I don't know. I want to try these supplements called 5-HTP, BCAAs, and Spiralina and Probiotics (but can just get it from yogurt or fresh milk from a cow). I wish my mindset was easier to get with it. I wish I could stop wishing and start doing. No one ever said it was easy....I know. I just don't know why I am or my mind is SO stubborn. Yeah I know WLS isn't a quick fix or whatnot. I do know it isn't a magical "cure". You have to do your part and if you do your part, the "tool" will do it's part. I have wakeup calls all the time: won't beable to have kids won't fit into a beautiful wedding dress will never beable to wear a bikini or nice clothes clothes are getting tighter I can die Going to keep gaining ETC. Why isn't this scaring me? It's almost like my mind wants to stay fat and un-healthy. Almost like my mind doesn't want to do the work and wants everything to do it for me. That's not the case though because I do want to work out, I do want to eat healthier, I do want to achieve my goals etc. I feel lazy because I feel like a part of me is missing. I used to like doing all of these fun things and getting out there. I've been taking B-complex Vitamins and its a metabolism support Vitamin and supposed to give energy? I don't know, I don't really feel any different. I feel like maybe I am anemic, but the doctor took blood work and it said I wasn't. I'm thinking I don't know, that I am lacking some kind of nutrient? If I got the Plication surgery, I would definitely have myself watch what I eat and makesure I follow the rules.

Oh I searched it right after I posted that lol so its basically the sleeve without having half of your stomach removed I just weighed myself today just to see where I'm at and I'm at the highest weight I've ever been....244!!! I told my mom about plication and she just sighed. She was like "you're not even trying, I feel like you're just going to go straight to surgery" I was and am trying. I was writing what I was eating and tracking down the calories. Making sure I kept it under 1500 or 1200. Trying to wallk. But I wasn't even losing and I didn't feel a difference in my clothes. I did this for like a month... so annoying. I kind of feel like I'm being held back. Keeps saying we're going to eat heathier and write down what we eat and exercise....that was back in january and still haven't. None of my family wants me to get surgery again, but I'm so sick of being over weight and just keep gaining with no support anyway. And they said they've been suppoting me since the begining, they were but not tough enough. Sorry ranting a bit

Plication?

When I first got it, back on July 31st 09, I lost 47 pounds in less than a month, bc I was always nauseous and couldn't eat or drink. I gained a bit when I felt better, then in 2011 gained a little more then in 2012 became depressed and lost 10-15 pounds. Kept that off for a year, then when I had to have emergency surgey I lost another 10. But I gained all my weight back and its depressing. I wanted to give iit a try at losing it on my own, I gave it a year. I started re thinking about it in october and that's why I came back here. I don't know what to do. I just keep gaining. I'm such a failure at this. Kyle K- did your friend develop acide reflux with the sleeve? I did withe the band and I didn't have it before gettingvit and I dont have it now that its gone. If I get surgery again I'm worried that I'll have acid reflux for the rest of my life. Someone on here told me you'll get acid reflux. That's kind of holding me back along with a few other things.

That's what I'm doing now is doing my research...then ask my doctor for his opinion. Get more information at his office. I had reflux when I had the band, only if it was too tight.... so *sigh* I don't know what to do...

Sorry for the mispellings, this android tablet lags...

Sadly, my family is the same way. They don't want me to get WLS again. They keep on telling me"you don't need it" "try losing it on your own" "you can lose it on your own you just have to set your mind to it and want it" or when I say "nothing is working for me, I keep gaining weight, I'm scared of gaining more" then I'm told "you're not trying hard enough" "you're not trying hard enough" "you're not trying hard enough" "you're not trying hard enough" I wouldn't have gotten WLS in the first place if I knew I can do it on my own...

Wow, so I didn't know that this site made other improvements besides their name! I like this better, now I can go read forums about other procedures. I originally had the LapBand. Had to have it removed due to infection. Gained all of what I lost (47 pounds). Trying to lose it on my own and it's such a struggle. If I don't lose at least 20 pounds by the end of may, I think my decision would be to get the gastric sleeve, a handful of people one here suggested it. I'd be so scared of them taking half of my stomach out, having it stapled and then losing the weight too fast and ending up with lose skin :/ don't want lose skin and don't want plastic surgery. Jumping ahead of myself here... Anyways, now I can get more info, yay!

Thanks!(:

Either way all surgery is scary, I feel like my family doesn't really want to support my decision if I end up getting the surgery. They say they've supported me all along but I told them It doesn't feel like it. But idk ill look more into this and try my best

Ohh okayyy

I struggle with food..

If anything, I'm leaning more towards the sleeve, before it was the roux en y. The sleeve doesn't sound or look as scary as the other one and I have no idea why. All surgeries are scary. But I feel like surgery is best for me, I feel like I try and try, I am a yo yo dieter, I never feel full, I constantly think about food. I had posted something.on facebook one of my aunts had commented on it, it was about me thinking about getting weightloss surgery again and she tells me "Erin, you're just bored, you don't need surgery, go out get a job to occupy yourself..." coming from a person who got a Boob job? And barely eats and from what I heard if she eats too much, shell go three days without eating? Mmmk. But yeah I might get it done after I get to talk to my doctor and get more info about them all and as I stated before I'm not telling anybody besides the three family members I have listed and you guys as well.

Haven't talked to my bariatric doctor since may/June last year when I got a tube taken out. I wasn't interested in surgery back then, I told myself I wasn't going to get surgery ever again. Then when I started seeing the pounds piling back up it started to change my decision. I was going to give it a year from May/June for a just in case type of thing. Every month since then I started to think about it. Someone I know had Roux EN Y and lost 160 pounds since July. Anyways. I watched videos on the Sleeve, I saw that they staple your stomach? I also worry about all the loose skin. I have 120-125 pounds to lose and the only thing is lose skin and I know its supposed to be the last of our problems. I don't want to lose it too too fast, but to know that ill be full quicker and eat less would be a great feeling, I miss that feeling. I'm still going to give it until April, but I don't see what it'd hurt to go talk to my doctor about surgery options. I think the last time I saw him he told me "if you ever decide to get weightloss surgery again, don't be afraid to give us a call" I should give them a call and make an appointment with my doctor and ill bring a list of questions on bypass, roux en y, and the sleeve. I talked to the girl I mentioned about her roux en y and I told her about people telling.me I shouldn't get surgery that I can do it on my own if I put my.mind and heart to it blah blah blah and she told me that I'm doing it for myself nobody else. Okay you guys, if I get surgery again, only you guys, my mom, dad and one of my brothers will know. I need you guys for the support as well as those three

I looked up videos on both and the Sleeve doesn't sound as scary as Roux EN Y, so maybe I will look a lot more Into the Sleeve since it seems highly recommended (:

I will definitely have to do some research. After I posted this, I told my mom what I was thinking and she told me "If you did, maybe you should get Gastric Bypass since the band wasn't really doing much for you besides causing you pain. You also won't have to worry about getting fills." Would any one suggest Roux EN Y? I will do research on both the Roux EN Y and the Sleeve. I'm seriously scared to get surgery again, what if I die this time? Anyways, also after posting this new topic, My mom suggested to me that I should give it 3 months and try to lose 20 pounds, if I don't then she said I should look into it. So far, I gained like 2-5 pounds since I posted this, so I'm weighing what I weighed when I originally got the LapBand. It's so frustrating you guys!!

Thanks you guys, yeah I totally don't think I want to get anything cut or removed, I watched a Roux En Y procedure video and oh my god, no way, plus it makes you lose weight too fast (most cases) and leaves you with excess skin. I really don't knowww! Ugh I don't want to go through all the pain I had to go through again. I'd definitely give the band another try if I decide. This is such a super hard decision. My weight is making me so upset that I barely even want to eat. I really want to try losing weight on my own, no more needles, no more hairloss(takes forever to come back after surgery, mine is finally coming back) no more throwing up/PB's, no more weird throat noises when laying down, no more scars. The infection was from getting my revision surgery, I developed an abscess next to the band, that is also another thing I don't want to have the possibility of experiencing again. I mainly don't want surgery, but I feel I might have to :/ I know deep down I can do it on my own, but either way it's just so hard and the hardest part is getting the will power, dedication, motivation.

Hey people, I'm back.... As some know, I already had lapband surgery in 09 and it had to be removed this year in April due to an infection. I knew for a fact IDID NOT WANT to have surgery again, but as soon as my weight started creeping back up to almost where I started in the first place and trying to lose it on my own again with no success, weightloss surgery is coming back to my mind. It depresses me that my weight is going back up and that I'm rethinking surgery again, but my weight going back up is my own fault. So, I'm going to give trying to lose 40-60, 30, or whatever on my own by June and I will call up my surgeon. Last I saw him was in may/ June and he said I was still a good candidate for weight loss surgery. Question: what other weight loss surgeries are there? The Sleeve, LapBand, Roux NY/bypass, Realize Band is there anything else? I'd probably choose the band again but either way I'd be so scared that things would happen the way they did and I was also thinking about the Roux NY but I don't want anything cut and moved around *SIGH* *SMH* *FML* -erin