joeyramonesgirl

I went to the doctors' yesterday and...she said that she approves me getting the band! She even gave me a surgeon's name so I can contact him directly. It's at the Kane Center and she said not to go into the "program" because they just shuffle people around. So...YAY!:cursing: So I'll call the surgeon on Monday and schedule an appointment. Hopefully my 'rents can drive me (they won't let me look at a car, even though I have my license!). See ya Soon! JRG

I went to the doctors' yesterday and...she said that she approves me getting the band! She even gave me a surgeon's name so I can contact him directly. It's at the Kane Center and she said not to go into the "program" because they just shuffle people around. So...YAY! So I'll call the surgeon on Monday and schedule an appointment. Hopefully my 'rents can drive me (they won't let me look at a car, even though I have my license!). See ya Soon! JRG

I just have to rant: 1) On the thread in R&R's, there's a thread called:"WHY are people voting for McCain?" What gets my goat is the fact that the poster asks a question about why people are voting, yet shoots the person down when they express their opinion. If you are asking a question about the election and want to show the world your side, wouldn't you say: "Here is why I vote for Obama" or "Here is why I'm against McCain"? I think what the poster was trying to do was to get McCain supporters riled up and then she could shoot them down. I'm not a McCain supporter, nor am I for Obama (I've said previously that this might be Ralph Nader's year). Don't ask for my opinion and the say "Blah, blah, blah; you're wrong!" when you ask a question for people's opinion! 2) (Related to lap band): Okay, so my dad isn't so hot about the band after all. He has said to me that I just need to work out and exercise. I would; gladly. But it just HURTS! My back hurts especially when I do cardio, as does my heart. It feels as though someone is squeezing my heart so it makes it hard to breathe deep. 3) I had a panic attack on Monday and a mini one today. I have an acting class on Monday and Wednesday, so I always look forward to that. But on Monday, I had this panic that everyone hates me. That people hate me because I'm fat and I shouldn't act because I'm overweight. My weight has really never hindered me in my acting because I hear such good things when I'm on stage. I consider myself a very good actress and people usually tell that after I do a show! But Monday, this panic just took over me like a tidal wave. Then I had another mini one on Wednesday. I have had my share of mental illnesses. I have chronic depression, Generalized Anxiety Disorder and Social Anxiety Disorder. The funny thing is, is that I had these all under control for a few months. Then Monday and Wednesday: BAM! I just switched meds last Friday, from Lexapro to Cymbalta. The Cymbalta helps with the depression big time. But I don't think it helps with my anxiety. :crying: See ya Soon! JRG

I just have to rant: 1) On the thread in R&R's, there's a thread called:"WHY are people voting for McCain?" What gets my goat is the fact that the poster asks a question about why people are voting, yet shoots the person down when they express their opinion. If you are asking a question about the election and want to show the world your side, wouldn't you say: "Here is why I vote for Obama" or "Here is why I'm against McCain"? I think what the poster was trying to do was to get McCain supporters riled up and then she could shoot them down. I'm not a McCain supporter, nor am I for Obama (I've said previously that this might be Ralph Nader's year). Don't ask for my opinion and the say "Blah, blah, blah; you're wrong!" when you ask a question for people's opinion!:frown: 2) (Related to lap band): Okay, so my dad isn't so hot about the band after all. He has said to me that I just need to work out and exercise. I would; gladly. But it just HURTS! My back hurts especially when I do cardio, as does my heart. It feels as though someone is squeezing my heart so it makes it hard to breathe deep. 3) I had a panic attack on Monday and a mini one today. I have an acting class on Monday and Wednesday, so I always look forward to that. But on Monday, I had this panic that everyone hates me. That people hate me because I'm fat and I shouldn't act because I'm overweight. My weight has really never hindered me in my acting because I hear such good things when I'm on stage. I consider myself a very good actress and people usually tell that after I do a show!:cursing: But Monday, this panic just took over me like a tidal wave. Then I had another mini one on Wednesday. I have had my share of mental illnesses. I have chronic depression, Generalized Anxiety Disorder and Social Anxiety Disorder. The funny thing is, is that I had these all under control for a few months. Then Monday and Wednesday: BAM! I just switched meds last Friday, from Lexapro to Cymbalta. The Cymbalta helps with the depression big time. But I don't think it helps with my anxiety. :tt1: See ya Soon! JRG

So, I have scheduled an appointment with my doc on Friday and I'm going to call my mental health person (when he is really just a pill doctor) and say "I need a lap band." Hopefully, this will lead somewhere!

So, I have scheduled an appointment with my doc on Friday and I'm going to call my mental health person (when he is really just a pill doctor) and say "I need a lap band." Hopefully, this will lead somewhere!

Unfortunately, you can't just rely on headlines and put your own two cents in and claim it's true. I admit, I'm a conservative democrat, but I just can't vote Obama. He has no experience, is basically a media darling and can do no wrong, picked a vp that should have been Hillary Clinton, can rile up crowds yet speeches have no substance (reminds me of Gary Hart sometimes). On the other hand, McCain hates unions, is against abortion, gay marriage (especially now with Sarah Palin), and is trying so hard to win the republican party over. Yeah, I know the republican convention just happened, but he is still trying. For me, I might just go in the booth and spin around and tap my finger on screen and leave. :thumbup: It's like Lewis Black said, in the 2000 (or was it 2004?), when it was against George Bush and Al Gore: "It's like voting for two pieces of S***T." The question is, which one stinks less?

I'm sorry that your mom got to your nerves, but I also didn't see her calling you a whore. Yet, I see that she is obviously having issues with your new-found self-image. I think maybe she might have a problem with you losing so much weight (I don't know, I'm just saying), that she might think the next stepping stone would be, oh I don't know...prostitution? :cursing: Just let her have her say and keep reminding yourself how awesome you look! (You look fantabulious! You look like a regular 1940's pin up girl.) Keep up the good work!

So, guess what? I tried calling the Kane Center near Chicago to schedule an appointment. I missed her call two times and I'm fed up! She called on Monday and I missed her call, because I was in the bathroom. I called back on Thursday because every time I tried to call, there was a message saying they were out or some will be with me shortly; after ten minutes on the phone, I don't think they'll be with me shortly. So finally, I got through on Friday and I got her voice mail. I told her to call my cell. She called my house! I wasn't there and I had my cell with me and no answer. I looked at the messages on my home phone and there was the message! :cursing: I can't stand that. I'm switching over to University of Illinois, because I hear it's a little cheaper and service is more palatable. I'm sorry if I sound like a brat, but when someone says to call on a certain phone, and calls on another, that person is going to be pissed. I don't know if she's avoiding responsibility or what.

So, guess what? I tried calling the Kane Center near Chicago to schedule an appointment. I missed her call two times and I'm fed up! She called on Monday and I missed her call, because I was in the bathroom. I called back on Thursday because every time I tried to call, there was a message saying they were out or some will be with me shortly; after ten minutes on the phone, I don't think they'll be with me shortly. So finally, I got through on Friday and I got her voice mail. I told her to call my cell. She called my house! I wasn't there and I had my cell with me and no answer. I looked at the messages on my home phone and there was the message! I can't stand that. I'm switching over to University of Illinois, because I hear it's a little cheaper and service is more palatable. I'm sorry if I sound like a brat, but when someone says to call on a certain phone, and calls on another, that person is going to be pissed. I don't know if she's avoiding responsibility or what.

They said that I will be covered for surgery IF it is medically necessary. I have severe depression due to my weight, hurts to exercise, never can stop eating and I've tried every diet under the sun and nothing! I don't know if I have to do a 6 month pre diet thing, but I hope not. But if I do, I won't mind because I'll do whatever it takes to get the band. I'll be scheduling a consultation tomorrow, so wish me luck!:thumbup: See ya soon! JRG

Let us not forget 9/11. I am mourning for the people who lost their family, friends or people close to them, to this unspeakable tragedy. Let us protect our country and support each other in times of need. What I was doing when the terrorists attacks started: I was just waking up and looking at my ceiling. Mom called me down and told me to "come here quick!". I jumped up and ran to where mom was. The tv was on and I saw the second tower go down. I was shocked. How could something like this happen? Are people that sick? I continued watching. I remember dad coming home after a half-hour later.The tv was set to CNN for 3 days straight. I will never forget 9/11. Peace and God-bless and I hope all of you are safe with your families. JRG

Let us not forget 9/11. I am mourning for the people who lost their family, friends or people close to them, to this unspeakable tragedy. Let us protect our country and support each other in times of need. What I was doing when the terrorists attacks started: I was just waking up and looking at my ceiling. Mom called me down and told me to "come here quick!". I jumped up and ran to where mom was. The tv was on and I saw the second tower go down. I was shocked. How could something like this happen? Are people that sick? I continued watching. I remember dad coming home after a half-hour later.The tv was set to CNN for 3 days straight. I will never forget 9/11. Peace and God-bless and I hope all of you are safe with your families. JRG

I honestly think the joke "Pitbull...lipstick" is old. The one time was funny, but now, it's just fodder for Dems and political pundits. I love politics, but hate it.

Yeah I agree. "A pig with lipstick on is still a pig". For me, it just didn't make sense. I know what he was trying to say, yet why use that analogy? If anything, his speech writers should apologize to him for writing that piece of turd.

They said that I will be covered for surgery IF it is medically necessary. I have severe depression due to my weight, hurts to exercise, never can stop eating and I've tried every diet under the sun and nothing! I don't know if I have to do a 6 month pre diet thing, but I hope not. But if I do, I won't mind because I'll do whatever it takes to get the band. I'll be scheduling a consultation tomorrow, so wish me luck! See ya soon! JRG

I honestly have to give my two cents. Palin is an excellent choice for McCain because now he has all the Republicans on his side. As much as I like her, I don't agree with her policies, and can't vote for her or McCain. But that being said, I can't vote for Obama either, because he said, while he was an Illinois senator (I live in IL) that he would not campaign for president until he was finished with his term. Sure. After a few months, what was he doing? Saying he was running for president. I can't vote for someone who promises that he won't campaign,then turns around and says then says "Who'd like to see me in the White House?":thumbdown: I'm honestly thinking this might be Ralph Nader's year!

Yeah. He's a good father, but he grew up in a household where that was acceptable. I do love him, but I really am afraid of him at the same time. I think sometimes, parents want what's best for their children, but in my dad's case, he thought spanking was another form of loving your child. Meaning that he's keeping me away from harm and doesn't want me hurt. But how he spanked me was deplorable, but I forgive him.

Doing a duathlon? You rock! I'm sure you'll do well. Thanks for commenting on my blog; I'm not banded yet, but I'll see if I can be. Keep up the good work. JRG

God, I hate eating. It's like I have an endless pit for a stomach and nothing keeps me full. I know I don't have a medical condition, because I was at the doctors earlier this year. It's funny (not ha-ha funny), but every time I see her, she says: "You're such a pretty girl, but you need to lose some weight because you won't get boyfriend if your are overweight." (She's Indian). I almost cry because I hear that enough from my relatives. "You are so pretty, cute, smart, sexy, but...you need to lose weight." *SCREAMS* I KNOW THAT! I DEAL WITH THAT FACT EVERY GOD DAMN DAY OF MY LIFE, ASSES! :thumbup: Sorry if the cursing offended you, but man. People think I don't know squat about how much I weigh. I think they think I don't own a mirror or something. One thing about having depression is the fact that it can come with a vengence. Today, my "partner" in astronomy class decided to sit somewhere else. I thought it was because I was overweight. It's probably true that people avoid me because I'm fat.It also may be due to the fact I wear skulls from my ears down to my feet and have the look of, "You speak to me, I kill you.":biggrin: But back to the main topic; I just hate feeling like I'm always hungry. I know it's not a mental thing, because there are days were I'm fine. *SIGH* I don't know.

True. When I was little I got spanked by my dad via hand and belt. He usually did it without warning. There was this one time (I was 13 at the time) I came in with one of my cousins and he spanked me because I forgot to roll up the garden hose to fill up my pool. Without warning, he spanked and I asked why, and he said "you know why." My mother told me later why he did it. Now since I'm older, I'm always afraid when he raises his voice because I'm scared he is going to stride over and give me a hard slap on the bum. I don't believe in spanking children; not because "I'm bigger, you're smaller" type of thing, but because some people can't do it without anger on their minds. Just my two cents!

God, I hate eating. It's like I have an endless pit for a stomach and nothing keeps me full. I know I don't have a medical condition, because I was at the doctors earlier this year. It's funny (not ha-ha funny), but every time I see her, she says: "You're such a pretty girl, but you need to lose some weight because you won't get boyfriend if your are overweight." (She's Indian). I almost cry because I hear that enough from my relatives. "You are so pretty, cute, smart, sexy, but...you need to lose weight." *SCREAMS* I KNOW THAT! I DEAL WITH THAT FACT EVERY GOD DAMN DAY OF MY LIFE, ASSES! Sorry if the cursing offended you, but man. People think I don't know squat about how much I weigh. I think they think I don't own a mirror or something. One thing about having depression is the fact that it can come with a vengence. Today, my "partner" in astronomy class decided to sit somewhere else. I thought it was because I was overweight. It's probably true that people avoid me because I'm fat.It also may be due to the fact I wear skulls from my ears down to my feet and have the look of, "You speak to me, I kill you.":biggrin: But back to the main topic; I just hate feeling like I'm always hungry. I know it's not a mental thing, because there are days were I'm fine. *SIGH* I don't know.