ashleyrenee

Thank you all for your replys...I think I have just gotten discouraged lately...but I will get though it!!

Does anyone wish they had done the gastric bypass instead? I have know people that have had it and they lost more weight and quicker. I had the lap band because it was less sever...but im starting to wonder if i made the right choice.

Hi :rolleyes2: So I had a revelation today. Expressing your feelings is healthy. For so long I have been a very private person. I had to make everything appear hunky dorry on the outside, so no one could see the pain on the inside. I have such a fear that if people know my struggles or worrys that they won't like me. I have to keep all my feelings to myself so I won't be judged. I think that is why I turned to food. I am even embarresed to cry in front of my own family. I am uncomfortable being that vunerable. I think that is why I turned to food so long ago...food doesn't judge. But food is a false friend...it is temporary comfort, then it is gone. I realized that if I am fully going to make the best of this surgery and truly change my life, I have to make some internal chages as well as eating habits. So I have decided to do a daily blog. I'm not going to suffer in silence anymore! Instead of eating my feelings and internalising everything, I'm going to purge it on here. I hope if you are reading you can get something out of it too! I hope that made sense..I feel like I'm rambling :cursing:

Hi :thumbup: So I had a revelation today. Expressing your feelings is healthy. For so long I have been a very private person. I had to make everything appear hunky dorry on the outside, so no one could see the pain on the inside. I have such a fear that if people know my struggles or worrys that they won't like me. I have to keep all my feelings to myself so I won't be judged. I think that is why I turned to food. I am even embarresed to cry in front of my own family. I am uncomfortable being that vunerable. I think that is why I turned to food so long ago...food doesn't judge. But food is a false friend...it is temporary comfort, then it is gone. I realized that if I am fully going to make the best of this surgery and truly change my life, I have to make some internal chages as well as eating habits. So I have decided to do a daily blog. I'm not going to suffer in silence anymore! Instead of eating my feelings and internalising everything, I'm going to purge it on here. I hope if you are reading you can get something out of it too! I hope that made sense..I feel like I'm rambling :thumbdown:

Have you tried any kind of Protein bars? I know if you haven't been used to them it sounds pretty unappealing, but they really are some that are quite. Clif bars, and luna bars are my favorite. They can have two to three hundred calories so you would need to be sure to count that, but they really are life savers. They have about 10 grams of protein a piece so they leave you really satisfied and curb your sweet tooth. Since I have found these I have really been snacking much less because they really do fill you up...Just give it a try! and if you feel like you need something salty or crunchy, try air popped popcorn with salt or some type of rice cake. You can do it! Good luck! Let me know how it goes!

Hey Nicynoo! One of the benefits of the band can also be an obstacle. It really allows you to eat most foods in small amounts. If you arn't having any restriction at all...that is a sign you probably need a fill. I think each person tolerates different types of food differently. For example, I can absolutely not eat salad. For what ever reason one or two bites and it comes right back up. So unfortunately I don't think there is any golden rule on what you should eat. I will say though sugar would be on the do not eat list! Processed Cookies and cakes will go down like you've never had surgery at all! So naturally eating those things will be counter productive in your weight loss. If have a sweet tooth, I would suggest setting aside one day a week or every other week that you can have a treat. Have a cookie or a bowl of ice cream, guilt free! Anyway, I hope this helped...Good luck! Oh I would also advise you to drink lots of water! I know we hear that a lot, but you will be suprised how quickly you lose weight if you stay hydrated!

Thank you all for your comments...I think yall are right...I better leave that behind me! Now if I could only give up sugar..How are yall doing with that? Congratulations on getting banded mlat...and good luck! It's one heck of a ride

Ok I gave up diet coke after my surgery. I was banded in august 08. I do not really crave it anymore. I have done suprisingly well with that. Every once in awhile though, I think I would like to have one. Do you think it would be a problem i have one? I dont want to get re-dicted...but i still would enjoy one now and then

I'm tired of not feeling good enough. My whole life (I'm twenty two) I have in some way felt that I am not a "worthy" as someone else because I my size. I was always slightly bigger than my friends, but not overweight by anymeans. So why did I feel that way. Because I allowed people to make me feel that way. I was funny and I had lots of friends, but that was it. I was never the girl the guys wanted to date, just the girl that the guys wanted to talk to about other girls. My whole life people have made little comments that made me feel bad about myself but I just laughed them off. I just feel like I have been on the sidelines of a long time watching everyone else live their lives. I watch romantic comedy movies and think that will never be me, because I am not worth that kind of love...again because of my size. I need to get to the point where I am okay with me. I am not Ashley the fat girl. I am just Ashley. I feel like a thin person on the inside, but I just don't look like it on the outside so I feel conflicted. Why are we defined by our size? I want to be 140 pounds. That is a good size for my height. But if I'm not okay with the person I am at 240, then I'm not going to be okay with the person I am at 140. Our worth is not relative to our size. It's not the smaller we are the more worthy of happiness we are. It's time for me to realize that, or I will never get the weight off. I'm good enough, and so are you. You always have been, and you always will be. We need to start taking care of ourselves. Not for anyone but ourselves. We are worth it, and that's the bottom line.

I'm tired of not feeling good enough. My whole life (I'm twenty two) I have in some way felt that I am not a "worthy" as someone else because I my size. I was always slightly bigger than my friends, but not overweight by anymeans. So why did I feel that way. Because I allowed people to make me feel that way. I was funny and I had lots of friends, but that was it. I was never the girl the guys wanted to date, just the girl that the guys wanted to talk to about other girls. My whole life people have made little comments that made me feel bad about myself but I just laughed them off. I just feel like I have been on the sidelines of a long time watching everyone else live their lives. I watch romantic comedy movies and think that will never be me, because I am not worth that kind of love...again because of my size. I need to get to the point where I am okay with me. I am not Ashley the fat girl. I am just Ashley. I feel like a thin person on the inside, but I just don't look like it on the outside so I feel conflicted. Why are we defined by our size? I want to be 140 pounds. That is a good size for my height. But if I'm not okay with the person I am at 240, then I'm not going to be okay with the person I am at 140. Our worth is not relative to our size. It's not the smaller we are the more worthy of happiness we are. It's time for me to realize that, or I will never get the weight off. I'm good enough, and so are you. You always have been, and you always will be. We need to start taking care of ourselves. Not for anyone but ourselves. We are worth it, and that's the bottom line.

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Wow. I just have to say thank you to all of you for what you wrote. I just got on lap band talk today for the first time in a few weeks because i got really discouraged today! I think i am the worlds worst self sabotager! This past few weeks i have been eating so good, working out everyday, and losing weight! but this weekend i went out of town and told myself i could eat how i wanted because i was out of town...and since then i have been eating like its going out of style! Why do we do this? It seems like i do this in all aspects of my life. Eating, school..you name it. What am i afraid of? I dont know. Anyway i appreciate all of yalls responses...because when you start feeling this way you can begin to feel alone and it helps to see that I'm not!

Thank you!! :hurray: