I can soooooo understand where you are coming from. my surgery is in 2 days and I feel almost panicked thinking about it, but I know that 1-2 years from now I will be a different person and a healthier one, yes it will change your life for ever, but I am sure that you and I have tried everything possible to lose weight only to gain it back and not be able to control it. we will be incontrol now and be able to enjoy many other things we liked before 100% better after we lose and maintain it off. God Bless you and have a wonderful healthy journey. I am sure you, as well as I, will.