Hollyserene

As soon as I put a deposit down for my surgery I started binge eating massive amounts of food. Like a dozen donuts in one day, an entire large bag of m & Ms. I feel so uncomfortable all the time. I bet I will have gained 10 pounds before date of surgery. I am out of control. I guess I want to ask if this has happened to anyone else but I’m afraid I’m alone in this behavior. What will happen if the surgery doesn’t happen?! I’m in a mess.

I’m already over it. Eating whatever I wanted was not as fun as I thought it might be. My surgery is in 2 weeks. I’m a low bmi patient so I ably have to do the pre op diet for the one day before. I’m so ready for it and just sick and exhausted with my obsessive relationship with food. Ready to put the brakes on.

I never imagined I would get replies. Thank you! You all have really helped me “slow my roll”. I am a low bmi patient and I guess that made me cocky. My surgery is happening in a place I affectionately call a surgery mill. I have not even been to an office or met a medical professional. It has all happened over the phone. I lied a little bit about how much I weighed and figured I better eat a lot and become that weight. Now I just feel ashamed a lethargic and out of control. Sigh.

Thank you bbykitty. I definitely eat too much but I’m not usually a hunger. I’ve just sort of come undone. But I really appreciate the perspective you’ve brought to me: it’s not good bye, it’s see you later. Excellent! Good for a T-shirt or a tomb stone!