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I feel a little like the odd man out. Prior to choosing weight-loss surgery, I was only one medication, 50mg of Losartan. I had never had a blood pressure problem until I was put on Nexplanon ( implant birth control). I had it removed but the high BP remained. I also gained 70lbs in less than a year on Nexplanon.  I did some research and found a medical research paper on Nexplanon, they had followed 100 women for one year and found that 1% of those women gained 45kg in that year. Before being on Nexplanon, I was overweight and obese, by medical standards, but I had been eating right and exercising and was actively losing weight.  I have no idea what my body composition was though and I wish I knew, I have always been able to put on muscle quickly. 

I have never had issues with mobility even at my highest weight of 324lbs. I was never out of breath, I never had aches and pains. I have always been able to stand and walk around for hours never needing to sit down, I can travel for long periods in cramped spaces without issue. My labs have always been excellent. I am not pre-diabetic. I will upload my current labs ----- Located in albums under LABS, sorry some were uploaded twice and I cannot seem to delete the extras ones, but they are labeled "Page 1, Page 2, etc.."

I grew up in a family culture of always being on a diet and I continued that into adulthood. Most recently I have learned that basically, my body has been in starvation mode, forever. Which has led to easily putting on weight.  I have often wondered if I also have some kind of endocrine issue, but I cannot get a Doctor to listen to me, and am always told my labs are in normal range. But are they? are they in MY normal range?. 

The reason I chose weight loss surgery is because I feel like time is ticking away and I do not want to waste any more of it focusing on trying to get in shape in an extremely slow process. I am tired of feeling less than and lacking confidence. I want to feel like I will be taken seriously at work and in life. I want to do things like zipline and travel to exotic places, I want a healthy relationship with a partner. I want to be in photographs and videos. I want to stop avoiding events because I do not want to hear and see the judgment of others. I am tired of not being good enough because of my weight and as we move forward in society being judged by our appearance is only going to get worse. Even with the body positivity movement, it still has a lot of haters and all of the representative larger bodies look a certain way as well. 

I chose to get Roux-en-y because I want to be one and done when it comes to surgery. I want to reduce my chances of needing revision. After my surgery and successful weight loss if I need skin removal I will get it, I will also likely get breast implants and maybe a few other things. I know this is not for everyone, but it is for me. Currently, I am the fattest person in my immediate family and the second fattest in my extended family on both sides. I try not to focus on this, but is hard. 

Due to covid I went back to school and I will be finished with my degree this December. I am looking forward to finally losing the weight, moving somewhere warm with a year round comfortable weather ( I have had enough of the Northwest's depression clouds and mountains)  , and getting a new job in a great work environment ( my last one was beyond toxic, in the 4 years I spent there, we lost 9 of my co-workers to suicide)