Hi Sue, I am new to this too, and I live in Lincoln, NE! It is nice to find someone from Lincoln just starting too. I have my consultation September 11, so I am anxiously awaiting that. I am sort of in the same situation as you with the amount of weight to lose, and so many failures. I have to do this for my health also. Who is your doctor? How has the process been for you (as I will probably be doing the same thing as you). After reading posts on this website I feel a little more comfortable about doing it, but there is still a part of me that wonders if I am doing the right thing. My lifestyle will be changing dramatically if I have the surgery, which is what I need. Good luck with everything and let me know how you are doing.