babysha6

I am 6 weeks post-op and I've had dietary struggles. It's hard to admit old eating habits are returning. Depression and unworthiness feelings are getting stronger. I start over in my mind saying that it's OK just keep trying. I fear being chastised by my doctor, I still battle with the familiar plus-size me and the new body I'm trying to get to. I need an accountability partner who is understanding and supportive but who can be a mentor. Sometimes I want to fade into the background of mediocrity, then there are other times I want to live my best life. I'm going nowhere fast in the tug of war I'm in with myself. Can someone relate and help me?

Thank you all for taking the time to respond to me. I will seek professional help because I realize that I need that added support to get me through this phase I'm in right now. I am my worst critic and I have to get to the root cause of my self-sabotage tactics. Thank you all because I needed it.