babysha6

Thank you all for taking the time to respond to me. I will seek professional help because I realize that I need that added support to get me through this phase I'm in right now. I am my worst critic and I have to get to the root cause of my self-sabotage tactics. Thank you all because I needed it.

I am 6 weeks post-op and I've had dietary struggles. It's hard to admit old eating habits are returning. Depression and unworthiness feelings are getting stronger. I start over in my mind saying that it's OK just keep trying. I fear being chastised by my doctor, I still battle with the familiar plus-size me and the new body I'm trying to get to. I need an accountability partner who is understanding and supportive but who can be a mentor. Sometimes I want to fade into the background of mediocrity, then there are other times I want to live my best life. I'm going nowhere fast in the tug of war I'm in with myself. Can someone relate and help me?