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I still fell sore, I had the procedure in August 12th. Have you talked with the Dr.? The Dr. said for me is still ok, just have not healed inside as fast as the outside.

I have a friend I was going to join the gym with but she doesn't go and she had hers done last yr. I love her but she has more excuses why she can't do thing than just doing them. I understand we all have things to do, but we have some kind of time in between to make for ourselves. Am I saying anything out of place or wrong for thinking that way. I have children she has them as well. We both work, we do have a lunch hour to get away. So we have to make the time. I know when I return to work Next week I will have an alarm on my phone to let me know to get up and move. Lunch, Break, get up and move. I would sit at my desk all day and never take a lunch or eat, I wait until I got home and ate everything that was not good for me, and that is why I am here to day. Bad eating habits. I just want to make it work and succeed at it. This is the biggest and hardest goal I have set for myself and I have to do it. My size goal is a 10, if I go further down I will be grateful, but I want to dress in normal size clothes again. Last time that was when I was in Jr. High School. I said when I reached my goal I was going to have a 40th birthday party although I am 40 now, I will Celebrate as if I just turned 40. I owe myself a party. Another yr older, new challenges and new changes. I want to embrasse it all.

I maybe slow but I have been trying to add the ticker factory and it is not working. I am doing well, i have lost 10 lbs so far, now I have to get moving more to lose more. I am on soft foods, and my first fill will be Sept 29th. I am excited. I did get to full because I slipped and drank and had my food at the same time. Not a good feeling. I rolled around for a good 1hour and a half. But I have tried to be careful after that. My family had a cook out and I was feeling torched, it was a little stressful because they had everything under the sun. I stayed in my room the whole time. My mom asked me was I coming down stairs, I looked at her as if she had two heads. I can't eat it so why be in the same room with it. I had already had my food I can eat in my room and watch my favorite shows on On Demand (cable) Law and Order and MONK!!!! They were my best company that day.

Hello all!!! I am trying to cope with not eating, my protein drink seem to fill me more than water and broth. I have the protein drink in the morning. I am full all day up to about 3pm is that good? I don't see much of a difference, is that normal?

I am feeling good, the wounds ich a bit but Tuesday was my Birthday, (being banded) I am feeling good and I am going to enjoy my time off. Chat with you all and report in my weigh in. I was banded at 274 lbs. I see the Dr. on August 25, and get weighed in. Only achy where the port is overall I am feeling well with gass!!!

My goodness GAS, I just did it on TUESDAY AND I AM SO happy, I am so sorry for the young lady. Let me tell you I am an only child I have never had much support, and I always would start and never finish. I was always talked out of stuff or felt less of me. But as I got older I learned to live for me. I have been in many relationships and I seem to run into the wrong ASS WIPES!!! The last one dropped me a month before my procedure. No matter how well the 3yr relationship went he just moved on without saying a word. So I decided to keep moving forward, I really refused to let it get to me and I know if I did I would not had gone through with it. But todayThursday 11:33pm I am so DAMN HAPPY that I did. I have a lot of gass, farting, belching, but I have no problem with it. Let it out more room out than in. We have to keep such a positive attitude about ourselves. My mom didn't go with me to the hospital, I drove myself, and she decided to come and get me on Wednesday, she is not supportive of my decision, she buys all the fattest food to put on the table for display. She bought today a Lemon Cake by Entimanns, DAMN it that is my favorite and she knows it, but I walked away, I made my broth, and went back upstairs to my room. Unfortunately I live with her. But I am staying focus that my stay will be cut short to be able to afford my own place. She went shopping and I asked for lactose FAT FREE milk for my Protein, she comes back with Vitamin D Milk, Did I not make it clear? So I know I am tired of folks thinking they are going to hold me back. She is having a big BBQ Labor Day, I will decide to be out, me, my Fruit drinks, Water and protien drinks along with broth. I am not going to be here for that. Our relationship has been rocky for a long time, and she is more mad with me than I am with her. IT IS ABOUT CONTROL!!! BUT I am going to be just FINE, (My theme song by Mary J. Blige) So Sista stay focused as I said earlier and make this situation work for you. I am here if you want to talk/chat!!

Don't let this get you too down, I just had my surgery and no one and I mean no one supported me from the time I decided to do it to the day (Tuesday, August 12, 2008) I went and had it done. My mom did not talk to me from Sunday until Wednesday. Please sista don't give up, this is a start a brand new start, My relationship with a guy ended a month before, and let me tell you I am not letting no one get in my damn way for a life style change. From one woman to another, men regret it when they see the end result, and make it the best damn result you cand strut. Don't let no one get you in a depressed state. Cry it out but tomorrow, write out some goals and find out where you want to be. I thought I was going to loose it when I had not one family member or friend with me. Not one. I went to admissions alone, I woke up from surgery and still was alone, and from that experience it only made me more determained because I will prove to them I will be successfull with out you. I am here if you want to talk, chat, just hit me up. I will stay online, I am a little achy but I am so glad I did it. Because i am moving all the bad and bringing in the new. Just hold on and focus on healing, focus on the future of what it is you want and where it is you want to be. JUST HOLD ON, IT IS GETTING BETTER IN EVERY WAY, JUST FOCUS ON HEALING!!!

Tomorrow is my day....I am happy!!!! I am so glad the day is fast approaching, because of after tomorrow it is a new day of many good things to COME!!!!

I am starting about to get mine on Tuesday, DON'T YOU DARE GIVE UP YOU COME TOO FAR TO THINK THAT WAY!!!! PUT THE BRAKES ON AND SLOW DOWN AND TAKE ONE STEP AT A TIME!!!! Someone mentioned weight watchers try them, but don't give up!!!!!

I am being banded on Tuesday, don't worry you will be just fine, you have much support on this site here although I am new I am very positive, think positive stay strong hold strong to your decision.

Good Morning, when I made this decision, I was 39 and I knew I was going into my 40's and I promised myself to enjoy my 40's, because it is like the new 20's. I did what I need to do as a mom when the children were little, now that I have a 17 and 15 year olds, I am ready to do for me. I will always be mom, but I can now focus more on me and where I need to be in life, I am determained to do that, in a healthy way. It has not been easy, but nothing ever is. I am venting right now because of some harsh things I heard/over heard a friend said to another friend. "I don't need the procedure, because I can't do it, I don't go through with things, I am weak. Maybe at one time I was, but for the past few years, I started to change. I am not married, I am an only child and for a while I wanted to have lots of friends. Granted I admit I do get lonely, but I woke up in my late 30's and realize I don't need to surrond myself with them. I am surrounded with negative people, no one ever wants to do anything, but sit around eat, have man problems, and complain and talk about everyone else. I got so fed up with it I started moving away from it. I have always like going and doing things, but my friends are so miserable that I got caught up in it. For them it is comforting, for me it is depressing, and overwhelming mentally. We are all heavy women. My friends that don't have a life, I can suggest, they find excuse after excuse why they can't do things. I can say let us have some fun and go to Penn's Landing and walk around, they have a problem with that. They stay at home for 2-3 weeks on vacation and not go no where, I mean no where, for them that is vacation. I travel alone, I started last year and I enjoy it. I hope to start traveling with some folks soon as I change my life style. I am a single mom and I do things with the kids when I have my time for me I take it now. Not stay home and vacation in front of the tv with Oprah, Jerry Springer and Lifetime, I go out. For my birthday I want to Travel to Jamaica for my birthday in February and Celebrate my 40th Birthday, Yes I am 40 now, but I didn't get the opportunity to celebrate it, so I want to be on the beach and celebrate with a bathing suit on. Laying on the beach or in the pool. I am just looking for the next blessed 10 years fat free!!! I am going to do it!!!!!! We all are going to do it. We will make this work for us and no one else. I say when the door closes I am leaving it close walk away from the past and look forward to the future. My friends were great but I am growing in a different direction, I want to live, live life to the fullest, with acceptance or not, I am going to live life. I have no desire to sit around and feel sorry for myself, keep it moving!!!! SO WE ARE GOING TO MAKE IT WORK and ENJOY LIFE, AND LOOK FABULOUS, AND FIERCE!!!! Enjoy the rest of your day and I will see you all soon!!!!

Big congrats!!!!