ScaredButReady2.0

So I'm at a restuarant just drove to another county got an airbnb and now at Lunch, now what? Everyone is hungry ready to eat. Our drive consisted of bickering and upset feelings mostly led by me. I told my husband we should charter a boat he said that's not in our budget. But they are okay just eating food. I can't eat food anymore so looking for something else to fill the space as I am feeling extremelyoverwhelmed and sad. This surgery is not for people who live on a budget. Not being able to afford an impromptu trip, or excursions or activity outside of eating while on vacation or even while not. Leaves you feelings EMPTY, MISUNDERSTOOD, and SORRY FOR YOURSELF! I absolutely hate this! I hear on a well deserved vacation and can't even enjoy it. I'm doing everything to fight from crying and I feel on the edge. My family relies on Me for the positive ENERGY if I have a meltdown ot was cause so much issues. [emoji25][emoji25][emoji30] feelings so helpless Sent from my SM-G998U using BariatricPal mobile app

I am very sad, I can't drink anything without feeling pain. I miss eating a full meal with my family. I don't want to hear I will be better for it, I don't want to hear I'll be happy in the end!!! My Husband and me bond over his cooking (he is an amazing cook) and how great it taste and a Martini or 3 almost every night. He is athletic BTW! All the people I told about this surgery said why are you doing this, you're beautiful, you're not that big! I spent most of my life feeling like an IMPOSTOR in my skin. I feel beautiful some days and some days I felt just unattractive and honestly FAT! I could never say that out loud before. I am depressed alot but I'm functional and the one thing I could control whether happy or sad was what I wanted to eat! Now I don't even have that anymore. It's been replaced by emptiness, unsatisfactory feeling, pain, and loneliness. God I want that beef stew and white rice it smells amazing and probably tastes 100 times better than that. Instead I have to settle FOR MASSIVE Indegestion and 30 MLs of emptiness! I ABSOLUTELY REGRET THIS SO MUCH!!! Sent from my SM-G998U using BariatricPal mobile app

Thank you so much for this my journey is very lonely eventhough I have alot of people in my life. No one understands and My husband is making everything about him. I literally had my sisters force a desert on me the other day because they couldn't understand how I could be full. It's excruciating some days. Bur thank u it nice to have everyone's support Sent from my SM-G998U using BariatricPal mobile app

I am doing a bit better than before ... today was not a very good day... not making very healthy food choices and still feel like I'm starving! My Husband drinks heavy so I've fell back into drinking because I can eat. He can't fix my mood so he drinks and I hate when he drinks and I can't eat food so I drink. I need therapy but I also don't feel it will work so here I am . Sent from my SM-G998U using BariatricPal mobile app

Thank you very true Sent from my SM-G998U using BariatricPal mobile app

Thank you, will try next meal Sent from my SM-G998U using BariatricPal mobile app

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Thank you in the Keys FL Sent from my SM-G998U using BariatricPal mobile app

I drank a few sips of ice tea and vodka and now I feel like there a lump in my throat and my stomach hurts! I REGRET THIS Surgery so much... why did I do this I wasn't huge the scale said that but I had a flat stomach big legs, no HBP, no Diabetes, just IBD, AND GERD! WHY I have no identity now. Eating out, at home, drinking gave me so much pleasure. I feel so stupid. I can't even eat more than 2 bites, I don't want this anymore. I even quit my job. I hate it here! My throat hurts so weird Sent from my SM-G998U using BariatricPal mobile app

I appreciate your detail and it does help alot so thank you. I'll do my very best to make a therapy appointment. I feel like I'm losing my mind. And this life I have is no longer recognizable and it all I had. I've struggled my entire life with not being good enough and people pleasing. I decided to make a change with that and now with this too much... I didn't actually like my entire life before, so I welcome positive change, this doesn't seem positive it just seems like another very very hard thing. I'm tired of having to go through these very very hard things for happiness I call it SUFFER LOVE! Sent from my SM-G998U using BariatricPal mobile app

Thank you it helps to know I'm not nutz... I have insurance still but finding a therapist been hard. No one is immediately available and I am hang such an issue with instant gratification if I can't get what I want or need instantly I give up! I do need therapy for sure. Sent from my SM-G998U using BariatricPal mobile app

I'm on omeparzole... that probably exactly what happened woke up feeling a little better thank you. Sent from my SM-G998U using BariatricPal mobile app

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Sugar free Popsicles and clear peach protein were my best friends! Sent from my SM-G998U using BariatricPal mobile app

Yes!!!! You completely understand not to mention the emotional transformation that's occurring in tandem! This **** is difficult! Thank you for writing to me you and everyone else on here has helped me immensely!!! I appreciate you more than you will ever know [emoji120] Sent from my SM-G998U using BariatricPal mobile app

Thank you for that! I appreciate you taking the time to write something that is very helpful to me. Thank you Sent from my SM-G998U using BariatricPal mobile app

Thank you so very much for breaking it down like you have for me I appreciate it! Alot [emoji120][emoji120] Sent from my SM-G998U using BariatricPal mobile app

You are a blessing for taking the time to be so descriptive and it is extremely HELPFUL! Thank you do very much truly! [emoji120][emoji120] Sent from my SM-G998U using BariatricPal mobile app

Thank you soooo very much, yes they do actually. I was going to make an appointment for a session as well. [emoji847][emoji120] you all are a blessing Sent from my SM-G998U using BariatricPal mobile app

Lol thank you for this! Sent from my SM-G998U using BariatricPal mobile app

Elesir8 you are so right! I do need a distraction. Not sure it's work for me , I'm highly successful a day I hate my job most days. So coloring sounds like a great suggestion. Thank you so very much Sent from my SM-G998U using BariatricPal mobile app

Very very uplifting message thank you so very much for taking the time to write this. It's touch and go for me I tried my hardest for last 2 days not to cry, so willing myself to stay strong. It's not even about the food for me... but it's about the food of that makes any sense. Thank you Sent from my SM-G998U using BariatricPal mobile app

Thanks for your support hard to see my way out just yet... nothing about this process has been stable or encouraging... nothing makes total sense right now but again THANKS YOU for your kinds words Sent from my SM-G998U using BariatricPal mobile app

Thank you ... I'm 6 days post op 263 to 254 before surgery 5'6 and now 252 scale not moving! Horrible intestinal issues too [emoji25] Sent from my SM-G998U using BariatricPal mobile app

I am with you Nelly Maximum results, I totally agree just because we can maybe think better options Sent from my SM-G998U using BariatricPal mobile app