Nepenthe44

I bought my first pair of jeans in over a decade and am wearing them. And I know I'm supposed to be happy, but all I see is the fat bulging beneath the fabric. I feel like a disgusting freak with a huge, pendulous stomach and fat, but disproportionately small legs. 

I don't look "great". I look disgusting. I'm just smaller, with fat still dripping down over every inch of me. 

This is supposed to be my end point from my highest weight and I cannot live like this.