Dfidelman

I had a severe melt down. No matter what I did I felt horrible. Everything I took in I almost barfed. So tbh I have a confession to make. .... I cheated. I ate a triangle from a plain cheese quesadilla. I was tired of the shakes and feeling sick all the damn time. I was tired of being cold. I was tired of feeling so sick and tired. I was tired of feeling like death all the time. Every day I woke up my body would say something is wrong with you dee. It induced severe panic. I would only get that way if something was seriously wrong. Sigh. I feel so quilts for my.moment of weakness but st least I chewed properly and didn't push. So a positive if I have to have one. I'm gonna get back on track tomorrow. I shed the tears. I asked for help. I knew where the problems were so time to get back on track. I fought too hard for this. Please be kind.

So some more developments sleep has been crap but I've been avoiding edibles because I'm so close out from surgery. But my mental health has gone to ****. I think I am doing the stuff most people do at the beginning. I want to avoid everyone. I'm about 2 seconds from snapping and eating normally and flipping my doctors off because that's been a trip already to say the least. And im going stir crazy. Yes I have hobbies. But even then tell that to my starved mind body and spirit to stay motivated and that's provided I don't feel tired or too sick to my stomach to continue on. I hate this I hate it so much. I have to watch tiktoks of people spilling food . Commercials everywhere. Family and friends shopping their food like pigs and all I want to do is eat and probably cry in the process while doing so. It even angers me to watch my roommates fill their bellies with supper then eat snacks like a damn bachelor pad for just one person or take the experience for granted when I can't eat a lick of it for months. And blast it all the damn weather. At least I could go for a walk if it was warmer but nope I live where it's cold all the damn time. Ugh. Sorry I'm just beyond frustrated. I love you all and grateful you all have been here for me. I couldn't be strong without you.

Wow I didn't think of those having so much ill definitely need to look into it. This is day 2 of miralax so wish me luck lol. I remember metformin days and I wasn't here for that trauma so I'd like to avoid it at all costs. I wrote all this down and will grab some tomorrow when I go shopping again. Thank you.

So I am now experiencing what I think is constipation. Haven't gone since like day 3 . Feel like I need to or st least gassy but that's about it. I'm also having a hard time getting g protein in since they are having me dilute shakes. So I might go back to not diluting them so I can drink 2 gross shakes versus 8 a day cause it's only 11g when I dilute them half and half in a 8oz jar. I don't feel dehydrated or deprived in any way but still I wanna get that number in. Any tips?

I just find it odd my book says in addition too but the nurse said no. Don't we need sugars to live. Idk. No added sugar makes sense to me versus none period. I'm thinking diabetic brain with carbs etc. As far as hunger I think you're right maybe some food jealousy. The burning pee? It seems to happen around having tomatoes soup too. I wonder if it's a combo of that and acidic foods. The color though from the meds. Woah lol

So today I was advanced to full liquid diet. They seemed very dead set on no sugars period and I can't have fruit juice at this stage. It frustrated me cause why let me then take it away? Because before it wS supposed to be clear liquids and 5g or less in sugar. So I scheduled an appt with my dietician versus the nurse. I am also experiencing burning when I pee. But I took a round of the meds when I left the hospital for it and it went away at least for now. Did anyone get an explanation on this? Ph increase due to food? Since I am a new food eater what have been the biggest hunger signs for you? I still have to religiously measure my food but just curious. Thanks for all the help.

For me Bai juices were a God send. It was so nice to have a liquid not water and they also have caffeine. I love blueberry and cherry. I remember craving that was a pasty milk flavor in the middle and that saved me.

I am doing a lot better. My doctor thinks I did too much too fast and my liquids are a bit too fast since it doesn't bug me when I take liquids in or I just take too much at once like a whole bottle versus a little bit. I have little to no pain at this point but the food cravings have gotten insane sometimes. Like I feel angry I can't eat. It didn't bother me until now. Just curious even though I know the answer. But has anyone or anyone you've heard of been able to skip a diet phase due to the healing going so well? I don't want to. I'm in this for the long haul so please be kind.

I am allowed clear liquids but water was sticking down consistently well so I just went with that. Now I'm doing protein waters and diluted apple juice which helped energy etc. I was also told by the nurse today to reduce fluid 2to 4 hrs before bed so it reduced BMs so I can sleep. So I'll try that. Also an all over belly cool pack seems to be quite delightful.

So has anyone had issues with really bad reflux during this diet? Mine overall has been fine or a sign a shake is need but today I was very active at work and no amount of shakes, water or tea could make it go away. It hurt so bad. I got home tonight and have been using my heat pad all night which is the o ly way I feel normal. I have 1 more day before my weekend before my Monday surgery. Please help 🙏

I am doing way better now. My headache has gone away and I've started drinking them more without too much issue. I've noticed I need one every 3 hrs cause I get reflux and stuff from not eating. I think the suck was because of adjusting and my chronic migraines also didn't like I wasn't eating. My energy is low today. I wish I could stay home and sleep but I gotta keep going. 6 more days. I didn't think about the powder ones though. That sounds like an amazing idea. Thank you so much.

So mine has started and I'm miserable. I don't want anything. My headache is so bad it's insane. They say 5 to 6 servings I can maybe stomach 3 . Water has been my best friend so far. And I know the Protein is important I wish we could skip it though tbh all together cause ugh. 😩 wish me better luck on day 3 cause right now this is a nightmare.

Ugh same. I've only been able to get 2 protein shakes down and 2 to 3 waterbottles and I'm now on day 3 writing this. It's 4:51am right now and I can't go back to bed. Head still kills and I got to work til the 10th to make sure I have all the money I need. I can't stop thinking to myself how is this possible. Why out of all the vids out there did they not tell us this stuff? It's always It's hard cause you can't eat. What about this?! I'm wondering if I could get a doctor's not just in case cause ugh I just want to sleep it away. First day I slept from 530pm to 1030am. Ugh it sucks. I hope it's as worth it as everyone says.

So I start mine on 3.03.23. I'm wondering what accommodations I would need. Like needs to be always close to the bathroom. Part time from fainting? I drink like a fish especially fasting. I. Worried peeing frequently may be an issue. Please help.

OK so I have a question I can't seem to find anywhere. I have my surgery in March. I was wondering what are thoughts of taking the pre op diet time off. I work retail right now. I can't imagine it helps having to pee all the time. Some suggest work to keep distracted but I'm worried about not having easy access to a bathroom or my boss being bitter I have to go alot. Ideas or what you did would be wonderful. Thanks.

Hello everyone, I've been missing for awhile but I am proud to report that FINALLY my surgery with park nicollet has been scheduled for March 13th. I'm so nervous and so excited and sick to my stomach. My gosh. I never though this day would come.

I got my date this morning of the 13th. I almost got sick being so emotional. This is so much more than the weight for me. I'm so proud of what I've done to get here. Congratulations on the big day!!!

Hello everyone, I was diagnosed with PCOS in 2020 and was wondering if WLs has truly change it for you better or worse. Part of the reason I am doing this surgery is to hopefully get rid of the weight that is impossible to lose due to PCOS but also because I heard it "cures" it. What are you're thoughts or experiences?

Yeah I started my journey a couple yrs ago. I had a couple surgeries that was the reason to postpone. (I had already passed the physical stuff and diet stuff then btw) . Then after PTSD and stress management therapy and me looking into other therapies just to do all i can on that front this psychologist says I have to do 6 months to a yr of DBT . I ended up leaving DBT after a mo th cause I hated the program. I'm worried I jeopardized it all because I want to focus on my chronic migraines vs therapy and work on residual stuff after I've healed from that. I think it's unfair to push a specific therapy knowing not all therapies fit everyone and I've met my minimums months and months ago. My life coach even says I'd be amazing for the surgery. I'm so frustrated everyone else on my team is amazing I don't want to lose them. But this J.S.(psychologist) is driving nuts.

Yeah at one point it was intentional fitness even if i was walking 2 - 10 miles a day she was worried I would forget to do it if it wasn't a routine and a must do. Then she back peddled and said anything is good as long you are up and moving 150 minutes per week. Now its i forgot to tell you to do these therapies for mental health. So I literally snapped and told her how I felt. Now it is do the therapy but my life coach is intervening making sure thats all and by sept the surgery is a go. ugh so much work it feel like for nothing. I have PCOS and managed to keep my weight at a 233. thats huge since I am normally at 255 ish. I can only pray. The rest of the team is proud of me and totally shocked. My nurse even said , : we've been watching you and you have been done with all the goals for some time. Where are you at let's do this thing!!"

update: She forgot to tell me about a therapy. so 6 more months. she says once this done she will green light me. I told her to put that in writing. I also reached out to my life coach and he said that he will make sure no later than sept/ oct this thing is gonna go down. its been a lot. it kinda made me angry tbh. I am all for mental health and such thats not what makes me mad. I think it ate at me knowing it was supposed to be my yr anniversary. So to relieve stress I let her have it as well as going to get a nose piercing. I'm tired of waiting to do the things that make me happy.

I have yet to have my surgery still duelling it out with my psych stuff. It would have been a yr anniversary. I am hoping for the sleeve though tbh . I also dont know my insulin levels can't imagine it is good though with PCOS and my dieting has plummeted with recent job ugh. trying to get back on track though.

Congratulations!!!!

ok one last final question. How long did you have to do those breathing exercises for? Did you have to do the weird tube thing or something else?

Yeah I am trying to figure out that life balance. I have a 10 yr old and my roommate works during the day. I also have a multi level house so that may be interesting there too. I would guess stair is a no go or just too painful to do?