Alostkey

I am 4 years old and strict with getting in my protein first and foremost. Im having monthly period cravings. I can’t stop obsessing about weight and cravings and thoughts of food. Im not sure what’s going on with me but I have this instaiable hunger. I feel like my hunger is returning and its really terifying me. Im petrified of weight regain. I was in the hospital 4 times since my July tummy tuck with lower body lift. I went septic and required ICU blood transfusions. I was at my lowest weight of 190. I couldn’t eat when I was weak and sick. Now my body is healing a dehissed wound on my hip (from that surgery) its like my body is craving things it did pre surgery. Im terrified and get scared going up 2 pounds then down 3, im in a constant yoyo. Ive been talking to my counselor about it but I feel like they might not understand the disordered way of thinking about food. Thanks for letting me vent. Im hoping to see my bariatric surgeon soon and try to figure this out. However, I am out of state from him. Im honestly thinking that my hunger is stemming from a genetic condition. I was also born with mosaic turner syndrome (I did the testing and have the rare obesity gene) anyways 125 grams of protein daily and under 60 carbs should keep me full. I go to bed depressed and brush and floss so I don’t engage in eating. I can’t stop thinking about food and feeling constantly head hungry. This is miserable I just try to go to sleep and control my obsessing. This makes me feel like I’m just eventually going go regain it all. Thanks for listening. I hope my fears go away.

I could really use someone to talk to if anyone is willing.