LookingForward22

While I had spend all of my life over-weight... I saw things really jump after the birth of my children. I developed high blood pressure with the pregnancy of my second child that never went away. After a few years medication was required, which controled it very well.  I was still mobile and did not let anything stop me. I was always on the go, very active, independant and out going. As I got older, my weight kept creeping upwards. So there was a "3" where the "2" used to be. But again, I didn't worry becasue I could still do everything I wanted to do (or did I just convinced myself I didn't want the things I couldn't do).
A few years ago, I was in a car accident that changed everything for me. My independence & mobility were impacted - I had to start to learn what my new normal would look like. With my mobility compromised, the weight started to creep up again, which impacted my mobility even more. Despite my size & my issues stemming from the accident, up until then my health issues we limited to insulin resistance (only requiring blood pressure medicine), my thyroid & issues related to my accident. Labs had been largly good, until now.
My liver decided it wanted some attention and I got really sick. It was enlarged 3 times the expected size and my function was declining (I progressed quickly form NAFLD to NASH). It was time to do something.  After a heart to heart with my PCP (who is not quick to recommend surgery as a solution), he said it is time to talk to your endocrinologist (who had been urging me for sometime to consider WLS). I did talk to him, but I wasn't conviced yet. One day I stepped on the scales and it said 382, my highest weight ever and I was done... obviously I needed help. But I needed to prove to myself that I could make changes - or I knew not even surgery could help. I spent the next several months making some changes (sometimes succeeding - sometimes failing) and after I lost 40 pounds and decided it was time to contact a program to get the ball rolling.
The first one I reached out to was not a good fit. That was discouraging, but not as discouraging as getting Covid and regaining about 20 of the now 50 pounds I had lost. I needed to get back on track, and once I did I found a new program. I have continued to loose weight during the pre-op phase. 

I know the surgery isn't the easy fix, and I still have a lot of hard work in front of me.  I don't need the judgements and opionion from others to be an obsitcal, so I choose not to tell many people out side of need to know. Its not their business. I don't really have a goal weight in mind (I did put one in on the tracker, but that was just to have a umber). My goal is to be healthier (especially my liver) & to feel better. I want to be a better partner, mom, sibling and friend to the people in my life by being my best self.  If I can get to wonderland great!, if i can get to a "normal" BMI - if I feel good there - Amazing. For now I have a set of mini goals in front of me and I am going to celebrate each an every one, becasue this is hard work and if I am going to hold my self accountable for the fails, I owe it to myself to celerbrate the milestones. 

Best of luck to everyone on their journey!