Hey, I am about 18 hours from arriving at the hospital for my surgery. I have been on clear liquids for 4 days.. I started it on Saturday.. Can I just say that I went into work on Saturday for 10 hours so I wouldn't be at my house staring at the kitchen cabinets, the refrigerator, and my freezer... I worked for 6 hours on Sunday.. It has honestly been the toughest thing I have done because I am the type of eater that wouldn't let myself really feel hungry. I ate according to the clock whether I was hungry or not. Saturday night my husband, stepson and I went out and I spotted a young, little thing eating a frito chili pie and can I just say it took everything in my power not to jump up and tackle her. Over the last 4 days I have realized a lot about my obsession/dependance on food and sometimes I feel like no one gets it but i know deep down that isn't true. I had the "last syndrome" also but when I am in the midst of this obsession I have to stop and say.. This is just food.. There has got to be something more important.. I will be able to eat better and feel better once i pay my dues.. haha what is two weeks post op compared to several years at a "normal" weight.. It is hard and it is scary because it is the complete unknown. Obviously I am the way I am because I couldn't manage to control how much I ate but I know that it is just a couple of days drinking liquids versus a heart attack or not being able to have babies with my husband.. that is what I have to remember to get me through the tough times but I think it is worth it.. You are not alone in the brain activity.. I promise!!!