Having surgery on Monday 25 Oct. Day 2 of liquid diet, hasn't been too bad so far. It is all becoming real now and I'm a little anxious about what's to come after. It is a whole new way of living and I'm scared I won't be able to stick with it. Obviously, if I had the willpower before I wouldn't be where I am right now. Don't get me wrong, I want this, I need this but...I'm afraid I will let myself down. Sorry, I guess I'm just gong through the pre-surgery jitters, second guessing everything. Everyone on here is so inspiring and strong. I just hope I can be that strong too.