JayinMA
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Well the support group is tomorrow, no? I don't think I can go. I get out of work at 5 and have to use the time after work to call and have a talk with my cell phone company who thinks it's ok to treat me like crap and then demand money at the end of the month. I can find people to treat me like crap for free!
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Ok, so again it’s been a couple days since I checked in. My life has been crazy and stressful (which means food was consumed) but things are going alright. I was sure when I went in for my first fill I would have gained, scientifically it was obvious it was going to happen. I had gone crazy with food. Once I realized I could eat anything, well I did. But when I got there, I found out I hadn’t gained anything. I hadn’t lost anything either, but I hadn’t gained, so small victory there. Although if I had gained I think it would have been more of a kick in the pants motivation starter. I want to try going to the gym early in the morning. Waking up at 5:30 a.m. going to the gym from 6 to 7 and then back home to shower and be at work at 8:45. Now, on paper, simple. I cannot get my body to actually accomplish this goal. I want to make it my routine. Hopefully it won’t be bitterly cold when I wake up because that will be the kiss of death. So I should probably explain what I said in the previous posts about being on my own. I don’t discount you guys at all, I love the support the site and particularly this post offers. I just heard over and over again that the band was a tool (and I’m not saying it’s not) but I feel that it hadn’t been pulling it’s weight lately. And I had started talking to it in my head (I might be certifiably crazy at this point) it’s kind of like this Me: So…. I just ate like 4 slices of pizza with no objection from you.. What gives? Band: Oh? Oh I have to do this alone? You can’t look at 4 slices of pizza and know it’s too much? Me: I just thought you’d help out. Band: I’m 2 months old, jackass, you expect me to undo everything it took you 26 years to do in 2 months? Unrealistic expectations my friend. Me: I really don’t need this. Band: You really didn’t need 4 slices of pizza either. It always gets the last word. But Dr. R put in 4 cc’s and unfortunately I didn’t even feel restriction at all. I thought that it would probably take one or two more fills, but I heard some people have a little restriction the first day or so and it eventually tapers off. Well, I didn’t seem to have any at all. Which makes me a little nervous that it might take 4 or 5 fills until I actually feel it. On the plus side, I bought a new car this weekend, so so long crapbox I was driving! Did someone say they were going to the Faulkner support group this month? Who? And when is it? Maybe I’ll try to drop by that one.
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Hey I haven't been on a lot in a while either. I don't know what it is, but it seems the band is just becoming part of my life and not really the big priority anymore, so coming to the site is something I can do when I have time. I had my first fill, it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I got 4 cc's put in. I am down 14 lbs. My next fill is 4/27. how did yours go?
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Hi everyone, im still kicking around, ggoing for my fill tomorrow (dr. R wouldn't give me one last time. I was pretty upset, but then I stopped being upset, so I was just pretty) Paige- great new pic, you look awesome and congrats on telling some people. I hope this fill does something for me, I've felt pretty alone in this lately and have been gaining weight which is depressing. So fingers crossed!
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Thank you for the reassurance. It's odd to think that I got something stuck when I didn't think anything was in the band!
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So... I don't know what happened to me today. I was at lunch, and I had some mashed potatoes. Which I have eaten a few times since surgery especially during the mushy phase. I take two bites and...uh oh. I'm stuck? I've had a few feelings of something similar before where I swallowed too big of a bite or something and it's a little painful for about 30 seconds and then you feel it pass. But this time it stayed there. I could feel the pressure on my chest. And I made my way into the bathroom and started to dry heave. Nothing came up. I start to wonder if I'm possessed. Next I heave and I expel from my devil riddled body nothing more than a bunch of saliva. Which is odd for several reasons, what happened to the mashed potatoes? Did they make it down and the saliva didn't? I'm nota scientist, but I would think it would go liquids first then the denser of the foods would go next. However, not the case. The point of my post is to ask, was that a PB? Because to my understanding that would be a Productive Burp, but I didn't burp and nothing was produced. If I tell Dr. R. about this tomorrow do you think he might not give me a fill? I think i desperately need one, I'm hungry all the time! also, who's going to the meeting tomorrow?
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Ooh i got stuck today too! It was so weird because at lunch I had mashed potatoes, something I've had a few times while on mushy stage, and I ate it and then it just... stuck. And Usually if something has a little trouble going down I just pause for a moment and can feel it pass. Not this time. I had to get to the bathroom and have a few dry heaves and then all i could get up was a bunch of saliva. It wasn't pleasant. I don't know if I should tell the Dr. cause he might not give me a fill!
this will be my second post op appt. I had one 10 days after surgery.
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singin- I have seen that thread, and I'm happy for those people but I feel so removed from it. Maybe someday I'll be there, maybe I won't, time will tell. Paige - Thank you for saying that you had trouble with it too, i really thought I was the only one. I really only see posts from people who either ate around the band and couldn't figure out what happened, or people who LOVED the band and I'm neither. I try my best to eat the right things and the smaller portions and no matter what I do the scale doesn't budge or goes up. I'm hoping a fill will at least help me take off a few pounds so I can feel the motivation again. Trying hard and seeing no result really takes the wind out of your sails. Also part of my frustration is that I have this incision that still hasn't healed properly. I've been to my pcp and been calling Jennifer who is relaying messages to Dr. Robinson and I hope he can take care of it on tuesday. I was trying so hard to not have noticeable scars but this will definitely leave one. Which woudln't be a bad trade off if I was losing weight, but seeing an open wound on my abdomen and having it drain out onto my clothes (they say I can't bandage it) is getting pretty annoying. I'm not sure about the meeting this month, I'll let you know a definite as soon as I know, but I have an appointment at 12:45 and I'm not sure I'll want to hang around until 6. I got something in the mail about Brigham and Women's having something in Patriot Place in foxboro. I think i'll ask at my appointment if they do fills there. That would be much more convenient for me!
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I got this program called calrorie king and it helps me track my daily calories and everything else, so I've been trying to keep it to 1500, but that was really hard, so I upped my allowance to 1700. It's still less than I would have been eating so it's ok.. i guess. I just like being able to keep track of things so they dont' get away from me.
How are you doing? are you still losing?
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Sorry, I'm not ignoring I'm just... I don't know. The weight loss has stopped no matter what I try I even put back on 2 lbs. I can (and sometimes do) eat almost anything. One of my incisions isn't healing properly so I've been going back and forth to the Dr. to make sure it isn't infected. I see the surgeon on tuesday to get a fill, I hope that helps, because I'm starting to think maybe I made a mistake. I'm just being lame. Hopefully it'll pass.
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has anyone ever felt like getting the band was a mistake? I have for 3 days anyone else felt that, even for a minute?
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I can have liquor after a fill? You just turned my black and white world to color again! And on a day when it's socially acceptable to drink during the daytime! Currently I'm waiting to hear from my PCP, because I suspected one of my incisions was getting infected, and Dr. R. is also supposed to call to tell me if I have to come in and have him look at the area. I hope he says no, I can't take another day off. Well I can but I just don't want to.
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I work for a state college and we also have "evacuation day" off. I have to be there for a fill, so if people are going, I'll be there.
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I know it's a long way off, but is anyone planning on attending the next group meeting? If I have the dates right it should be on the 17th which is also St. Patrick's day. Just trying to make plans and if not many are going to go I might skip also. I'm getting kind of disheartened with this process at the moment. I hope everyone is doing well
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It's fairly certain that I'll be having the surgery in the beginning of February, any one else out there making the biggest change in the shortest month?
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they say if you're still hungry on liquids make sure you're getting all your liquids including all your daily water, also you could try adding fiber powder like benefiber.
You're supposed to wait for mushies because even when the swelling goes down the stitches could still rip. When you eat food that needs to be thoroughly digested your stomach churns, when it does that, it can rip your stitches. I know all that and I still cheated, I'm an idiot.
I have lost about 40lbs since my first consult in october, about 17 since surgery
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Yeah I just couldn't take it anymore. I had been on that pre-op liquid diet for 25 days and I was just done with liquiods. I made sure to chew everything up really good, so nothing got stuck. Plus after a few days to a week after surgery all the "restriction" that swelling had caused had gone away and I wasn't satisfied after just a few bites of jello and things like that.
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Ok I will do sundays! I was on liquids for 10 days until I had my follow up and the doctor said I could go on to the next stage. I lasted on mushies for like five days and then i had a soup that wasn't listed on my approved foods list and I admit I've had a slice of pizza that I cut up really small and chew well.
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I work for a college and I'm hoping they cancel also! I've had a cold for the past two days and the sneezing and coughing have really made my abdomen quite sore. On the plus side, having no appetite has made me drop some more weight, i'm almost 100lbs to goal. I know that seems so far off, but it's as close as I've been in as long as I can remember! Hope everyone stays warm and safe!
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I am on mushies, but I must admit, I'm not sticking to it all that well... I pretty much have a few things not on the list and just make sure I chew them up well. I know I'm not supposed to but... well there's no good reason but I did go off the plan.
as for weighing myself, I have been weighing myself everyday, but i need to stop that. I should stick to one day a week, maybe I'll make it sundays too!
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I experienced the same thing, only I weighed myself right when I left the hospital and I had gained 11lbs. However, I had to go to the bathroom every 2 hours it seemed after I got home, so it does leave you rather quickly. I'm glad you're feeling better!
I currently have a cold and I strongly encourage you not to get one. I have been coughing and sneezing and it has made my stomach so sore. I can barely move. But, I did get the date for my first fill, March 17th, so that will be exciting!
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I'm sorry to hear you're in pain, did they give you perscription medication for it? The good news is most people see great improvements each day with pain, so it'll only get easier!! I'm so proud of you, and excited to start dropping the pounds with you!
I'm doing alright, thank god it's the weekend, I might've gone back to work too soon, i'm exhausted!
Hope you feel better soon! Congrats on becoming a Bandit!
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Hello, i also have Harvard Pilgrim and they approved me in a day and a half, with no obstacles. I had my initial consult in october 2008 and had surgery in february 2009 with Dr. Robinson. You may be able to go a little quicker than I did as my work schedule isn't very flexible so I couldn't take all the appointments at the earliest time they had one open. I think you will do fine!
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Sorry for the lack of posting everyone, but I am exhausted. I went back to work on tuesday and boy has it taken a lot out of me. However, since no one knows that I had the band everyone has been really nice as they all think I had this really invasive surgery. the appointment the other day was fine, I was excited to learn that there was no co-pay for the first appointment after surgery. The trouble starts when I go to get weighed. I get on the scale and see the number and the nurse goes "ok you're up 2lbs. not bad." And... I'm actually down 18lbs since I last officially weighed. So I ask, "Are you sure, what was the last weight you had for me." and she repeats it back to me and I look down on the scale and it's clearly 18lbs less than what she said. So then she says. "It's not a big deal, it's difficult to lose weight especially in the winter, you'll do better next time." At this point, I'm looking for the candid camera and thinking what a mean joke this is, especially for an overweight person and then she says "Oh, I did that math wrong, I'm sorry you lost 18lbs!" and she's so apparently happy for me and I'm not liking her anymore at this point but I have to fake being happy with her anyways. So I go back into the exam room and the nurse is taking my vitals, and here's the thing... I know they try to make small talk to calm people down and to make things just run smoother, but if you haven't read up on the patient, don't discuss their surgery with them. Let's just go ahead and make that a rule. I go in and the nurse starts taking my blood pressure and making me put my finger in that that thing that tells you your pulse and oxygen percentage, and she's talking and goes "So are you excited for surgery? You're having the bypass right?" and I say, "No, I had the band put in on the 12th" To which she replies, "Oh, ok so you're here for a fill today!" and I honestly didn't know if I was, I didn't think I was, but who knows maybe if you're really overweight like I am you get a fill 10 days out. Who knows? So I'm sitting there now confused and she's preparing the room for something, (what? I don't know) and she leaves and comes back with a cup of water and says "After the fill Dr.Robinson might want you to swallow some water, if he does it's right here." And now I'm getting worried because I had had my liquids for the day and I'm not sure if you're supposed to eat before a fill or what. So Dr. Robinson comes in and says "how are you feeling?" I say "I feel ok." He nods and sits at the computer and does some data entry while I sit there and watch wondering if I should try to make small talk. I decide against it. After a long silent five minutes pass he looks over at me and says "Ok let's see the scars." He looks at them and pokes around and says "these look good, they should heal nicely as long as you don't pick at them." I don't know why he would assume my new pasttime would be picking at my surgery wounds but ok, thanks for the information. And then he tells me to make an appointment for four weeks from now and have a good day. So March 17th will be my first fill. That day was exhausting. But since i have returned to work I have found the soreness of the port area has grown exponentially. Is this normal, when you move more you get more sore? I think it's the getting in and out of the car, the up and down from my desk, and other motions I go through and forget to take it easy on that area. I don't like this mushy food diet. I'm really ready to start trying regular foods again. Did anyone not stick to the post-op diet? I don't mean that I'm going to have a 32 oz. steak or anything like that anytime soon but this diet plan they have me on now is like 8:oo a.m. have 2 oz. eggs, 10 have pudding, 12 have 2 oz. chicken for lunch.... all the way through the day I'd like some variety or something. I think I'm starting to worry that this will be the rest of my life, 2 oz of chicken for lunch every day forever. And I don't think i can handle that because I have to cook that the night before and heat it up at work and it doesn't taste that good. Hopefully I can make it through.
