Hey themis! I have that voice too. The one that says that I am a failure because I can't do it on my own. I am not just doing this for me. I have a 2 year old daughter that I need to be a better example to than my mother was to me. She (my mom) is overweight too and has been as long as I can remember. I need to retrain myself while I'm teaching good habits to my daughter.
I can totally relate to heartfire about feeling the weight...that makes perfect sense to me.