Well, I am a 27 year old mother of two. Today is my birthday. And my wish is to have bariatric surgery this year. I was always very small until I had my children and became ill. I went from 112 lbs at twenty weeks pregnant to 230 lbs after I had my daughter. I am only four foot ten inches, so the weight is over double my Healthy weight. my weight has induced fertility problems, numbness in my hands and legs, insulin resistance, sleep apnea, and very poor self esteem with depression. I am hoping that I can find the information I need to make an informed decision about my surgery and build a support group tht I read was nessassary. Two months ago, I saw a picture of myself on myspace with my two best friends. I didn't recognise myself. I have went from this cute little blonde to something I couldn't recognise. I need to find me again under all this fat. My husband is scared something will go wrong, but it can't be as bad as what is wrong now. Can it?