the thing is though, with my head telling me this, is there a possibility i am turning into havgn anorexic thoughts? i just feel so low today and yesterday. its rubbish, especially after the weekend i had, why cant i feel as happy as i did then, and not now??????? my clothes are hanging off me and so are my rings, and ive had to tighten my watch, so why is that not making me feel happy?
my ultimate goal is to hve a horse by the time i reach my goal weight, so ive been looking into livery yards near me and the types of horses that are for sale at the moment, but do i really want that now, or is just me haing second thoughts tonight?
lots of rhetorical questions, i just had to wrte tem all down. cos when im not feeling like this and i come to read what ive written here in a week or a months time, i will probably be in a better place in myself by then, and not feeling as rubbish as i do today.
ive got to think there are people in much worse situations then i am, and its not the be all and end all to be thin straight away, but i dont think that the thin thing is what is getting me down at the mo, think its just cos im so tired.
need to start fresh day tomorrow and forget about today, life is for the future, not the past, or something like that.
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