Wren371

I have struggled with my weight in reality and perception my entire life.  When I was younger, I thought I was fat based on antiquated Dr's charts and the weights of my friends.  I couldn't get it through my head that they were almost a foot shorter than me and that I had a lot of muscle.  As I got older and struggled to have children, my PCOS was finally diagnosed.  Fertility drugs helped me get pregnant, but the weight kept creeping up.  I have tried so many weight loss options over the years, only to lose and gain, lose, and gain. Each time feeling more and more like a failure.  I SWORE I would NEVER get weight loss surgery-isn't that cheating?  The easy way?  After spending the last 8 months, dieting and exercising only to lose 10 pounds, I said, "THIS IS ENOUGH!"  I talked with my husband and kids (the Core 4) and asked them if they thought I would be a failure if I went this route.  Individually, they all said that they had wanted me to do this for years, but knew I needed to come to the conclusion myself.  They know I struggle with not being as active as I used to be and I beat myself up about it a lot.  I am not a failure or taking the easy way out by doing this.  I am taking control of my life!