I felt the same way before my surgery. My coworkers even threw my a presurgery party that was junk food themed. We had chips, candy, burgers, Taco Bell, you name it. I had my surgery about 5 mo ago, and I can still eat all of those things, just in very small portions. I had a (very small) piece of cake just yesterday.
One thing that I’ve been dealing with was this feeling of sadness....or maybe jealousy. It’s definitely not regret, because I don’t regret my decision. But I see how much other people can eat and it makes me sad. I included a picture of my thanksgiving dinner. I had a bit of everything (turkey, ham, bread, green bean casserole, sweet potato casserole, corn bread stuffing, mashed potatoes and gravy), but after I finished, I just sat there watching everyone else with their mounds of food on their plate.
Another thing, my surgeon told me, “you will throw up. It’s inevitable”. And that’s true, it just wasn’t what I was expecting. Most of the time it’s the foamies and the slimies. It’s basically just foamy saliva and mucous you’re body is producing to help food get into your stomach, but there’s just no more room, so it comes up and out.
I’ve had a lot of mixed emotions about my surgery, but every time I look in the mirror, I’m like, “yea, I made the right decision”. Every time I walk up a flight of stairs, I’m like, “oh yea, that’s why I did this”, etc.
All the best! Good luck!