lunar.crunch303

Hey all. I’m 7 days post op from gastric bypass. I don’t know how to change my profile from pre op right now. Things have been going really great actually. I’ve been handling things really well all things considered. Meeting my goals, even lightly walking and exercising every day. My mood was fantastic and I was blessed with very little pain. Before my surgery I went through a lot. I already got postponed several times over the course of 2 years, I started pursuing this in Nov 2019. I finally got scheduled in the middle of March. However I have been dealing with battling legal issues (retaliatory eviction and a civil rights discrimination case), a severely abusive relationship that I ended in the two weeks of my pre op, reporting him to several police agencies for the abuse, and just a LOT of emotional stress. It was hard but I did it and I felt so proud, and until today I felt amazing about it. I felt it was truly a test of sorts because I did not relapse with nicotine once, I didn’t binge eat the entire time. I hadn’t heard a single thing from my attorney about my eviction and I never got a response to my civil rights case in almost two months so I wasn’t expecting to get an email today in which I was severely slandered and read several upsetting abusive lies about me. The email wasn’t so much what bothered me. I had a great morning where I had tons of energy, I sang in the shower and danced around a little bit. Did my make up. It was just a minor set back, until I went to go tell my mother who I am staying with for just a little since I live in a basement level with a huge flight of dangerous stairs in my house. She was really dismissive and she wouldn’t listen to me. The whole situation was triggering me but I did what I was supposed to do, go tell my support. She was really mean to me and it completely set me off. I think I had one of those hormone reactions I was warned about, or perhaps just several weeks without any kind of food, quitting all my vices cold Turkey at the same time, everything just hitting me all at once but I lost it. I sobbed uncontrollably for several hours and I raged. I was so angry. Every time I thought I soothed myself, the crying would start again. I cried so hard I felt like I pulled something and now I’m in a lot of pain. I seriously wept and wailed for so long. I tried to reach out to supports but they were incredibly busy today. I finally decided to just go to sleep so I slept for several hours. I woke up and I feel only a little better, having stopped sobbing. But I feel like I got steam rolled. I do keep having sniffles and little crying fits. I lost all my momentum and motivation I had and I’m sincerely worried I’ll be permanently depressed again, which depresses me even further as I have felt so good the last few weeks. I didn’t relapse with over eating, I didn’t break my diet other than not meeting all my goals but I’m trying to catch up. I’m just so nauseated from crying so hard. Please tell me this will get better. What can I do? I’m still dealing with several toxic situations or the aftermath of them. I’m trying my best but I’m scared right now.

Thank you so much. I got some Gatorade and I was able to fall asleep. I do feel a little better.

I wouldn’t necessarily call dealing with abuse drama. That’s a little insulting. Otherwise, I do have a therapist I just don’t see her until Friday.

Not on the 27th, had mine on the 12th. But just wanted to wish you luck and I’m trying to be more active on this forum! If you ever have any questions or need help feel free to reach out! I’m happy to help!

Hi Grider, sorry if I’m doing this reply wrong. I appreciate your response a lot. I’ve calmed down a little bit since when I posted this. Not crying so much, made tea and watching a funny show. I struggle with religion so I’m not sure fully how to give it to God but I will try. You are right though, all these battles I have been fighting are just too much. I packed so much into this pre op and now post op, too afraid to postpone surgery in fear of it being much longer after I spent two years waiting. However, in hindsight I probably should have. I do have a long term therapist, I just don’t see her until Friday but I will try to call her in the morning. My hospital does a support group but only ever last Wednesday of the month, so I think I will try to find a more frequent one. And I have my surgery post op on Friday as well, I’ll check in with my surgery support person then too. I will do my best to not fight these battles right now. It’s hard sometimes as I feel if I don’t do anything right this moment then it will all backfire or fall apart, but that’s something I’m working on. And learning to respond and not react. I’ll mention these things to my therapist. thank you again, and oh! Happy early birthday to you as well. Our birthday is statistically really rare, so that just made my whole night! I hope you have a wonderful birthday.