Yes, I after going through that, I would be wicked nervous too! 😳 The key to most things is open communication . Did you talk to your surgeon about your last experience? Or is it the same person? In which case, holy cow- yes, I'd be nervous. Again, you have a valid point and reason to be.
For me, I find that the more I talk, vent, etc, the better I feel. Definitely voice your concerns and fears with your doctor and staff. Nothing wrong with that! It's always that anticipatory anxiety before a big leap into something new. Even the night before a plane ride will make me think of 'all that could go wrong' But then when I am actually on the plane, I'm good as gold.
I hope this makes sense. I bet you will be just fine. ☺️ One bad experience doesn't mean it will be a repeat. 😉
I wish you all the best!