Suzycue,
I am in the beggining stages, no surgery scheduled yet but I feel the same way. I want to lose weight, I NEED to lose weight but I am also scared. I would try to stay away from the horror stories. I can say that since starting this journey I have heard from a lot of people who had it done and are doing fine, have lost a lot and are happy with the process. I had one woman tell me to ”trust the process” and I try to remind myself of that. Goodluck!