Thursday the 21st is the day. I started preparation back in September and then had scheduling issues due to Covid. It is an emotional time to do this. My whole life I have used food as my go to coping mechanism. I am a nurse, and needless to say, the Covid pandemic does nothing to reign in a bag of chocolates, chips, and any high calorie goodie I can find. I have gotten my head back in the game the last three weeks, and am now faithfully drinking my shakes and have one low carb meal per day. I determined that there is no sense in letting my body remain unhealthy at a time when I need to be at my best. My shopping is down for post op, my final tests underway, and more than anything I want to be able to think through all these life style and personal changes, and make wise decisions like I would do for those I care for. Here I go, ready to be in my own moments, owning my own reality, and understanding I do not need food to make things all right. I don’t need to run to the kitchen when I am bored, tired, angry, sad, stressed and all emotions in between. I am not going to be confident in between sips and bites of whatever I may have used to fill my insecurities. I have the ability to problem solve and lead many health care professionals, and now I will do it in full understanding that I am worthy, I have worked hard to earn my professional stripes, and yes, I can function just fine without relying on anything more than myself.
