I'm new here, too! I went to a surgeon almost a year ago, just after my 33rd birthday. The doc said I didn't qualify for surgery b/c I didn't weigh enough... but between me and EVERYONE, I think my insurance at the time was too much a pain in the arse for his staff to deal with.
Ahhhhhh... health care and politics!
Anyhoo, I have an appointment on Monday, and this time I should qualify. Up and down. Down and up. The scale has been my enemy for as long as I can remember. I feel your pain and share your annoyance having to "resort" to surgery. Ugh. Why US?
But I know for me, willpower is not the issue. And every diet, every fellowship, every steak drizzled with cheese (with a side of NO carbs) has left me (once again) standing in the corner, blowing up like a tick, and feeling like a failure.
I think it's time for us to put away the bats and stop beating ourselves up. So... I'm with you, sister! Onward, upward...