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Jessie, That was priceless, laughted too hard! Mexican food huh?? Bad pbs.......note to self!!

Hello my friends, I have been surfing our great little WLS site today , roaming here and there. And all of a sudden I was floored! Ok not to give out too much information...........awwwwwww heck I am telling y'all! There is another thread where someone has posted a link to his site. Ok me being the nosey type I click on it, ok at first nothing very noticeable or eventfully but then BLAMMMMMMMMM:mad: What do my eyes see...........let me tell ya.....We have all heard the 10 for the hot dog, 20 for the beer, and so on. Well here is what this guys said......Now keep in mind he is a large man with a band...... **please note not word for word but you'll get the idea** $40.00 for dinner $50.00 for the cab ride $100.00 for booze Getting caught shaggin a whale in public pricelss. Now there was a picture of a half naked large drunk woman and a half naked skinny man. OK I am pissed! If I cant say Pissed I am sorry but I am pissed. I mean who does this guy think he is. He post this link on a WLS support group site. Someone please give me premission to email this guy and I will be more than willing to tell him what a jerk he is. I just dont know the rules and would hate to be banned from using this site. Please someone just say go and I will have his email waiting, all I got to do is push send!!!!!!:angry

Kelly, I am so glad you got and like your gift. I have never mailed anything over seas and was scared that it would not reach you so I opted for an company based Austrailia. When I saw the candle and the book entitle "Believe" I thought of you! ~Always remember to believe in yourself~

Sign me in, reporting for duty maam!

It started this weekend with constipation. I took milk of manganese, 5 Colace and a glycerin depository with no results. After several hours of hurting I woke my husband at midnight go try and find an all night drug store to get me a fleet enema. After giving myself the fleet and waiting for about an hour and half I finally got some relief. I was able to sleep about 2 hours before having to get up and get ready for work. So my day at work was spent hurting, sore and sleepy, Not a GOOD DAY! Now this being Friday and seeing how I have 3 teenage girls, the family had made plans earlier in the week to see the movie “Ice Age Melt Down”. So even tho I am tried and sore I go to the movies. We get there a hour earlier, because I have this thing about getting an aisle seat (no one likes the fat woman to crawl over them) and after standing in line for a while we are told the 8:00 show is sold out!!! Now if you have kids you have to know it is rare that they all want to see the same thing at the same time. Now comes the arguing, everyone wants to see something different and they all start at different times. Needless to say I was in no mood to handle the arguing so we went home without seeing any movie!! Saturday was our weekly shopping trip to Wal-Mart, I was still ill and sore and was in no mood to go but went any way. Now Wal-Mart rents out part of it’s store to Sub-Way, so you smell fresh baked bread cooking the entire time you shop. If you’re not hungry before you go you will be after. My girls while we are checking out ask if we can eat at Sub-way. So what do I do, I order myself a foot-long roasted chicken with all the trimmings, now you and I both know there is no way I should be able to eat a 6 inch let a lone a foot long but I did. It took me about an hour and a half but I did it. For dessert I had myself 2 chocolate doughnuts that Wal-mart had on sale and sooo sweetly put up front so I wouldn’t miss em. Now you might be saying to yourself this couldn’t get any worse, ohhhh but wait it gets even better (worse). That same day, I am depressed and pmsing so I sit in front of my computer playing card games eating kit kat candy bars (notice the s) while dipping them into a can of chocolate icing. That night I was feeling pretty bad about myself due to my lack of self-control and emotional eating. We decide to order pizza and catch a movie on TV, I thinking to myself I will skip the pizza and go with wings as a lesser of the two evils. Now my husband has been at work all day so he has no idea of my binge eating all day. The pizza arrives and he puts 4 large pieces on his plate. I am on my 4th wing, the little drumlette part when he turns at me and ask “Aren’t you full yet?”. Ok here is where very bad turns to horrible for me. At that very moment in time all my angry I was feeling came pouring out of me like a river that had been damned for sometime. Now dare he ask me that, do you know how much meat is one a drumlette?? I yelled at him while hurling my wing at him…..”If you wanted a skinny woman you should have married one”, walked out of the room and didn’t speak to him for 2 days! I was feeling bad enough about myself and then for him to make that comment to me, it was all I could take! He sent me a dozen roses to work 2 days later saying he was sorry. He has never had a weight problem so he has no idea that trails and pains I go through every day of my life and I know he will never understand. I know he does what he does or says what he says out of “love” but I know also he wants that beautiful thin wife that he can he proud of on his arm when we go out. I would like to sit here and say this week has been better but to be honest it hasn’t really. I am talking to my husband again but I am still full of angry and depressed. I did go see my doctor yesterday and explain to him that if I could eat a foot-long sub I needed a fill, he agreed. I am scheduled for the 14 of April for my now 2nd fill since my banning feb 8. I ask him about when he would think about taking this blood clot filter out of my vein and said he would like for me to lose at least 50 more pounds, it would be easier and safer. The February Bandsters have really kept me going this week, I was able to vent and see the humor in some of the stuff that happened this weekend. I don’t know how I would survive this without them. Ok so I had a complete and totally melt-down this weekend, today is yet another day and today I start all over again!

It started this weekend with constipation. I took milk of manganese, 5 Colace and a glycerin depository with no results. After several hours of hurting I woke my husband at midnight go try and find an all night drug store to get me a fleet enema. After giving myself the fleet and waiting for about an hour and half I finally got some relief. I was able to sleep about 2 hours before having to get up and get ready for work. So my day at work was spent hurting, sore and sleepy, Not a GOOD DAY! Now this being Friday and seeing how I have 3 teenage girls, the family had made plans earlier in the week to see the movie “Ice Age Melt Down”. So even tho I am tried and sore I go to the movies. We get there a hour earlier, because I have this thing about getting an aisle seat (no one likes the fat woman to crawl over them) and after standing in line for a while we are told the 8:00 show is sold out!!! Now if you have kids you have to know it is rare that they all want to see the same thing at the same time. Now comes the arguing, everyone wants to see something different and they all start at different times. Needless to say I was in no mood to handle the arguing so we went home without seeing any movie!! Saturday was our weekly shopping trip to Wal-Mart, I was still ill and sore and was in no mood to go but went any way. Now Wal-Mart rents out part of it’s store to Sub-Way, so you smell fresh baked bread cooking the entire time you shop. If you’re not hungry before you go you will be after. My girls while we are checking out ask if we can eat at Sub-way. So what do I do, I order myself a foot-long roasted chicken with all the trimmings, now you and I both know there is no way I should be able to eat a 6 inch let a lone a foot long but I did. It took me about an hour and a half but I did it. For dessert I had myself 2 chocolate doughnuts that Wal-mart had on sale and sooo sweetly put up front so I wouldn’t miss em. Now you might be saying to yourself this couldn’t get any worse, ohhhh but wait it gets even better (worse). That same day, I am depressed and pmsing so I sit in front of my computer playing card games eating kit kat candy bars (notice the s) while dipping them into a can of chocolate icing. That night I was feeling pretty bad about myself due to my lack of self-control and emotional eating. We decide to order pizza and catch a movie on TV, I thinking to myself I will skip the pizza and go with wings as a lesser of the two evils. Now my husband has been at work all day so he has no idea of my binge eating all day. The pizza arrives and he puts 4 large pieces on his plate. I am on my 4th wing, the little drumlette part when he turns at me and ask “Aren’t you full yet?”. Ok here is where very bad turns to horrible for me. At that very moment in time all my angry I was feeling came pouring out of me like a river that had been damned for sometime. Now dare he ask me that, do you know how much meat is one a drumlette?? I yelled at him while hurling my wing at him…..”If you wanted a skinny woman you should have married one”, walked out of the room and didn’t speak to him for 2 days! I was feeling bad enough about myself and then for him to make that comment to me, it was all I could take! He sent me a dozen roses to work 2 days later saying he was sorry. He has never had a weight problem so he has no idea that trails and pains I go through every day of my life and I know he will never understand. I know he does what he does or says what he says out of “love” but I know also he wants that beautiful thin wife that he can he proud of on his arm when we go out. I would like to sit here and say this week has been better but to be honest it hasn’t really. I am talking to my husband again but I am still full of angry and depressed. I did go see my doctor yesterday and explain to him that if I could eat a foot-long sub I needed a fill, he agreed. I am scheduled for the 14 of April for my now 2nd fill since my banning feb 8. I ask him about when he would think about taking this blood clot filter out of my vein and said he would like for me to lose at least 50 more pounds, it would be easier and safer. The February Bandsters have really kept me going this week, I was able to vent and see the humor in some of the stuff that happened this weekend. I don’t know how I would survive this without them. Ok so I had a complete and totally melt-down this weekend, today is yet another day and today I start all over again!

Mikey your my hero........do you give lessons to husbands??? you might have hit the lottery!!! Oh I am printing those out and having them posted on my refrig. tonight!!!!!! I work for a printing company I think I might make them life size too :ban: Ok I am going to post a poem I found about WLS. I hope y'all enjoy...... This is for all of you like me that are fighting the fight...... WLS Poem by Barbara Rice So many nights, I whimpered and cried, Thought that my prayers had all been denied. Stuffing my feelings, ashamed of my plight, Trying to stop, with all of my might. Shoving in cold spaghetti, at three in the morning, Frying shrimps by the time the daylight was dawning. Drinking gallons of soda, my heart wildly beating, Hating myself, 'cause I couldn't stop eating. The monster in me would come out to play, And as much as I begged him, he wouldn't go 'way. Morning would come, and that is when, The whole vicious cycle would start once again. Tears would be streaming, I felt like a cow, I wanted to stop, but I didn't know how. Boarding a plane, and seeing the fear In the eyes of the others..." Don't let her sit here!" Walking a block, and feeling such pain, That I went right back home to start eating again. " Your face is so pretty! Start using your head!" "Just eat smaller portions, " my family said. " Put down the fork! Push back from the table!" That's what my friends said...But I wasn't able. " Willpower's the secret! We'll help you get through it!" " TRY HARDER, " they urged...But I couldn’t do it. I tried every diet to get back on track, I'd lose weight and then just gain twice as much back! Every morning I'd pray, " God let me be good..." Then I'd fail once again...and no one understood. Each new day would bring another attempt, Each evening would bring still more self-contempt. Filled with self-loathing, such awful remorse, Simply unable to get back on course. Overwhelmed with this state of awful depression, Giving in to this dark, paralyzing obsession. I thought to myself, " You'll always be fat. Accept it, move on! Learn to live with that fact! " Questioning God and wondering why, Positive that I was destined to die. Yet something inside me was whispering, "No.. There MUST be a way. It HAS to be so." I felt a new person was waiting inside me, And it was her voice, I permitted to guide me. I knew I could no longer go on this way, Desperate and dying, bit by bit, day by day. So I got on my knees, and prayed for relief, Then God sent a miracle to lessen my grief. A way to stop eating, so crazy I thought, Went against everything I had been taught. This was my last option, I felt like a jerk If this didn't do it, then NOTHING would work! So I trusted the doctors, wholly and blindly, And my God smiled down, completely and kindly. An unorthodox treatment, but working so well, To help lift me OUT of this ongoing hell. A surgical wonder, that acts as a tool To battle the fat, which has made life so cruel. So as scared as I was, I knew I'd get through it... Since I was so much more afraid not to do it. And it went very smoothly, and I'm convinced that That pain was less than the pain of this fat. Nothing could hurt more than being this size, While seeing the pity in everyone's eyes. That part of my life is over and done, But I'll never forget the place I come from. I'll always be grateful, I'll always be driven To bestow upon others the support I've been given. The obsession has lifted, I'm whole and I'm free, God and my surgeon gave my life back to me. I've learned to eat slowly, I've learned how to chew Enjoying my food, as normal folks do. I eat when I'm hungry, I stop when I'm not, Being fat, in this life, will not be my lot. I eat not for sport, but just to survive, My whole life is changing...I'm glad I'm alive! I will reach the goal that I'm aiming toward, I've truly been blessed...Thank You, Dear Lord. The peace that I feel is calming and true, And for those who still suffer...I wish it for you.

OMG I have created MONSTERS........lol Ok I have a question, oh I am sure y'all know me by now. I was thinking if your stomachs arent growling is being hungry just mental? Do we wait until the tummy growls to eat, and when it doesnt is that what they call "mental hungry". See I am an emitional eater so I think I can count on one hand the times I have eaten b/c my tummy was growling. What do you guys think?? Oh and I came across this is my great search for knowledge into my food addication and thought I would share it with y'all. Dear Kotex, I recently noticed that the peel-off strip of my pantiliner had a bunch of "Kotex Tips for Life" on it. Annoying advice such as: - Staying active during your period can relieve cramps. - Avoiding caffeine may help reduce cramps and headaches. - Drink 6-8 glasses of water a day to keep you hydrated and feeling fresh. Try Kotex blah blah blah other products Obviously the individual behind this was someone who has never possessed a functioning set of ovaries. Go ahead and tell a menstruating woman that drinking 6-8 glasses of water will help keep her feeling fresh. See what happens and report back. I'll wait. While you're at it, dump out the coffee at work and remove the chocolate from the vending machine. I garan-friggin-tee that the first responders will be females who just ovulated. Look, females don't need or want tips for living on feminine hygiene products. Younger girls are already hearing "helpful" crap like that from their elderly relatives. Veteran females have already concocted their own recipes for survival, many containing alcohol. Printing out crap advice while sneaking in ads for the brand that was already purchased is just plain annoying, not to mention rude, and enough to send a girl running to the Always brand. Mostly we'd like to forget that we even need these products. It's not a fun time, but DO NOT try to cheer us up by adding smiley faces or bunnies or flowery cutesy crap to your products or the packaging. Put the crap in a plain brown wrapper so we can throw it in our carts discreetly and have it blend in among the chocolate and ice cream!!! There is nothing more annoying than having a blinding pink package announcing your uterine state to everyone in the store. So take your tips for living and shove them right up your azz. Ovarily Yours, Miss PMS

OK maybe I should make a list of rules not to say to me and stick on the refrig. LOL Rule 1) Dont ask me if I am full yet. Rule 2) Dont ask me if I am suppose to be eating that either. Ok Girls help me fill in the rest....... I just got back from the doctors office, he is truly a very dear and sweet man. When he seen I had lot 5 lbs since my last visit he smile and said you're doing so wonderfully, until I told him I had actually lost 10 but over the weekend picked 5 back up. YUP I gained 5 lbs this weekend alone. Dayum Sub-way footlongs and betty crocker icing with using kitkat bars as a spoon. After I told him I ate a footlong his eyes were as big as silver dollars, he open my file and looked at my flur.scope pic!! Then he laughed and said how long did it take you Tammy, to eat the sandwich. I said about and hour and a half. Did you drink while eating he ask, uhhuh I said. He smiled at me and said "stop being so hard on yourself, you are doing great. you have only been banned 8 weeks now and you're way ahead of the game in weight loss." I have an appointment to get a fill on the 14 of this month. He said he will make me a little tighter. **Sigh** becareful what you ask for you may just get it, keeps running through my mind! Well between posting this morning and going to the dr and posting now I havent gotten any work done so I better go for now. I "think" the chocolate demon has moved on so I am having a better day. You gals ROCK, and Janet yes he is without a doubt a keeper!!!

You guys dont know how much you mean to me, I feel like I have several best friends, and I am truly humbled and blessed. Keith sent me a dozen roses to work yesterday alond with a card saying he was sorry. Sigh.... I know he means well but watching every bite I eat and the commenting on it isnt what I need. I think he understands that now. Janet- You are a true blessing! Thank you! Michelle- I dont know what I would do without you girl! Thank You! Stacey- You are so wonderful! Thank You! Julie- I love the way alway know what to say! Thank you! And for everyone else that has ever responsed to one of my on-line venting from hell sessions.........Thank you from the bottom of my heart! If I didnt name you by name its not because I have forgotten about you , its because I am horrible with names. Please forgive me. Ok now I did call my doctor yesterday and said "If I can freaking eat a footlong sub we need to talk"! My appointment is today at 10:30, I think they could tell him my voice that I had had a weekend melt-down, cause it ususally take atleast a week to get in....lol. I will post later and let you know what he says. Thanks again for all the love and support! Happiness keeps You Sweet, Friends keep you Growing, Trials keep You Strong, Sorrows keep You Human, Failures keep You Humble, Success keeps You Glowing, But Only God keeps You Going! You are all so special, Thank you!!!!

I live in Wayne, New Jersey. (northern jersey) I am a mom of 3 girls, married, work full time and havent been active in years. I am looking for someone who lives near me that wants a walking buddy cause I need one. I would have to walk in the evening and on weekends. I need someone who is in the same boat as me so we can support each other. If you're looking for a new friend and a walking buddy please let me know, I would like to get started asap!!

Well darn I missed the Sunday invite. Sigh........I had a total melt down this weekend and it wasnt pretty. As for kids, I have 3 teenage girls. Does anyone hear the word babysitter?? lol You can bring the kids along and my girls can play with them and watch them while we walk and talk, ohhh not at the same time tho, I do good to breath and walk. Sounds like we might have something here. Evening and most weekends work for me, I have no life!!

Saying goodbye to being the "fat" lady in the room Saying goodbye fear of resturant booths / small airplane seats Saying goodbye to a double chin / fat rolls Saying goodbye to never feeling good enough Saying goodbye to back pain/ knee pain Saying goodbye to my WHEELCHAIR Saying goodbye to 8 inches braclets and 10 inche anklettes Saying goodbye to the fear of seeing myself in a department store mirror Saying goodbye to never wanting to have my picture taken

Treat this like you would if you did not have the band. We just talked about this on another thread. Your peroids should have nothing to do with your band. We were wondering if every time something goes wrong now or hurts if we will blame the band. My advice is to call your genocologist. Wishing you great health and steady weight loss.

Happy Monday everyone, **Deep Breath** Ok I had a total melt down this weekend. I was totally out of control and angry all at the same time. It started Thursday night with the constipation, being up most of the night then having to work all day hurting and sore. And of all times my family has plans to go see a movie ( Ice Age, the melt down) Friday night. We get there and we are standing in line only to find out it is sold out. Now having 3 teenage daughters isnt always easy but when they all want to see a different movies that all starts at different times is unbearable. Needless to say we ended up coming home and not seeing a movie at all. Here is where is starts to get worse, now I am upset, tired , hurting and just plain aggravated. What do I do, I sit down at my computer and eat kit kats while dipping them into a can of chocolate frosting! How many did I eat you may be asking yourself, too many to count. Ok that was one episode, there is more. Saturday I took the girls to our weekly trip to Wal-Mart. I honestly can not describe how I was feeling, just alot of angry at nothing! The girls ask if we could get Subway sandwhich is conveniently located inside the store, so you smell fresh bread cooking the entire time you shop. So we got subs, foot-long subs for us all. Now there is no way I should have been able to eat a 6-inch let alone a 12 inch but I am here to tell you I did, and with no problem! Oh did I forget to tell you I had chocolate doughnuts for dessert, 2 of them! Wait this get better.........Saturday night we order pizza. So I thought I would be good and order me some wings and skip the pizza. Now I know what your thinking, why start now or when did wing become good for you. Ok so I am sitting there eating my wings when I get to the 4th wing and my darlin husband make the comment are you full yet!!! OMG, all the angry came rushing out! I threw my wings at him, told him if him if he wanted a skinny woman he should have married one. :think I haven spoken to him since and have been sleeping on the couch. I just dont know if I can do this ya'll. Just this morning I am watching a sweet little commercial about 2 little girls. One little girl is sleeping over at the other little girls house and is missing home. The other little girl goes into the kitchen and makes a peanut butter sandwich to "CHEER-UP AND MAKE HER FEEL BETTER" so she will stay the night with her. They cut the sandwich in half and all is well. As I watched I was amazed, I just saw on national TV someone using food to make someone else feel better. I am scared!!! I am angry!!! and I am sooo disappointed in myself! I am confused and why am I so angry?

I just read your post on your graphic description of my first PB. I was laughin so hard I caught the eye of my boss. ROFLMAO! I needed that today, ty

Carla, WOW what a great NSV, I dream of the day!!!

Ok I am at work with about 2 1/2 hours sleep. It started yesterday, constipation! I have had one other bad episode since being banded but last night was horrible. I wont go into gorry details but I tried Milk of magnesa , 5 colace and a suppository with no relief. I was miserable! At mid-night I finally woke my husband and ask if he would go get me a Fleet. I felt just terrible having to wake him and ask, he had to work today also. So at around 1 AM i am giving myself yet another laxtive. At I say around 3 I finally got some relief. I have never had to push out a baby, I had all mine c-section, but I am telling you it couldnt have been much worse than that was. Today I am sore, and still not feeling good. I wished I could be more supported today but I am scared I just dont have it in me.:notagree Love ya all and have a great weekend

I know I have never pushed out a baby, although I have 3 girls (all c-sections) but last night I dont think it could have been any worse. I knew all day that I had that constipation feeling but when I got home I got that URGENT Constipation call. I called my husband at work and ask him to stop off at the drug store and pick up some milk of magnese (sp). I had taken 5 colaces with no effect. I did a deposatory (again speling ughhh) with no effect. I was miserable. So when hubby came in I did 4 table spoons of the M.O.M. Ok the bottle said 30 minutes to 6 hours, so now I am in a holding pattern. Well around midnight I woke my husband to go back to the drug store for a fleet. So last night at around 1am I am giving myself a fleet enema. :faint: I think I am going on 2 1/2 hours sleep. I know without a doubt I am going to have to do Benefiber every day. I cant have many more nights like that. My recum bleed and I am sore this morning. Today is going to be a long day for me. I sat on the toilet praying and wondering if this was because of the band. I had a horrible night but I am not giving up. There are going to be many speed bumps in my journey to better health and they might slow me down but there not going to stop me. I may post more later, I am soooo sleepy:notagree

I know I have never pushed out a baby, although I have 3 girls (all c-sections) but last night I dont think it could have been any worse. I knew all day that I had that constipation feeling but when I got home I got that URGENT Constipation call. I called my husband at work and ask him to stop off at the drug store and pick up some milk of magnese (sp). I had taken 5 colaces with no effect. I did a deposatory (again speling ughhh) with no effect. I was miserable. So when hubby came in I did 4 table spoons of the M.O.M. Ok the bottle said 30 minutes to 6 hours, so now I am in a holding pattern. Well around midnight I woke my husband to go back to the drug store for a fleet. So last night at around 1am I am giving myself a fleet enema. :faint: I think I am going on 2 1/2 hours sleep. I know without a doubt I am going to have to do Benefiber every day. I cant have many more nights like that. My recum bleed and I am sore this morning. Today is going to be a long day for me. I sat on the toilet praying and wondering if this was because of the band. I had a horrible night but I am not giving up. There are going to be many speed bumps in my journey to better health and they might slow me down but there not going to stop me. I may post more later, I am soooo sleepy:notagree

Ok one more thing my friends, I found this great article on WLS within a marriage. I thought I would share it with you... http://obesityhelp.com/morbidobesity/information/magazine-article.php?id=3

I am not sure what is going on but I have said kinda sick to my stomach all day now. I had a salad at lunch with grilled chicken and for the first time I feel as if I am full to that little danglin thingy at the back of my throat. I have not "pbed", but I did drink some Water to try and wash it down. UGHHH I know that is a no no! I am still having trouble with the no water while I eat. But one thing I will pat myself on the back for is........ When I knew I was seriously going to try and have the WLS done, I had read something saying people who have WLS should never drink soda again. Now I am not sure if that is true but I have drank nothing but water for about 8 months now. Now on very rare occasions I will have some decaf. tea with slenda in it that I make at home. I have to say I really love water and I have no problem with gettin in my 64 oz a day, matter of fact I probably double that in a days time. Welcome Xann- You have found a wonderful group of people here, but you will find that out for yourself.:nervous Way to go on your weight loss!!!!! Michelle- Way to go on lossing the 1.5 lbs girls! You are coming right along and it is such a pleasure to read your posts! Janet- I am not sure if what I am doing is sliming or not but I am not getting the golf(volley)ball feeling you described. I have such a phobeia (sp) about having a heart attack, I am scared I would be headed for the ER. Sunta- My husband ask me I would say every day how much I weight. I know deep down he wants me to be a noraml size as much as I do. I know he loves me but since the WLS I can see a differences in the way he talks about my weight. Stacey- I dont think I have ever eaten a half of anything. You're doing so good! :clap2: Ok I have another question, My last one I promise for today. Has anyone ever wonder if everything that hurts and aches now will be blamed on our band? I mean like me this morning, I was sliming or not, I am sick at my tummy, but could I just have an old fashion upset tummy but now everything is going to be related to the band. This kinda scares me, I am scared that chest pain might be over looked by bandsters and could be something more serious. UGHHHH I am sorry ya'll I have been thinking too much today and that isnt a good thing for me!

Ok rather gross question...... What is sliming? I have what I can only describe is a feeling of wanting to swallow and something thick in the back of my throat. I tried eating some wheat thins this morning at work and it seem to help a little. Is any one else getting this feeling or does this have nothing to do with the band? Janet- Sorry to hear your still hurting hun. I too have some pain from time to time in my shoulder. My diaphram was irritated during surgery causing me lots of pain afterwards. Hope you feel better soon. Stacey- I am so jealous, I think I could eat the whole chicken. But I am sure my time will come. Sighhhh Nanster- Oh dont ya hate when that happens. It never happens during the Presidents Address to the Nation for some reason! I am buying a measuring tape and doing my measuring this weekend. :confused: I have to be honest I am sooo not looking forward to it. Am I the only one that doesnt tell their husband what they weight? I am embarrassed for him to know, as he is pretty fit and goes to the gym every day.

When I talked to my doctor the other day he recommended I try the web site obesityhelp.com. So I had a free minute at work and I did. Ok let me go back for a minute. Several years ago I was told I was having panic attacks, ok we all know what that is now but when I first started having them at age 17, I am not almost 40, they were talked about much. My attacks got so bad that they were disabling. I could drive by myself and the fear of dying was overwhelming to say the least. I tried every drug out there only to become addicted to xanax. Ok lets make along story short, it took years and years of help, drug and praying to get me where I am today. I drove with my three kids from north carolina to new jersey with just some yahoo driving directions. Now for someone who could take a bath without someone being at home cause I was scared I would have a heart attack in the bath tub and no one would be there to get me out, driving up the east coast was a major victory. Now I wont lie and say never have set backs because I do. Now here is where we pick up at the beginning. So I go onto the web site and the first thing I notice is a story in OH magazine. I click on the link and start reading. Here is a man 44 years old, just 4 years older than I, who died 2 days after having WLS. My heart broke and I was flooded with fear. I started to think what have I done, I started to smother. I smother when I get very neverous. I cant seem to get his picture or his story out of my mind. I know I have to be thankful, I am one of the lucky ones, I made it through my suregery. But to be honest I am still scared now. I sit and read all the things that people are going through and wonder am I next? I have never thought I think like a normal person. I have had so much tradegy in my life. I wonder if I will ever be normal, and what is normal? I started my journal asking myself who I really am and my quest to find out continues. I must learn to be thankful and give thanks to God. I know I have it better than most and worse than others but I am blessed a wonderful hubsand and three healthy beautiful girls. No there is never enough money and I miss my Momma back in the Carolinas but I woke up this morning, had a roof over my head, food in the Frig, a job to go to, and freedom to worship my GOD. For that I am thankful Lord! I fight my panic and fear back, I will not allow it to control me again. God give me the strengh I need!

When I talked to my doctor the other day he recommended I try the web site obesityhelp.com. So I had a free minute at work and I did. Ok let me go back for a minute. Several years ago I was told I was having panic attacks, ok we all know what that is now but when I first started having them at age 17, I am not almost 40, they were talked about much. My attacks got so bad that they were disabling. I could drive by myself and the fear of dying was overwhelming to say the least. I tried every drug out there only to become addicted to xanax. Ok lets make along story short, it took years and years of help, drug and praying to get me where I am today. I drove with my three kids from north carolina to new jersey with just some yahoo driving directions. Now for someone who could take a bath without someone being at home cause I was scared I would have a heart attack in the bath tub and no one would be there to get me out, driving up the east coast was a major victory. Now I wont lie and say never have set backs because I do. Now here is where we pick up at the beginning. So I go onto the web site and the first thing I notice is a story in OH magazine. I click on the link and start reading. Here is a man 44 years old, just 4 years older than I, who died 2 days after having WLS. My heart broke and I was flooded with fear. I started to think what have I done, I started to smother. I smother when I get very neverous. I cant seem to get his picture or his story out of my mind. I know I have to be thankful, I am one of the lucky ones, I made it through my suregery. But to be honest I am still scared now. I sit and read all the things that people are going through and wonder am I next? I have never thought I think like a normal person. I have had so much tradegy in my life. I wonder if I will ever be normal, and what is normal? I started my journal asking myself who I really am and my quest to find out continues. I must learn to be thankful and give thanks to God. I know I have it better than most and worse than others but I am blessed a wonderful hubsand and three healthy beautiful girls. No there is never enough money and I miss my Momma back in the Carolinas but I woke up this morning, had a roof over my head, food in the Frig, a job to go to, and freedom to worship my GOD. For that I am thankful Lord! I fight my panic and fear back, I will not allow it to control me again. God give me the strengh I need!