pointbeach
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About pointbeach
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- Birthday 11/15/1961
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Nurse
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New Providence
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New Jersey
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pointbeach started following 12 Steps of Overeaters Anonymous, So I have an eating disorder....., I have failed my band - SUPPORT GROUP and and 7 others
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I have failed my band - SUPPORT GROUP
pointbeach replied to Tabithan's topic in LAP-BAND Surgery Forums
OMG I wish I had seen that show had a eeling the lap band success was not as good as bypass. I have an appointment next week to see if I can get bypass -
I have failed my band - SUPPORT GROUP
pointbeach replied to Tabithan's topic in LAP-BAND Surgery Forums
Hi Everyone, I posted so long ago I think it was in August of 2010. Then I just stopped. I was banded in June 2008, I initially lost 15 pds really fast. then as time went on I stopped using. See I thought the band was going to turn off that mental obsession that tells me to eat. The band did not do that. Instead I found certain good foods like broccoli, fish,some meats all came up if I ate them, especially fast. BUT the foods like ice foods like ice cream cookies and muffins all went down real smooth. PS it is now 2011 I not only gained back the weight but probable a few pounds more. Unfourtunatley my life is non stop high drama that never seems to end. Drama that takes the focus off I me. I forget all the time not to eat to fast and to slow down,so things either come back up or theydont fill me up. I have been having success with OA. I am a binge eater and need all the support I can get.I am trying to stay away from all those high calorie high fat foods and just eat healthy. But the other day I was having salad with tuna and the tuna would not go down I guess because it was so dry. I am going to see my surgeon this week for the first time in a while. I stopped going to his support groups because I felt like such a loser. I would see all the people who were banded at the same time as me and they all lost weight. So I would leave the support groups feeling like crap and stopped going.What makes matters worse is I have two woman in my town who got gastric bypass, one was exactly my weigh and she is a TWIG now. I definaley wish I had gotten the gastric bypass. I know two other people like me that got banded and it did not work for them either.it seems 50/50 for some it works some it des not. I only had two fills I am going to ask for another fill or just take the band out.I might even ask him if he would do bypass still. In the mean time I am going to continue to work on my head issues with therapy and OA meetings. I need to, the weight is causing me to have such problems with my knees and back.It is a day at a time, but if anyone doesnt think this is an addiction their in denial People dont eat them selves to death unless there is something wrong in our heads. -
Leigh, half the battle is loving yourself no matter what. Last night my negative voice was going and I ended eating something that was not planned. Not teribble but it shows me how I beat myself up verbally leads to the food. I have had the band for years and have gained back the 15 I lost so can you imagine the shame I have. But I am hear and starting over and I am going to be committed this time so dont beat yourself up it doesnt help.
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I am feeling better today I really appreciate the support. I started doing liquids today and my stomach feels better and I am going for an upper GI on Monday.Yesterday at the meeting I did not speak about my failure ISomeone asked me how much weight I lost and I did not answer or tell them I had the band for two years. I did speak thought about what I am doing now to succeed, like going on this website every night so Thanks again. Maybe next week when I go I will say something, because I know by this website I am n ot alone.
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Thank you this is great
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I have failed my band - SUPPORT GROUP
pointbeach replied to Tabithan's topic in LAP-BAND Surgery Forums
I feel like such a loser I just came from a support group for lap banders and was the only one who has failed her band. Everyone had lost weight, alot of weight . except me.Plus I ahve been having mild to moderate pain at my port sight for while I finally got me Dr to order a upper GI to see if anything is wrong, he seems mad at me because I have not seen him in a year and I feel like I make him look bad because I have not lost weight which I am sure is in my head but it is really hard not to feel like a loser right now. Tomorrow is another day -
I blogged for the first time last night. that I hve had the band for two years and I have failed my band, I just thought it was going to magically take away my weight with me not haveing to do anything. My life got real real crazy for a year,now things have calmed down and I am focused on myself and restarting eating right, slowly and all the things we are suppose to do. Anyway I went to a lapbnd support group my surgeon has been having and I felt like such loser. I am the only person who not only did not lose weight I gained back the weight I lost right before surgery. Most people there had lost 25 or more pds and they have had the band less then me. I left there felling like such a loser and wanting to eat.But I didnt. Iwish I didnt beat myself up so bad but I do. My whole life I have failed at weight loss nd now I cant believe I have filed at this too.I ws not like this last night I was in such better place I dont know why seeing people who have lost weight vs blogging people has had such a bd reaction to me. Anyway thanks for letting me share this. My stomache has been hurting alot too my Dr keeps saying its not the band but he finally said I can get an upper GI. thanks for letting me vent
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I have failed my band - SUPPORT GROUP
pointbeach replied to Tabithan's topic in LAP-BAND Surgery Forums
Oh my god you lost 85 lbs that is sooo good. I am so grateful you wrote back. I did see my Dr and he did not think I stretched my band but I am not sure I see him again tonight at a support meeting and am going to tell him again. I just think I should do the test anyway. Let me ask when you did liquids you mean protein drinks right? Which ones did you use? I am just curios. I could use alittle jump start to make me feel better. I see the nutionist next week. I do need support thats why when I found this site I was excited. I wish it was still active like it was. Mary O -
So I have an eating disorder.....
pointbeach replied to lovinlife4eva's topic in POST-Operation Weight Loss Surgery Q&A
I could not have gotten better from my bulimia without OA. I lived in New york city at the time and there was a great therapist I went to and alot of OA meetings that were great. They now have a group called Anorexics and bulimics annonymous,it is on line and has phone meeting s every day, alot of binge eater do that too. I will say that I live in New Jersey now and oA out here is different. Alot of people weigh and measure and have rigid rules of no wheat no flour. I dont do that, if you told me not to eat it I will definitley binge on it. So what I do and this goes along with the diet head too, is I say I choose not to eat these foods for today because they will lead me to a binge. So it is not a diet it is becoming sane with food.I know what to eat all overweight people do because we have been on so many diets.But when I am stressed, tired,angry I use certain food to deal with my feelings. It is like a drink, it gets me numb, some say it is about control, I cannot control my life situation so I am going to control my food by eating what I want. I am finding journaling a great tool, and the OA meetings I go to are step meetings.I am no expert I am just sharing my experience. -
So I have an eating disorder.....
pointbeach replied to lovinlife4eva's topic in POST-Operation Weight Loss Surgery Q&A
Thank you for sharing I think we all have eating disorders which is why we are hear. Anyway my story is I was bulimis in college and after years of therapy and 12 step programs OA included I was Bulimia free for 18 years. But I still binged ate, or was a compulsive overeater. So I gained alot of weight after my third child and thought the band was the answer to my prayer. I thought it was the magic switch that was going to take away my desire to binge also at night. What I found out is if I oerate certain foods I threw up, and this freaks me out because I didnt want to go back to that life again.I also found out tht Alot of my binge foods went down easy Ice cream is number one. So now after a very hectic year with alot of drama I am once again taking care of myself. I am back in therapy,I go to OA meetings there alot on the phone, and I am recommitted to work with this band the right way. I have listed foods that trigger me to binge, most I shouldnot eat with the band anyway, and I pray or do the 3rd step every day to stay away from those food which trigger my disease. I am also journaling alot, and going on this website that really is helping me alot realizing what I did wrong the first time around. I hope taht helps. You are not alone. Just remember if you are binging and or purging after there is something else really bothering you. It is all about our feelings and what we do not to feel them Mary PS the biggest thing I am trying to do also is eat slow real hard for a compulsive person but it really help prevent the vomiting -
I never have blogged before. This site is great. I have been going to threads,I am still learning the difference, and alot of good threads are not active anymore. I have had the band for two years. I lost 15lbs right away but then stopped losing weight.I really thought the band was going to be a magic switch that was going to just take away my desire to binge or eat foods that put the pounds on.Anyway I never committed to the band and the rules for making it work.I just thought having it was enough.Also and this is a big also My life got really stressful after I got the band my husband got really really ill and I was mother father and evrything else. No time for me. So now things are much calmer my kids are more independant and I have time for me. I saw my doctor today for the first time in over a year. And I am going to see the nutitionist next week for a whole new beginning. I know I can do this if I work it the way it is suppose to be worked. I love reading your blogs and wish me luck Mary
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Hi Ive eaten california roll with no problem. Just eat real slow and chew good. Everyone is different
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I have failed my band - SUPPORT GROUP
pointbeach replied to Tabithan's topic in LAP-BAND Surgery Forums
Hi fellow bandsters I found this site and was so excited,to bad that it is not very active anymore. I was banded in June of 2008 and lost around 15lbs in the beginning with no effort. But then after the surgery swelling went down I failed my lapband. One of the reasons was I thought the lap band was like medicine, it was going to magically take away the weight and I would lose my head hunger. Well of course my head hunger was not gone, and even though I had restiction I could still eat high caloric foods like icecream and such. Foods like chicken and meats always came up. The other thing was after my lap bnd my life got really stressful my uncle passed away,then my dad,and then my husband also got real sick and was in and out of the hospital.This left me a single working mom for much of the passed year.I tried Jenny Craig but would still binge eat after dinner, my cereal,or icecream ect. Fast foward to this JUne my 2 year anniversary and I am still the same weight,my self esttem is so low once again I am the only one who cannot lose weight after surgery.Anyway I decide now that all the drama in my life has calmed down to start focusing on myself again. I start exercising and decide to eat thre healthy meals a day with a snack. Well I start eating normal food no more frozen Jenny craig foods. But I start throwing up every day, Turkey sandwhich ,hamburger or steak, all week I am throwing up any real food I eat.So now I have been having alot of pain and nause at my port site. From what I read in this thread I probable expanded my pouch or possible a little slippage. I have been thinking of asking my surgeon who I have not seen in over a year if I could get Gastric Surgery. But after reading this thread I realize I have never really done the rules of lap band. I never weighed or measure my food. Never wrote anything down,I was not exercising regulaly. Anyway I have been reading this thread and feel recommited. to work with this band as soon as I know what is the apin from. I probable have to do the pouch test. Anyway that is my story. I hope this thread picks up again. Mary O