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OMG I wish I had seen that show had a eeling the lap band success was not as good as bypass. I have an appointment next week to see if I can get bypass

Hi Everyone, I posted so long ago I think it was in August of 2010. Then I just stopped. I was banded in June 2008, I initially lost 15 pds really fast. then as time went on I stopped using. See I thought the band was going to turn off that mental obsession that tells me to eat. The band did not do that. Instead I found certain good foods like broccoli, fish,some meats all came up if I ate them, especially fast. BUT the foods like ice foods like ice cream cookies and muffins all went down real smooth. PS it is now 2011 I not only gained back the weight but probable a few pounds more. Unfourtunatley my life is non stop high drama that never seems to end. Drama that takes the focus off I me. I forget all the time not to eat to fast and to slow down,so things either come back up or theydont fill me up. I have been having success with OA. I am a binge eater and need all the support I can get.I am trying to stay away from all those high calorie high fat foods and just eat healthy. But the other day I was having salad with tuna and the tuna would not go down I guess because it was so dry. I am going to see my surgeon this week for the first time in a while. I stopped going to his support groups because I felt like such a loser. I would see all the people who were banded at the same time as me and they all lost weight. So I would leave the support groups feeling like crap and stopped going.What makes matters worse is I have two woman in my town who got gastric bypass, one was exactly my weigh and she is a TWIG now. I definaley wish I had gotten the gastric bypass. I know two other people like me that got banded and it did not work for them either.it seems 50/50 for some it works some it des not. I only had two fills I am going to ask for another fill or just take the band out.I might even ask him if he would do bypass still. In the mean time I am going to continue to work on my head issues with therapy and OA meetings. I need to, the weight is causing me to have such problems with my knees and back.It is a day at a time, but if anyone doesnt think this is an addiction their in denial People dont eat them selves to death unless there is something wrong in our heads.

I blogged for the first time last night. that I hve had the band for two years and I have failed my band, I just thought it was going to magically take away my weight with me not haveing to do anything. My life got real real crazy for a year,now things have calmed down and I am focused on myself and restarting eating right, slowly and all the things we are suppose to do. Anyway I went to a lapbnd support group my surgeon has been having and I felt like such loser. I am the only person who not only did not lose weight I gained back the weight I lost right before surgery. Most people there had lost 25 or more pds and they have had the band less then me. I left there felling like such a loser and wanting to eat.But I didnt. Iwish I didnt beat myself up so bad but I do. My whole life I have failed at weight loss nd now I cant believe I have filed at this too.I ws not like this last night I was in such better place I dont know why seeing people who have lost weight vs blogging people has had such a bd reaction to me. Anyway thanks for letting me share this. My stomache has been hurting alot too my Dr keeps saying its not the band but he finally said I can get an upper GI. thanks for letting me vent

Leigh, half the battle is loving yourself no matter what. Last night my negative voice was going and I ended eating something that was not planned. Not teribble but it shows me how I beat myself up verbally leads to the food. I have had the band for years and have gained back the 15 I lost so can you imagine the shame I have. But I am hear and starting over and I am going to be committed this time so dont beat yourself up it doesnt help.

I am feeling better today I really appreciate the support. I started doing liquids today and my stomach feels better and I am going for an upper GI on Monday.Yesterday at the meeting I did not speak about my failure ISomeone asked me how much weight I lost and I did not answer or tell them I had the band for two years. I did speak thought about what I am doing now to succeed, like going on this website every night so Thanks again. Maybe next week when I go I will say something, because I know by this website I am n ot alone.

Thank you this is great

I feel like such a loser I just came from a support group for lap banders and was the only one who has failed her band. Everyone had lost weight, alot of weight . except me.Plus I ahve been having mild to moderate pain at my port sight for while I finally got me Dr to order a upper GI to see if anything is wrong, he seems mad at me because I have not seen him in a year and I feel like I make him look bad because I have not lost weight which I am sure is in my head but it is really hard not to feel like a loser right now. Tomorrow is another day

Oh my god you lost 85 lbs that is sooo good. I am so grateful you wrote back. I did see my Dr and he did not think I stretched my band but I am not sure I see him again tonight at a support meeting and am going to tell him again. I just think I should do the test anyway. Let me ask when you did liquids you mean protein drinks right? Which ones did you use? I am just curios. I could use alittle jump start to make me feel better. I see the nutionist next week. I do need support thats why when I found this site I was excited. I wish it was still active like it was. Mary O

I could not have gotten better from my bulimia without OA. I lived in New york city at the time and there was a great therapist I went to and alot of OA meetings that were great. They now have a group called Anorexics and bulimics annonymous,it is on line and has phone meeting s every day, alot of binge eater do that too. I will say that I live in New Jersey now and oA out here is different. Alot of people weigh and measure and have rigid rules of no wheat no flour. I dont do that, if you told me not to eat it I will definitley binge on it. So what I do and this goes along with the diet head too, is I say I choose not to eat these foods for today because they will lead me to a binge. So it is not a diet it is becoming sane with food.I know what to eat all overweight people do because we have been on so many diets.But when I am stressed, tired,angry I use certain food to deal with my feelings. It is like a drink, it gets me numb, some say it is about control, I cannot control my life situation so I am going to control my food by eating what I want. I am finding journaling a great tool, and the OA meetings I go to are step meetings.I am no expert I am just sharing my experience.

I never have blogged before. This site is great. I have been going to threads,I am still learning the difference, and alot of good threads are not active anymore. I have had the band for two years. I lost 15lbs right away but then stopped losing weight.I really thought the band was going to be a magic switch that was going to just take away my desire to binge or eat foods that put the pounds on.Anyway I never committed to the band and the rules for making it work.I just thought having it was enough.Also and this is a big also My life got really stressful after I got the band my husband got really really ill and I was mother father and evrything else. No time for me. So now things are much calmer my kids are more independant and I have time for me. I saw my doctor today for the first time in over a year. And I am going to see the nutitionist next week for a whole new beginning. I know I can do this if I work it the way it is suppose to be worked. I love reading your blogs and wish me luck Mary

Thank you for sharing I think we all have eating disorders which is why we are hear. Anyway my story is I was bulimis in college and after years of therapy and 12 step programs OA included I was Bulimia free for 18 years. But I still binged ate, or was a compulsive overeater. So I gained alot of weight after my third child and thought the band was the answer to my prayer. I thought it was the magic switch that was going to take away my desire to binge also at night. What I found out is if I oerate certain foods I threw up, and this freaks me out because I didnt want to go back to that life again.I also found out tht Alot of my binge foods went down easy Ice cream is number one. So now after a very hectic year with alot of drama I am once again taking care of myself. I am back in therapy,I go to OA meetings there alot on the phone, and I am recommitted to work with this band the right way. I have listed foods that trigger me to binge, most I shouldnot eat with the band anyway, and I pray or do the 3rd step every day to stay away from those food which trigger my disease. I am also journaling alot, and going on this website that really is helping me alot realizing what I did wrong the first time around. I hope taht helps. You are not alone. Just remember if you are binging and or purging after there is something else really bothering you. It is all about our feelings and what we do not to feel them Mary PS the biggest thing I am trying to do also is eat slow real hard for a compulsive person but it really help prevent the vomiting

Hi Ive eaten california roll with no problem. Just eat real slow and chew good. Everyone is different

Hi fellow bandsters I found this site and was so excited,to bad that it is not very active anymore. I was banded in June of 2008 and lost around 15lbs in the beginning with no effort. But then after the surgery swelling went down I failed my lapband. One of the reasons was I thought the lap band was like medicine, it was going to magically take away the weight and I would lose my head hunger. Well of course my head hunger was not gone, and even though I had restiction I could still eat high caloric foods like icecream and such. Foods like chicken and meats always came up. The other thing was after my lap bnd my life got really stressful my uncle passed away,then my dad,and then my husband also got real sick and was in and out of the hospital.This left me a single working mom for much of the passed year.I tried Jenny Craig but would still binge eat after dinner, my cereal,or icecream ect. Fast foward to this JUne my 2 year anniversary and I am still the same weight,my self esttem is so low once again I am the only one who cannot lose weight after surgery.Anyway I decide now that all the drama in my life has calmed down to start focusing on myself again. I start exercising and decide to eat thre healthy meals a day with a snack. Well I start eating normal food no more frozen Jenny craig foods. But I start throwing up every day, Turkey sandwhich ,hamburger or steak, all week I am throwing up any real food I eat.So now I have been having alot of pain and nause at my port site. From what I read in this thread I probable expanded my pouch or possible a little slippage. I have been thinking of asking my surgeon who I have not seen in over a year if I could get Gastric Surgery. But after reading this thread I realize I have never really done the rules of lap band. I never weighed or measure my food. Never wrote anything down,I was not exercising regulaly. Anyway I have been reading this thread and feel recommited. to work with this band as soon as I know what is the apin from. I probable have to do the pouch test. Anyway that is my story. I hope this thread picks up again. Mary O

Hi everyone I have not been on this thread for so long. But I want to tell you all what I found. I got banded in June 2008 and have had 2 fills and barley lost 15 pds. I was so disgusted I too could still binge on ice cream and cookies and soft foods. Ironically I could not binge on chicken because it would come back up in me. Anyway I was really down onmyself. A friend of mine told me abouta new group, like OA but it is called anorexic and bulimics annonoumous. Also 12 step but very intense they call it sober with food not abstinant which I thought was cool. I go on phone meetings and it is really helping. There is a entire section on binge eating and how it is a disease too. I needed more then just OA I needed something that talked about the control, and the feelings around food. I have been doing much better. I threw away my scale. If I think I am on a diet I want to binge.More later Mary

I was wondering if we could talk a little about how are people working their AO recovery,I missed my meeting Tuesday because one of my kids was sick. I get lost in my Mom world, if I dont stay connected,I forget I have a disease and think I can do it on my own. I thought if I started this thread it could help other people. What are people doing to stay abstinant.or working their program. Mary

Hi everyone,I am so glad I found this thread so glad. I have been in OA for years on and off. I was bulimic years ago also. OA really helped me, but after my 3rd child and we moved to NJ out of NY I stopped going to meetings on a regular basis. I finally had the lap band in Juneof 08, thinking this was the magic bullit after hitting my highest weight this year. At first the band was graet I couldnt eat much at all lost 18 pds right away and felt great. But then my disease took over, I found the food I could eat with no problem,ice cream being number one and soft carbs. Ironically the healthy foods like chicken and salads were harder to get down. I have had 2 fills each time thinking this was the magic that was going to take my weight away. Of course it has not taken the obsession away,and I can still eat bowls of cereal and ice cream if I get in that mind set. So last week I started going tback to OA, I have not told anyone yet except my sponsor that I have had the band.Not because of any other reason but because I cant believe I have had this surgery and am still having a such a hard time. I have been having SOOO much SHAME because I feel I am the only one in the world who had lap band and cannot lose weight because I can still eat.I know I need OA because it is a support group like this web site is,I have alot of problems that make me angry and thats why I eat,but it is just keeping the shame going.and hurting me. Thanks so much for letting me share with you all MARY

Hi June Bandsters, I am Mary I am trying to be apart of your support group. I really need it. I got banded in June2nd lost alot at first then stopped. Got filled once in August and did not lose any.I struggle with eating to fast and then the food comes back up. I am doing better with that because I am not eating any pasta or Chicken. But Ican still eat my carbs easy if I get in one of those moods where I just want to eat. The body is one issue but the head is still in to overeating. know I am due for another fill. So thats ir for now Mary

I will tell you why I am voting for McCain, but first I have to say I am a life lonfg Democrat and proud of it,I believe in gun control,a womans right to choose.And in general I think Geaorge Bush and especially Dick Cheny belong in jail. NOT only for starting a war with false information but carrying out the war so incompetantly that lives were lost. And Yes our economy is screwed up because of this war.Cheny told us on Meet the Press or one of those shows the oil was going to help pay the War. But because so few troops were sent into Iraq, thanks to Rumsfield the insurgency took off and they blew up the pipe lines,. SOOOOOOO with that said why would I vote for Mccain because one word EXPERIENCE McCain is a really good person I have followed his career for years. And people seem to forget we are in a war we need a man who has the Militaries respect and is not going to learn on the job. The country is so wrapped up in the economy and what Sarah Palin is wearing that people forget about Bin LAden. Another reason what other politician has fought for causes agaist his own party. Why do you think right wingers like Rush Limbough and company never liked McCain? Because he always did the right thing weather his own Party liked it or not. I believe the country is caught up in some sort of hysteria because Obama is black and cool,But what has he done. That is the scarey thing a 2 year senator is going to run the country? Are you kidding me? Thats scarey. and his economy package is crazy.I work my butt off your not going to tax me to give to another that is not Democracy. I never prayed for an election but God help us if Obama wins

PS moving is huge, it kicks up all sorts of fears and anxiety, cut yourself some slack go do some loving things for yourself, like getting your nails done,and the jean thing is huge that ahs not happened to me yet, thanks for the inspirationMary

Hi friends thanks so much for all your answers. I know I need a fill so bad but my doctor was wanting for me to get my behavior in controll first, I was still eating way to fast and things were coming up too often. So we were waiting on the fill. I want to share that on Monday night my doctor has a support group for us who have had surger, once a month. I shared that I was stuck in my old behaviors taking care of everyone else and not myself. The group said to me if you had a disease like cancer or diabetes would you stop and take your insulin or chemo? Obesity is a disease they said I need to treat it as such. Now none of this is new to me, I have been in and out of OA for years BUT for some reason on this day by these people it clicked. So all day for the last two days I have been saying in my head I have a disease, I have a disease,and for some reason it is slowly working. I am eating slower,which is huge for me, and also saying I cannot just pick up and eat anything because I have a disease, it is helping for today.But I am not perfect I still ahd ice cream last night after work because it is my comfort food, the GREAT news is I did not finish it YEA

PS is this unjury protein any good and where do you get it. What protein bars do people use?

Today was a good day for me. I had some low fat cottage cheese for breakfast with a kishi bar. I had some( probable to much) campbells creamy tomatoe soup for lunch at 3pm I had 2pcks of instant wt loss oatmeal with raisins D=stir fried brocolli and califlower with Tufu and brown rice, I have nut eaten this since surgery I think I should have cooked it longer to make the vegtable softer. later (which is my worst time) I had a 1/3 cup of grape nut cereal with raisins and skim milk. I am a night eater so this was a good choice for me usually I eat ice cream,unfortunaltley I can get this down with out a problem. But this was a good day for me.

Hi everyone I am a Patient of Dr Feteiha in Summit New Jersey.I was abnded in June and lost some but have been stuck. I need a fill for sure. Anyway THANKYOU for whom ever started this thread. I have been so dying to hear what people eat everyday. I dont know why but it helps me soo much.Thanks again Mary

I hope that more people respond it helps me to see waht people eat for dinner especially,thats where I have so much trouble