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From the album: My first night out--50 pounds down...
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Brian and I...he is my rock!!! And he rocks, too...
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From the album: My first night out--50 pounds down...
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Progress? Yup, progress!!!
redheather posted a blog entry in Even if the rest of the party couldn't tell...my clothes could!!!
Forty-four pounds down!!! Five weeks tomorrow!! That is quite a bit to say...but the real amazing facts are that I am now noticing a lot of changes in my body. Let me tell you about my recent discoveries!! I can feel the contour of my bones in my arms and legs now. I can wrap my fingers around my wrists. I have collarbones. And, my favorite...I can cross my legs!!! Unfortunately, I am going through a bit of body dysmorphic disorder. I have gotten a bit agorophobic (fear of being around people--in short). I also have gotten a bit cynnical of people commenting on my weight loss. I know that they are genuinely happy for me, but after hearing "how great" I look, I think "what was wrong with me before?" I am dreading clothes shopping (which is imminent). I am so scared of gaining my lost weight back, that I do not want to get a smaller size. I think I will just go, buy the largest size without trying it on, and bring it home. Pretty self-defeating, huh? I know that these are just temporary feelings and that I will get past them...until then, keep your fingers crossed for me. I am still amazingly happy and know that this is the best decision I have ever made in my life, but I really do have to rely on my support structure to iron out the wrinkles. :wink: -
Progress? Yup, progress!!!
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:thumbup:Thank you guys SOOO much for all of the encouragement!! You guys ROCK!!! -
Hi Holly!! You sent me a response to my blog back on July 1st and I am SO sorry that I have been slow to reply. Work has kept me very busy!!
I am 58 pounds down now and going for my 2nd adjustment in 3 weeks. I need it, but my willpower is getting a bit weak. Still, I am being quite headstrong.
I absolutely agree with the suggestions you made to me...as a matter of fact, I got a new tattoo to celebrate my 50 pound mark!! I have since jumped a few hurdles...I have bought new clothes (I had to take a Xanax and cry in the mall bathroom before I could do it, but I did it!!) AND went to Angel's on 4th St with a group of friends (which I was terrified to do, but ended up feeling very good and empowered about). It was haed.
I am normally VERY outgoing, but I am having a bit of body dysmorphic disorder. My doc says it is normal and to keep progressing.
So, I see you, too live in Louisville. Who is your doctor? Mine is Lusco @ St Mary's. I cannot brag enough about him and his group. They are truly amazing.
Hey, do you know Jeff Clemons? He is a friend of mine from WAAAY back. I know he is a fellow Geek Squad person, too.
Well, I'd like to chat more with you. Drop me a message!!!
Debbey
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I was banded seven weeks ago tomorrow and could not be happier!! Every day I just think about Lucy (yes, we named my band--and call the port "Port Lucy"), smile and say a prayer of thanks. My life is finally becoming what I want it to. My issues of anxiety are not in the band, eating, etc...mine are in the other things in life. What I am referring to are things like shopping for clothes (oh wow---this was murder!! I had to take a Xanax and still ran to the bathroom in the mall to cry for 20 minutes before I went into Lane Bryant), going to parties, work, clubs, etc. I hate when people I see look at me!! I feel so nervous when they look at me (and I am looking FABULOUS). I am terrified of smaller clothes...I went in, grabbed the largest pair of jeans and ran to the counter. My friend came in and asked how they looked and the counter girl said that I didn't try them on. I was angry!! He made me try them on...they fell off. So, I had to try on another size (which is too big, but the next smaller one was a bit small). It made me a wreck. THIS IS NOT ME!!! I have never had any fear of being in the public eye!! I go to nude beaches, have alays dressed fairly provocatively, gone out dancing, etc. What is wrong with me?? If anyone has any sugestions on how to get over this silly mindset I have seem to have fallen into, please let me know!!
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I'm just being a dork, I could always do this--but now it takes no effort!!
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From the album: 44 pounds down!!
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Progress? Yup, progress!!!
redheather posted a blog entry in Even if the rest of the party couldn't tell...my clothes could!!!
Forty-four pounds down!!! Five weeks tomorrow!! That is quite a bit to say...but the real amazing facts are that I am now noticing a lot of changes in my body. Let me tell you about my recent discoveries!! I can feel the contour of my bones in my arms and legs now. I can wrap my fingers around my wrists. I have collarbones. And, my favorite...I can cross my legs!!! Unfortunately, I am going through a bit of body dysmorphic disorder. I have gotten a bit agorophobic (fear of being around people--in short). I also have gotten a bit cynnical of people commenting on my weight loss. I know that they are genuinely happy for me, but after hearing "how great" I look, I think "what was wrong with me before?" I am dreading clothes shopping (which is imminent). I am so scared of gaining my lost weight back, that I do not want to get a smaller size. I think I will just go, buy the largest size without trying it on, and bring it home. Pretty self-defeating, huh? I know that these are just temporary feelings and that I will get past them...until then, keep your fingers crossed for me. I am still amazingly happy and know that this is the best decision I have ever made in my life, but I really do have to rely on my support structure to iron out the wrinkles. :wink: -
From the album: Red Heather
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Hi blue--sorry it has taken so long for me to get back to you...I have been working like CRAZY!!
My doctor has his patients on a bit of an accelerated diet (if the individual can manage it). I am now on regular food. It only took 4 weeks to get to that point.
As far as purees go, let me give you a few ideas...
I love spicy foods, so spices are my best friends, but not everyone likes them, so go at your own disgression.
I took refried beans, salsa and browned turkey burger and added a bunch of spices in the blender. I still eat it to this day. Top with a little bit of shredded cheese and sour cream. Very good and filling.
Also, egg-drop soup is amazing!! It also is filling and delicious.
Egg salad, blend the eggs until they are very pasty.
V-8 is a great treat.
Mashed potatoes with real bacon bits and shredded cheese are heavenly, but I can no longer handle the potato starch...makes me sicky-poo.
Tamales are good, but water them down a bit with salsa and puree them!!
I hope that I have helped you a bit. PLease let me know how you are doing and if I can help you at all!!
Be proud of yourself!! You deserve it!!
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From the album: 44 pounds down!!
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I FINALLY let someone take a few pics of me. I am starting to see results. Pretty cool!!
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From the album: 44 pounds down!!
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From the album: 44 pounds down!!
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I can cross my legs now--AND rest my hands on my knee!!
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From the album: 44 pounds down!!
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From the album: 44 pounds down!!
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From the album: 44 pounds down!!
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Where are my chins? I'm missing about twelve of them!!!
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From the album: 44 pounds down!!
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Where the hell is my hip-fat?? An epiphany...
redheather posted a blog entry in Even if the rest of the party couldn't tell...my clothes could!!!
Did anyone know I had a hipbone??? If you did, why didn't you tell me???!! I was lying there next to my friend the other day, just chatting and I had my arm laid along my side, when suddenly...I felt it... MY HIP-FAT HAD ALREADY BEGUN TO DEFLATE!! I jumped out of bed and ran, in tears, to my best friend. He, of course, was very concerned and inquired about my tears. "I am NOT ready for this!!!" Let me explain... For over four years, I have been actively pursuing the lap-band. I have done an unlimited amount of research, spoken to almost 1,000 people (I am not exaggerating), sought advice from doctors in every field, etc, etc...I could not have been better prepared mentally, physically, or emotionally for my "new life". I was happy to adopt this new lifestyle, the new diet, my new health!!! But, through all of this, there was one thing I am just not prepared for...my new size. I have ALWAYS been the fattest person I know. When I go to a bar, party, resturant, etc--I know how big I am and I also know that people know how big I am (I weighed 327 until yesterday). I learned to love my size--because it is the only body I have, and I use it as a defense. I know that guys won't approach me, people will gawk at me, and some will even avoid me. I feel powerful that I have this effect on people. They notice me...I don't notice them. And, for some reason, when I see a larger person, I feel a strange sense of "competition" with them. But now, that is changing--even as I type!! Through all of my soul-searching, goal focusing, and preparation for this...I never entertained the thought that I will be getting thinner. How ludicrous!! But, there it is, I never thought about how I will actually look. I admit, I am scared...my defenses are going to be lowered and I am not sure how things will be without my "fat fort". I am just trying to be optimistic about my new self-acceptance, and I thank God for the wonderful support structure I have. I have a lot of things to learn!!! Wish me luck, guys...whoever thought weight-loss would make you skinny??:crying: -
Progress? Yup, progress!!!
redheather commented on redheather's blog entry in Even if the rest of the party couldn't tell...my clothes could!!!
Forty-four pounds down!!! Five weeks tomorrow!! That is quite a bit to say...but the real amazing facts are that I am now noticing a lot of changes in my body. Let me tell you about my recent discoveries!! I can feel the contour of my bones in my arms and legs now. I can wrap my fingers around my wrists. I have collarbones. And, my favorite...I can cross my legs!!! Unfortunately, I am going through a bit of body dysmorphic disorder. I have gotten a bit agorophobic (fear of being around people--in short). I also have gotten a bit cynnical of people commenting on my weight loss. I know that they are genuinely happy for me, but after hearing "how great" I look, I think "what was wrong with me before?" I am dreading clothes shopping (which is imminent). I am so scared of gaining my lost weight back, that I do not want to get a smaller size. I think I will just go, buy the largest size without trying it on, and bring it home. Pretty self-defeating, huh? I know that these are just temporary feelings and that I will get past them...until then, keep your fingers crossed for me. I am still amazingly happy and know that this is the best decision I have ever made in my life, but I really do have to rely on my support structure to iron out the wrinkles. -
Progress? Yup, progress!!!
redheather commented on redheather's blog entry in Even if the rest of the party couldn't tell...my clothes could!!!
Forty-four pounds down!!! Five weeks tomorrow!! That is quite a bit to say...but the real amazing facts are that I am now noticing a lot of changes in my body. Let me tell you about my recent discoveries!! I can feel the contour of my bones in my arms and legs now. I can wrap my fingers around my wrists. I have collarbones. And, my favorite...I can cross my legs!!! Unfortunately, I am going through a bit of body dysmorphic disorder. I have gotten a bit agorophobic (fear of being around people--in short). I also have gotten a bit cynnical of people commenting on my weight loss. I know that they are genuinely happy for me, but after hearing "how great" I look, I think "what was wrong with me before?" I am dreading clothes shopping (which is imminent). I am so scared of gaining my lost weight back, that I do not want to get a smaller size. I think I will just go, buy the largest size without trying it on, and bring it home. Pretty self-defeating, huh? I know that these are just temporary feelings and that I will get past them...until then, keep your fingers crossed for me. I am still amazingly happy and know that this is the best decision I have ever made in my life, but I really do have to rely on my support structure to iron out the wrinkles. -
Lele--I had to get a new phone and don't have your number!! Please give me another call!! EEEK!!! 502-807-0990
Deb
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Wine and music? That sounds like an AWESOME weekend!!! Sounds like my kind of weekend. We (my friend, Brian and I) went to an engagement party Saturday. It was pretty cool...but it was a cook out. I think they were a little offended because I didn't eat very much. I tried to sort of explain, but they were Russian...oh well, what I did eat was excellent.
Well, have an awesome Monday!! I hope to chat more with you this week!! Take it easy!!!
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Heya Robin!! I am doing well--lost another 5 pounds!! I am really amazed!! I went back to work Thursday...it was pretty cool, but I got tired. But yesterday went much better!! I even did some sticks ( I work for the Red Cross as a phlebotomist) instead of just sitting and doing health histories all day.
So, how are you doing? Any big plans this weekend??
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Hi lele!! I was there!! Forgive me for not remembering which girl you were, were you one that went to the potty with us? I do remember that I liked everyone in our group. You guys made me happy and proud to be there!!
Well, how are you doing? I am doing pretty good, I weighed today...lost 32 pounds!!! And, I am FINALLY under 300 pounds!!!
I went back to work yesterday...not too bad, but I was tired.
Enough about me, how are you coming along? Are you eating okay? I can't wait to hear from you!!!
Talk to ya later!!
Debra
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