Lora

I need help. After having the lapband for nearly two years and 4 surgery's later, in Dec. I had emergecy surgery to have it removed as it was eroded into my stomach and made a whole that would not allow fluids to pass and causing great pain. I am healed now but GOD I MISS MY BAND. I have gained 30 lbs of the weight I lost, have more than 80lbs to get to a goal and I do not know how to lose it. Talk about a huge failure. I miss my band. I want it back (no dr. would ever give me the band again) which I have accepted but this 5 years journey (remember all the surgery prep) is over and I want my band back. No actually I want another option. Can someone help give me some direction? I live about 100 miles outside of Chicago. I never hit goal and didn't know how to get to goal. Every bad thing (possible complications) about the band, I had. It's a big deal and I miss the band. It was a TOOL but gave me some confidence that I no longer have. Any thoughts? And diet tips? Lora