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I feel like I was blindsided by an anxiety crisis. It’s been 8 months since surgery and I feel my self control is slipping away. December was a tough month food wise. And I’ve been laid back on the fact that my physical restriction is still real and I am not able to eat big amounts of food. But since I am now able to tolerate a wider range of things I have lowered the quality of my intakes and indulging on cravings. I know this is an addiction and I have to treat it as one. I’ve been having dreams were I look at myself in the mirror and I see myself fat again. I’m still not on my healthy weight, about 15 pounds from healthy and 26 pounds from my target weight and if I keep up these habits I won’t be able to reach either goal. I did some exercise yesterday Which is good, but I don’t tend to maintain that in the long run. And I need to do it before the bad habits take over again. I have to stop my self destructive instincts and believe that I can do this. Not waste this tool that I have taken. I need to tackle at least the last 15 pounds.

Thank you all for your comments! @NummyNae Yes, I've been focusing on this with my therapist too. To add emotional value to healthier foods and try to lower the emotional attachment to others. For example, instead of thinking of a cake as a cake, try to refer to it as "sugars" carbohydrates" or something that is not as mouth watering as "cake". And she also helps me see that it's better to do 5 minutes of exercise than to do nothing. So I should take it slowly and start building up those habits. I tried Wellbutrin once and found it really helpful, but it worsened my insomnia... some days I couldn't fall asleep before 8 am. Wish you the best on your journey too!

I know I have to, but I don’t feel the slightest pleasure from eating anymore. I either feel full by the third bite, the food doesn’t agree with me or I end up puking cause I ate too fast (even though I thought I was pacing myself). It’s getting discouraging.

As my anesthesiologist told me right before the surgery “what wouldn’t be normal is not being scared”. It was my first surgery ever and lots of things went through my head. But truth is that the only “bad” day was the first one. And the pain was really manageable with the meds they gave me. I even refused stronger pain meds on the second day after having an allergic reaction to one of them. Recovery is tough on the mind, but it’s all about using all the tools you have around and trusting your support system. I’m getting a bit frustrated at the time, but am trying to focus on the light at the end of the tunnel. Doctor said my life expectancy was being cut short by 10 years if I continued on that path, and that certainly freaked me out more than anything I’ve gone through since surgery.

Hello Everyone! Ok, so I'm 3 weeks post op (surgery was on May 27th) and seem to have hit the 3 week stall a bit earlier. The scale has barely moved during the last week, plus I got back to work last Monday and it's harder to tackle old habits and anxiety here. I've handled it quite well and stuck to my nutritionist's guidelines, though it's VERY hard to eat more than 30 grams of protein at lunch and dinner. She recommended 60 grams on those meals, but since I wasn't able to do it I should add an egg white during the afternoon to get a good protein intake. I'm also having a hard time understanding my body. One bite over capacity and I'll be rushing to the bathroom to vomit (or try to), and since that varies with the type and consistency of the food I still don't understand when I'm getting there. Trying to pace myself during meals to avoid that feeling. So, adding all these, I'm getting a bit frustrated. I know this will pass, but still, I need more coping mechanisms for my anxiety. I appreciate any tips or positive comments to remind me that this is definitely not the easy way out! Cheers!

Hi! I got it removed at the time of my surgery. I stayed at the hospital for 3 days, but I think that's just policy here. Everything went smoothly and I do not have to take any special measures with the added procedure, since the diet that's required for gallbladder surgery is actually less restrictive than the sleeve's diet. You might notice some changes in your stool color, but otherwise my recovery seems to be consistent with the loads of comments I read on WLS