Krimsonbutterflies

I never had to work out, I haven't always been obese-- so this was a hard pill to swallow. I haven't been under 200 lbs. In over 20 years. My highest weight was 280 on 09/17/18 when I started the Bariatric program, I'm now 259 up 10 lbs. since August.  The weight is hard for me to lose and too easy to gain. I cried when my PCP recommended me to bariatrics, now I'm beyond thankful. I never realized how fat I am until I saw a picture of myself last year. My weight has always bothered me, I struggled with my weight. I'd lose 20-40 pounds and, then gained weight from breathing. Many health issues later, the Dr. discovered that I have Thyroid problems, I'm prediabetic on and off, I have a hormone imbalance, endometriosis, severely anemic and etc. I don't have to be unhealthy or fight this battle alone anymore...I'm tired of not feeling well or liking what I see or the outside not matching my spirit. I'm a grandmother of 1 now at 45, I want to live better and not just exist. I'm also ready to put fear aside, I have been obese for so long that I forgot what I was like when I was healthy and a normal size person.