I am so happy/sad/mad/relieved that I saw this post!:biggrin::sad::ohmy::cool2:
Wow! Ok, first of all any loss is a good loss, right?! We all know that, but I definitely know how everyone here feels. I sit here after eating lunch and feeling ugly full, wondering when I am going to stop trying to sabotage my own efforts!
I have had 3 fills for a total of about 4mls in an 8(?) ml band. I do feel restriction, but am continually amazed at how much I can eat. (my mom even commented on that one day and it made me so mad! LOL) After reading some of your posts, I think I may not be at the optimal fill level yet! yay! there is hope!!!:thumbup:
I do also realize that I need to change some things like: not drinking with my meals, exercising ( I hate it but I really want to), eating healthier choices (freaking candy dish/tub at work is killing me!), eating protein first!
Also, for those of you "worried" about "only" losing x amount of weight - I count from when I started (this time!LOL:tt2:) which was LAST July. So, I have "only" lost 51 lbs in 10 months? better than continuing to gain! I feel so much better (well, usually, not right at this moment, blech...) I am sizes down from where I was! We are all really doing great! Even if we are only in the thinking about banding stage, we are better for it!:wub:
It totally helps me to know that this feeling must be normal and that I haven't "failed" my pre op psych eval and really must be a poor candidate for the surgery and they only did it for the money... :whatchutalkingaboutphew! I love me, I really love me! I just need to show me better! LOL
Thank you thank you for posting - everyone who did - you helped me!