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Hey ya'll. SO. I got down to 199 for the weigh in but gained it all back right after. I have to do another month of weight management. They switched out the nutritionists at the last second and she said she doesn't pass anyone unless they have 5 veggies a week. I'm starting metformin and Farxiga today. Doc found a little bit of blood in my urine but wasn't too concerned. I'm trying not to freak myself out either. Depression is a little more intense than usual. I'm all over the damn place. 

Hey ya'll. I've been trying to get more protein in my diet. I started tracking what I ate this week and I like it so far. It sort of feels like a game. I've also been trying to eat alot slower. That helps.  My coworker who hasn't seen me in a week said I was slimmer. That made me feel good! lol Tomorrow, I have 3 appointments. I have my weight management, my psych and my visit to my primary care. They recently changed my primary care doctor so I'm looking forward to meeting this new person. Tomorrow is a big deal for me. I promised my nutritionist that I'd lose 3 pounds the next time she saw me. (I don't know why I said that) She told me she believed me because of the determination in my voice. idk ya'll. This whole process is scary. I'm scared of starting over. Last month, I weighed 205.5 LETS SEE how much I weigh in at tomorrow. Send positive vibes ❤️ 

I'm finally taking all the meds the doctors want me to and I'm miserable. I'm so sick all the time. I don't even want to drink water.

This sucks!

Hey you guys. Tomorrow is my psych appointment and I'm excited but nervous at the same time. I've been reading some forums about passing the evaluation. I made this psych appointment before I realized I needed an eval for surgery. I do suffer from depression so I was hoping to get on some time of medication for it. Now I'm nervous as hell because I do not want to fail the evaluation. I guess all I can do is be honest about my concerns with my doctor.

Also, my supervisor is being very understanding about me having to miss work sometimes for appointments. That made my day! 

I'm trying to give these people all my labs and it's so hard! I had to do number 2 in a bag and send it in for the lab to test it. CHILE! Why did I poop in the container and when I went to drop it off, that part of the hospital was closed?!  Sigh. AWKWARD. I'll drop it off today after work tho. Feeling great!

Hey all! So I went in for my weight management class. I thought that would be my last one but I actually have to wait until the nutritionist clears me. She has to decide if I'm ready. I''m not mad at it. It looks like my surgery will be happening in the summertime. So instead of focusing on the surgery date, I'm putting my energy into losing weight and making sure all these appointments are taken care of. It feels like doing mini quests on a video game before trying to fight the BIG BOSS. I'm not ready for the BIG BOSS yet. haha. Feeling pretty good! 

Tomorrow is my last weight management appointment and I'm so excited! I'm also kinda nervous because in the beginning they told us to try not to gain any weight. Between the first and the second session I lost about 2 pounds. Now it seems like I gained 2 pounds. These sessions are a month apart. I've been under some stress but I've been drinking so much water. Whatever. Weight will fluctuate. That's normal. I am just worried because the first nurse I had said it would be okay if we gained a little bit. But the second nurse I had was very rough and told me not to gain anything! So confused. So excited. I think I will try filming on my ipad tomorrow. 

So I just got back to work from the weekend to find out my supervisor no longer works here. That sucks because I really liked him and he was good at his job.  I can't help but think that he was fired by his new supervisor. No one understand how hard office services has to work. I think I'm going to start looking for another job too. It's just hard cuz I'm in school. I'm feeling kinda discouraged. 

Auditioned for something at school but didn't get in. Feeling kinda sad so I'm "depressed eating". I'm at work and I feel like every little thing is making me mad. Maybe the universe knew I had to focus on getting my surgery so I didn't get into any plays. Idk. Still sad though.