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You are all very kind. I know that with all of the vomiting and such, that I also did start to find things that I could keep down that weren't always the right thing. But I still don't think I've done that badly that a pound here or there would drop. I am feeling better now that I'm on some medication, at least emotionally. But I want so much to be healthy again, it's been so long and I thought that this was the way to go for me. With all your prayers, and support, maybe I'll get my mind and my body back on track again. I guess it's just hard because so many people say things like, I knew that wouldn't work. Look at all the complications and trouble you went through for nothing, etc. It kind of beats you down. Thanks for your thoughts.

Hello, my name is Robin. I used to be a member of this community. I just passed my 2 year mark and am very sad to say that I am not one of the success stories. My first year I lost 60 pounds and was very happy and so excited to look forward to a new life. To be able to walk again, play with my grandchildren and just enjoy life in general. My entire second year, I have not lost an ounce. I've actually gained and I have given up. I have been unfilled and filled again. I still vomit almost every time I eat. I don't dare get the band removed, I'll blow up like a balloon and I know it. I try to eat healthy, my exercise has never been great due to pain, but even losing just one pound a week meant everything to me. A few months ago, not only due to this failure, but this is a part of it. I began thinking suicidal thoughts. I became very distant and depressed. I was frightened. The last time I saw my surgeon, he just made me feel like there was something wrong with me. My primary care physician helped me with kindness and meds. I am still saddened by my results. But I guess I will learn to live with it. Please think long and hard about what you do. I know that many on this site have had great success, but there are many of us who have not. My primary physician has 5 patients who have had the band, me being the first, and only 1 is doing well. I wish I would have had a bypass, although I was and still am afraid of doing that. Best wishes to all and I wish you the best with your decision to get the band.

I'm more than a year out and I do that. Sometimes it's quite embarrasing and loud.

I didn't feel restriction until my 5th fill. You sometimes swell right after a fill and feel the restriction, then the swelling goes down. You may just need to give it time.

Been there. And I came back to lapbandtalk and I'm already feeling better. This kind of support and positive feedback will help you find your way. I'm working on finding mine too. Know that these people care about you and want to see you make it. Hang in there.

You are all so wonderful. I really missed having people to talk to that really understand what I'm going through. I don't personally know any other bandsters. And to be honest, when I left the board, most of the people that were posting only spoke to each other and didn't support someone who only occassionally posted. You guys have made me feel good about coming back and you have made me feel good about starting over again. Thank you so much.

Even with my fill to the point of not being able to swallow, I could eat a normal size meal if I wanted to. I was PB'ing a lot, but because it took me so long to get anything down, I was probably eating more than the 1/4 cup of food per meal.

I haven't posted for months. I haven't even lurked. I lost 60 pounds my first year and that was it. I went for 6 months without losing an ounce and now I'm starting to gain. I've been unfilled and filled again. I've gone through bouts of PB's that I thought would never end. I still do several times a week. I just feel like i've failed and I went through so much to get here. Am I the only one having this hard a time? Although I haven't been on for a long time, I remember everyone seemingly doing so well. I was even ashamed of my 60 pounds, like it just wasn't enough. Don't get me wrong. I am so grateful for what I lost, I was able to put away my cane. I'm not on constant pain meds anymore. But I just wish I could get a kick start or something and get back on track. Well, now that that's off my chest, maybe I'll lurk a little. :cry

The Barium Esophogram showed no slippage but they did take out 1cc to let me rest for a month. I am already feeling better. In a month they'll put back up to 1/2 cc and see how that goes. The doctor was a little perplexed as to why this happened since my last fill was in January.

Well I haven't ben on here for a long while. I've been pretty discouraged. I haven't lost an ounce for months. Now I am having a lot of pain and PB'ing when I try to eat and they want to do a barium swallow and Xray within the next couple of days. The thought is that I have slipped. If so they will remove all of the Fluid from my band and I'll have to wait for a month or so until I've healed before they will begin filling again. I was a slow loser my first year and now nothing since January. I did have to deal with a lot of depression after losing my job of 22 years. But I did find a good job and am very happy now. I just have gotten way off track and now dealing with this pain and not being able to eat a meal, I'm eating whatever will go down. Hopefully, if there is slippage and I have to be unfilled, once I begin again I'll start losing again and doing better. Wish me luck.

Hi K@t. I understand completely. I haven't lost an ounce in about 3 months and it's my own fault as well. After having lost my job I was so depressed that the 2 months I was unemployed I just blew it. And now I'm having a hard time getting back to eating right again. I know I need to see my surgeon and possibly get a small fill, but I'm afraid to go and have him see how bad I've been doing. Isn't it strange how any depression or anything that goes on in our lives we end up going back to our old ways? You would think that after a while we would be able to control ourselves better. Good luck with your move and best wishes for a great new life in Florida.

Welcome Jessica. I've had my band for a year and love it. It's been going slow but steady. Best to you.

I'm a Learning Administrator for the Organizational Development dept. I handle all the logistics for the training of our outside sales people as well as keeping up the learning management system and help with the intranet. I work with a really great bunch of people for a really great company. I was unemployed for 2 months and was ready to go back.