LeslieR041906

At 1:30 today, I will be having my surgery. Im very scared, and very excited to start this new life. But the scary part is the surgery. I want nothing to go wrong. I know its different from a c section, but with the c section, I almost died. And this scares me that Im undergoing another surgery. But, I hear a lot of positive results. All I know is when I come home tonight, I wont feel the same as I do now. I have gone from 333lbs, to 316 in 2 weeks, on the liquid diet. So, Im really optimistic about the outcome of the surgery. I can do this and I will make it work for me. Previously I was seeing a doc back in September of last year, doing the HCG pregnancy hormone shot, and phentramene. By December, I was hospitalized cause my heart was acting funny. They found that I had a PFO. Which is a birth defect in the heart. I never knew I had this until last year. With the doctor I had, they checked my metabolism, and come to find out its quite normal. So I feel that I will be able to do this as long as I can exercise. That is really my problem, along with the bad choices of food that Im eating. Last night I went as far as writing myself a will, just in case things dont turn out so well. I know what youre thinking, I will be ok, but some how I cant tell my brain that. I have to be at the hospital to be prepped in one hour. Ugggh. Im going to try to write tonight. Im going to let everyone know how it went for me. Anyway, thats all I have for now, Partly, this thread is to rant about my fears, and secondly, I wanted everyone to know that today is the day. :smile::tongue2:

This is awesome, love the thread. I will not miss, as mentioned before, LANE BRYANT. For one, their clothes are crap. Nice style, but don't last long. Listening to people talk about me or at least being paranoid that they are. And by talking about me, Im meaning my fat. I will not miss being embarrassed by having to get off an amusment park ride, in front of others cause my boobs are way too big, from being fat. or the seat is too small. I wont miss, being ashamed of myself naked. I wont miss, being ashamed to go swimming. I wont miss cottage cheese everywhere, and stretch marks. I wont miss the expense to cater to all my uncontrollable cravings. I wont miss my sleep apnea. I wont my my high cholesterol or high triglycerides. I wont miss having no energy to play with my daughter. I will be happier that I will live longer to be with her. I wont miss putting on jeans and wondering if Im going to make it all day cause they are too tight. I wont miss, laying out of work, cause I got sick a week later from being sick. In other words staying sick all the time, or not feeling well. I wont miss being hot all the time, especially when trying to sleep. I wont miss trying to bend and something pulls or goes out. There is probably more to this I will write again when I can think of it. In general.. I just wont miss the FAT. :thumbup:

I have consumed so much water today, I feel Im going to pop. Im drinking so much in hopes this gas will go away. Its kinda embarrasing sitting near other people when they hear your stomach explode with gas. My pants are still tight. Ugggh. Im not liking this. But, dont worry, it will be over before we know it. Monday for me is the big day, and Im terrified. I know that this is the safest surgery, but I cant help but think something can go wrong. And will. Sigh. Anyway, I have wanted food all day. Just something, a llttle bite of something, good thing I have people around me that keep me from eating. Even at work. Where I know if I wanted to cheat then I could, but Thank god they are here.

Today is day 10 of my liquid diet. It has been rough, and I hate it. I have started these gas pains and tremendous bouts of gas inside my tummy. Today, I woke, no weight gained nor lost, but, Im bloated, and my jeans are tight. Three days ago, these very jeans, fit. And fit good. Now, they feel as if I was poured into them. I feel bloated, and full of gas, that I cant release. I dont know what to do about it. I just cant wait until this is over. Maybe just maybe I need to lay off soup for a while. I have noticed when I do eat the soup I get more gassy. So, back to the basics, just plain ole liquid thats sure to make me sick. And to top it all off, Im depressed cause I cant eat good food. And a certain someone in my life finds it ok to eat in front of me, tons of good food without remorse. Anyway, I had to rant. Any solutions for the gas? :cursing:

For those of you who are strictly on the liquid diet without solids at all in the diet, have any of you experienced any stomach pain accompanied with gas. Lots of gas? This pain feels like a muscle strain, pulling, and then the dull ache afterwards, but it only happens when I have a lot of gas. Is this normal? Should I be concerned? I was thinking I had an ulcer. But how can that be? I dont eat foods with spice, or drink spice, I called my doc, they said to monitor it all day and I will. It doesnt hurt right now. I had a bowel movement, and everything seems ok now. So, I dont know whats going on. Kinda scares me a little. Just want to know if anyone else has experenced this? LET ME KNOW!!! BTW, it really didnt start until I had egg drop soup. Could this be the culprit?:thumbup:

And I want to eat. I want breaded chicken, fried, pizza. How can I do this for 2 weeks? This is hard, especially when others eat around me. Im going mad but the good thing is, like in my other post, Ive dropped 8lbs. UGGGGH. Wish I could magically shrink my liver without this diet. I think to myself, would it really hurt it I cheated, just once?

Would Egg Drop soup be out of the question? My doc specified that I can drink anything that goes up a straw, within reason while keeping up with protein and cals at a certain level. Need advice.

My pre op is tomorrow too. Thats why I only could have egg drop soup on Saturday. But, dont feel so bad. I felt terrible after I had the egg drop soup. But, to be honest, they said strain what I could, and not one bit of it would strain. So I drank it up. I could taste the salt, and it was a lot. But, Since that day I have been strict with my diet, and have done everything possible not to stray. Im so happy with myself although, Im starving. Just remember that this diet is for your liver. The smaller your liver, the better the surgery will go. Call your doctor and ask them if what you done was bad. Well of course, that is what I would be doing, cause, I worry too much. I was craving bread yesterday, too. Im glad I didnt eat it cause it takes so long to digest. Or so I have heard. Anyway, good luck!

To be honest guys, it doesnt sound like all that bad of and idea to go on liquids, but as I have been told on here plenty of times, just ask your doctor if that is the best thing to do. But, let me tell you, you may recover a lot easier if you were on the liquids. As far as the hunger pains, well, I have them every now and then, but, I drink Water, and things like that. Or if I get hungry, I eat sf Jello or pudding, broth, something just to tame the beast. But my biggest complaint is the cravings. Those wont go away, cause Im so used to eating those foods. One day, I want meat, like fish or chicken. Then Pasta, then pizza then yesterday I wanted and needed bread. But that too will pass. And it did. Im on day 8 now. Its hard, but Im down 12 lbs. Stick to what youre doing, but if youre wanting to do the liquids, just ask first, cause there is a lot that goes with it. High Protein and taking a multi Vitamin. Good luck:wink2:

To those of you who have not read the other thread about the egg drop soup, well I had some tonight, and let me tell you I was happy, that finally I could drink something. The soup would not strain, so I had no choice but to have the egg with the soup. But, After I ate the soup, I felt really sick and really bloated. I had a pudge in my belly section, and when I started the liquid diet, It was starting to go away. I just hope that I didnt hurt the liquid diet. I have been very strict with what I ate up until tonight. I hope that when I have my surgery on the 9th, they wont stop because I hurt myself with egg drop soup. I feel horrible now, just like I did before I started the liquids. Bloated, and full. Anyway, I feel like a failure, uggh. :laugh:

I was going with Dr. V. But, when they made my appt, he had no immediate appts. So Im with Charlotte Surgical, And dr. Lowe. And for those of you on the liquid diet. Egg drop soup will not strain, and eating it will make you feel sick, especially if youre in day 6 of the liquid diet. GOD I hope I havent hurt myself. I feel really bloated. I guess I let the hunger and desire get to me. My pudge in my belly was gone until I ate the soup.

I notice on here that so many different people can have different diets, it sucks that some can still eat. Im on day 6 of this diet and its really killing me, Ive done good so far. Im just wondering if egg drop soup could be considered something that can go up a straw, or which ever, if I got the hot and sour soup I would have to blenderize it. Cause of all the things in it. But, to save the trouble maybe I will order egg drop or wanton and not eat the wanton. I dunno. Im just hungry. Its really good to have people that are going to be banded the same day. !!!!