sisotowbelle84

Besides feeling like a failure I have days where I'm ashamed for feeling ungrateful... like YOU WANTED THIS. Now deal with it... there are so many people out there being denied and fighting to have the procedure and I need to appreciate my journey more--and all that I've been through. I do take medicine for depression but I hope I don't have to have it adjusted. I'm just not myself yet... I'm hoping time will change that.

I live about 30 minutes from Punxsutawney... 40 mins from Johnstown... about 1 hour from Pittsburgh/Altoona lol that area. Thank you! I've been in bed by 6 PM most days. My mother actually called me lazy a few weeks ago. It eats at me but do I get off my butt and try? No... I need to keep positive... and I do have a few channels in mind for exercise. I just hope this funk I'm in passes and I can pull my head out of my butt...

I had my surgery January 2. I was in the hospital for an extra day because after surgery I began vomiting blood (it was old blood) that had pooled up during the procedure and had no where to go. I was exhausted so they let me rest. Days 1 and 2 were pretty painful. I had maybe 1 hour of lucidness on day one and I tried to call people to let them know I was OK. As of right now, I've had to go to have a stricture stretched once (Last month) because I was having issues keeping foods down. I still do. I've been cleared to eat through all the stages however I stick to easy items because I hate feeling like the food is sitting in my stomach like a dead weight...and throwing up. I have zero energy. I feel like a failure because I haven't begun to exercise yet--but I live in PA and it's cold... plus I do not have the extra funds for a gym membership... oh and zero energy? lol Did I mention that... I did. I have been stalled going from 241-239--up and down and up and down--since mid-February. My longest stall to date since surgery. I'm just not used to being so tired. As far as the exercise goes--I have gotten some walking in--but it takes me a day or two to recover after. I'm not used to this considering pre surgery I lived in the gym and lost about 225 lbs prior to it in about 1.5 years.

Hi everyone. My name is Stacy, I am 34 years old and I was just approved for surgery on November 5th. My date is January 2, 2019. This was my third time trying for surgery. The first time I weighed 427 lbs. I barely lost any weight during my 6 months doctor supervised visits so I was denied. Discouraged but determined to show them I could do it, I counted calories and excised and went from 427 down to 202 lbs. The irony was the "healthier" i became, the sicker I got. I dealt with continual heart issues giving me symptoms of heart attacks without the blockages... one attack happened while on the treadmill and landed me in the hospital for 2 weeks. I continued my diet and exercise until the final episode landed me in the hospital yet again and they finally found out/assumed my arteries were constricting from stress...which was probably from all the missed work... and they put me on medicine. My gallbladder decided to check out at this point... but not before going out with a bang--I was in the hospital another 2 weeks because my pancreas and liver were inflamed... after the gallbladder removal the weight loss got harder and the pounds started packing on. I was afraid to exercise and miss more work--so I started walking. Because I wasn't getting the rush I normally did from exercise my depression came back full force. I slept the day away any chance I got... I'd eat my calories one day, the next hardly touch food, and the following day, I'd eat garbage. My choices were terrible. Terrified that I would go back to my old weight I tried a second time for surgery--the entire process I battled depression and diets--trying to find what would work and give me the success calorie counting did. Instead I gained--at this point I was denied a 2nd time. My weight, 350 lbs. Something happened where I made the decision to buckle down... and from October of last year (when I was denied) until March of this year, I lost 15 lbs. I worked hard to see the scale move. It wasn't until April that I read about low carb--most of the foods I couldn't eat anyways because they made me sick--like bread and sugars--so I went for it. When my doctor saw my progress she said--whatever you're doing is working! Try one more time--I think you'd get it! I had no faith in being approved and I said if I was denied again, I'd stop...and take it as a sign. Since starting low carb I've lost an additional 58 lbs for a total of 73. I have my appointment with my dietitian on December 5th, pre-op appointment is December 12th and Upper GI is December 19th. This is also the same day I start my 2 week pre-op liver shrink diet. I do have some before and current pictures in my gallery and what I look like currently... I am having anxiety about it all... and a lot of people are saying I don't need it done... I look fine... I kinda wish I would have taken the route where I didn't say anything to anyone. Thanks for reading ❤️

I'm waiting as well. I went in last Tuesday... they didn't submit my information until Thursday 😐 I called them to see if they had heard anything on Friday--now I will just send all questions to the insurance company. My provider is UPMC and I have Gilsbar supplemental.