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That's it. This is gonna be my Halloween costume next year. Or maybe for New Year's. Too Much? LOLOLOLOLzzz

Ok - So I actually wrote this on another thread just now, but I thought maybe it would be more relevant/appropriate here. @FluffyChix and I were discussing barbie dream goal weights on the thread and I had some DEEP THOUGHTS hahahahahaha.... P.S. see link below if you are interested in reading it in context -------------------------------- OK, so I noticed a behavioural pattern in me that I sort of see in others as well, based on their posts/comments/etc that I have read. So I remember when I was at 127 lbs I was of the opinion that I was way too small and was adamant I did not want to lose any more, and I wanted to maintain in the 125-130 range. Then I got under 125. Something in me changed and I mentally switched my maintain range to 120-125. During my attempts to transition into maintenance, I got under 120. Not surprisingly, my chosen maintain range became 115-120. If I got near too near 120, I would buckle down to get closer to 117.5 Fast forward to today and for some reason or another, I got under 115. I've been under 115 for about a month now. Now even though I am now 10-15 lbs below what I thought was too small way back then, I find myself getting lowkey concerned when I get closer to 115! I mean, for the past couple days I have been like 3-4 ounces within 115 and I find myself watching my food choices more closely. Its as if each new 5 lbs loss increment becomes the new standard (despite it being intentional or not) that I have to defend. Now don't get me wrong, I am very pleased with how I look and feel these days, and don't feel I need to lose nor gain any weight. Right now this is just an observation that *may* be a concern *if* I get under 110 or 105 (which honestly I think is very unlikely). I just sorta wonder sometimes if I would feel the need defend a 100-105 range if I ever got there? I dunno. We'll cross that bridge if we ever come to it. In the meantime, whoo-hoo, LOL -------------------------------- Original Thread:

Edited to add: I double posted this in the Maintenance Thread cuz I thought it would be appropriate there... OK, so I noticed a behavioural pattern in me that I sort of see in others as well, based on their posts/comments/etc that I have read. So I remember when I was at 127 lbs I was of the opinion that I was way too small and was adamant I did not want to lose any more, and I wanted to maintain in the 125-130 range. Then I got under 125. Something in me changed and I mentally switched my maintain range to 120-125. During my attempts to transition into maintenance, I got under 120. Not surprisingly, my chosen maintain range became 115-120. If I got near too near 120, I would buckle down to get closer to 117.5 Fast forward to today and for some reason or another, I got under 115. I've been under 115 for about a month now. Now even though I am now 10-15 lbs below what I thought was too small way back then, I find myself getting lowkey concerned when I get closer to 115! I mean, for the past couple days I have been like 3-4 ounces within 115 and I find myself watching my food choices more closely. Its as if each new 5 lbs loss increment becomes the new standard (despite it being intentional or not) that I have to defend. Now don't get me wrong, I am very pleased with how I look and feel these days, and don't feel I need to lose nor gain any weight. Right now this is just an observation that *may* be a concern *if* I get under 110 or 105 (which honestly I think is very unlikely). I just sorta wonder sometimes if I would feel the need defend a 100-105 range if I ever got there? I dunno. We'll cross that bridge if we ever come to it. In the meantime, whoo-hoo, LOL

mmmmmmmm.....salads!

Day 11: What movie are you most grateful for? Ha, like the book question, there are just too many to list!! ...but here are some organized by genre (lol, i'm so anal!), in no particular order: Enemy at the Gates Braveheart Dunkirk Spotlight Shawshank Redemption The Usual Suspects Dangerous Liaisons Fight Club Pulp Fiction Goodfellas The Princess Bride Steel Magnolias The Holiday Time Traveller's Wife Forrest Gump Sixteen Candles (actually, any John Hughes movie starring Molly Ringwald) Mallrats Clueless Ferris Bueller's Day Off Bridesmaids ...okay I see this is starting to take up waaaay tooo much time, so I'm going to stop here, LOL. Sorry to all those other movies that I missed!!!

@FluffyChix: are you still aiming to reach a barbie dream goal weight?

I have that shallow coughing sensation thing too. Immediately after surgery, I thought it was because I was clenching my core when I coughed (because of the pain), but then even now (a year out) I still can't get a really good deep cough out of me. After reading this post I went to quickly google and see if I could find something to explain it, but haven't found anything yet...will do a deeper dive later. ...on another possibly related note, I also find that vomiting has a similar shallow sensation. Pre-wls when I barfed, it felt like it came from down low near my belly button, but now the throwup seems to come out of my chest. 🤷🏼‍♀️

Yesterday, Sun, Nov. 10 Maintenance : 5'2" / 1yr PO Sleeve / 114.9 lbs Gonna just post this now instead of waiting until tomorrow. I am stuffed to the throat with grilled chicken at the moment (aaaaalmost to the point of barfing, but not quite). So I am DONE eating for today. ...went for brunch this afternoon and totally thought I would go carb-crazy. Ended up just taking in 35g of net carbs total at brunch, BUT...I just looked at the breakdown, and 21g grams of that was from the MAPLE SYRUP ALONE! And it was only about 1.5 tablespoons! Damn you delicious maple syrup. I didn't even have pancakes or waffles or french toast to put the syrup on. I put the stuff on my bacon and eggs, hahahaha. P.P.S. I was thiiiiiis close to eating some leftover birthday cheesecake from yesterday with a healthy scoop of vanilla ice cream, because I was only at ~900 cals by day's end. But I was looking over my food logs from past days and I am eating waaaaaaay too much dessert-y stuff too often. So I passed on the cheesecake, and ate some grilled chicken instead. Ate too much I guess, and now I am in this predicament. I really feel like I want to hurl though... 7:00am - earl grey tea w/ stevia 12:00pm - 2.5 coffees w/ stevia + 1.5 oz steak + 1/2 slice bacon + 1 poached egg + 1.5 tbsp maple syrup + 1 tbsp hollandaise sauce + 2 blueberries + 2 strawberries + 1/4 cup spring mix w/ mango vinaigrette + a bite of crabcake from Mr.'s plate 2:00pm - 1.75 oz chicharron 4:00pm - salad greens w/ vinaigrette + 1.7 oz peaches + 1 slice bacon + 2.4 oz steak 6:30pm - salad greens w/ vinaigrette + 1.6 oz peaches + 1/4 cup Chinese broccoli + 3.5 oz grilled chicken + 1 fl oz turnip dim sum 8:30pm - 4 oz grilled chicken w/ lemon & salt Totals: 1099 cals - 104g Protein - 54g NET carbs - 57g fat

Operation Quit Smoking - Part Deux, Update: It's Day 10, babies. After a rough few days of likely nicotine-withdrawal-induced crankiness, I am glad to say that I have remained smoke-free since I said I would (and am noticeably less cranky, so say Mr. & the Kid). ...AND I didn't even succumb when I kept BFF company while she smoked outside after brunch today. Yes, there was a twinge of longing, but the desire to stay on the wagon was stronger. Yay Me!

Everyone gets different advice...may want to check with your surgeon if you are really concerned. With that said, I was walking immediately and was cleared for all exercise after 4 weeks, within my own limits.

1690 cals for an "indulge" day? That's still pretty good....

I often have the SMH feelings when reading posts in this forum. A few months ago I would try to post some soft-ish love-based advice and/or comment to attempt to instill some common sense into some OPs (I was never the tough-love-giver type of person...stems from my dislike of confrontation and my catholic-school-girl guilt-imposed upbringing, lol) Now, when I get those feelings after reading some posts, I just try to stay out of it. Like you, I don't want to enable them, but I also think there will always be some folks who, for whatever reason, cannot/will not heed the advise that they know themselves they must follow to succeed. I can't remember who posted the following on a thread a while back, but it stuck with me: "Don't put in more effort than the one you are trying to help." It may not be the most helpful thing for everyone, but it defiantly helps to keep my own sanity after reading some of the stuff posted on here.

Day 10: What are you most grateful for in your childhood? My brother and sister. Our parents worked multiple jobs when we were growing up and we took care (and fought amongst, lol) each other. Oh, the fun and laughs we had daily. ❤️

Yesterday, Sat, Nov. 9 Maintenance : 5'2" / 1yr PO Sleeve / 114.9 lbs ..."leftover" salad lunch, followed by a birthday dinner at a chinese restaurant and then cake and coffee at my place afterwards = mix of both fair and poor food choices yesterday. I feel round of bloat coming on, as I've got brunch with BFF and our fams in a couple hours and brunches are oh-so-carby. 9:00am - peppermint tea with Stevia 11:00am - Salad greens w/ vinaigrette + 2.1 oz grilled chicken + 2.8 oz steak + asparagus + cauliflower mash + peaches + avocado 3:30pm - 4 oz crispy pork + 1/8 cup fried turnips + 1 bite of squid + 2 sauteed shrimp + 1/4 cup Chinese broccoli + 5 cashews + 1/4 cup sliced mangoes 6:30pm - 1/8 cup lemon raspberry cheesecake + 1/8 cup mango cheesecake + 1 Halloween fun size Reese's peanut butter cup + 1 oz chicharron + 1oz peanuts 10:30pm - * leftovers from my 11am meal * Totals: 1844 cals - 142g Protein - 100g NET carbs - 89g fat

It's definitely the sugar in both the mixers and the alcohol itself (i.e., amaretto is my nemesis right now) And yeah, anything straight and distilled I can drink all night (incl. moonshine, lol).

During the weight loss phase, I tried to stick to dry red wine, Gin & Soda with lots of lime, straight Tequila. (When I had any super sugary drinks/mixers, I would dump, so that helped me stay away from them).

Nowt this is 80's fabulous-ness. I am pretty sure I had that exact same jacket in mustard yellow.

Ah, I thought your window was below 170. Well in any case you are like a hair away

Mr. always says my eyes are bigger than my stomach. I made another big salad (but not in that giant mixing bowl this time, though lol) with a bunch of fridge leftovers for today's first meal, and got through maybe 2/3 of it in an hour..the rest is gonna be for a snack later. Salad greens w/ vinaigrette + 2.1 oz grilled chicken + 2.8 oz steak + asparagus + cauliflower mash + peaches + avocado 374 cals - 37g protein - 11g NET carbs - 19g fat

Mr. has been the exact same towards me and my different lifestyle as he was before. I think all the changes either were non-issues or just bonuses from his point of view.

Wow! Man, I should have got this. Can't even tell there is anything there...

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ooooh this looks soooooo good. I've made the tortillas from this recipe, and I like them. https://www.ruled.me/low-carb-tortillas/ Edited to add: Ooopsies, I see you are still early in weight loss mode...these may be a little on high side calorie wise and carb wise...but could probably still be done...

Day 9: What place have you traveled that you are most grateful for? Probably the time we lived in Australia for a year. We got to totally immerse ourselves there and basically become locals. We also got to take multiple vacations-within-vacations to places in and around Australia that were only a couple hours flight away (vs. a day from Toronto). Plus I wasn't working the entire time so that was awesome

🤮 AND we both had blue cheese dressing last night....👻