DeeberLee

Trying not to panic. I had my first gain today. I'm just shaking. Rationally, I knew this could happen. I know what I did. There were huge gourmet cupcakes at work. I had 2 of them, even though I felt sick eating them. Trying to tell myself, it will be okay. Start over today. That little devil on my shoulder is taunting me like he did in the past when I over ate. Taking deep breaths. #12 for today is perfect. Watch an old movie. I will watch "Sense and Sensibility" with Emma Thompson when I get home.

I didn't realize when I lost weight that ------my tailbone would hurt so much! Lost all of my booty!! Also agree with ms. sss, everyone is obsessed with my weight loss. I've heard, they can see my clavicle, sternum, hip bones etc. My mom is concerned because she can see my jaw. Yes, I said my jaw! Could it be at 232 lbs you couldn't see my jaw, due to the double chin!!! It's funny but also annoying.

I'm still dealing with the " Are you sick" comments. Or what happened to you, comments. I'm getting better with answering. I just say I'm eating healthy and exercising more. Some people are really persistent and nosey. I then throw their questions back at them. Are you sick? What happened to you? Some people actually got mad when I said that. Well now, how do you think I feel!

DAY 9: Need to refocus. Stress getting to me. Falling back on a bad habit of "mindless munching." You definitely have to stay vigilant. I'm trying not to beat myself up over it. Today's challenge is perfect: drink more water. I'm keeping flavored water, sugar free Gatorade etc. close by. Anytime the urge to munch comes along , I'm drinking!

DAY 6. No cookies for me! Oatmeal cookies are my "kryptonite!" The carrot raisin scones look amazing. Will be trying them when I get a little more willpower!! The weather is lovely today, had a nice walk, also did squats, crunches and planks. Tomorrow is my jogging/fast walking day. Looking forward to that.

DAY 5: Work was stressful today. Had to take a million deep breaths! Did some stretches today, legs feel a little sore. Did a 2 mile slow jog yesterday. Feeling it today! So what, if this young thing ran around me 3 times, I still made it!

DAY 2 I've had a diary/journal since I was in my teens. I'm from a military family and we moved around quite a bit. My journal kept me sane when we had to move, just when I had made friends. Or had started a new school and didn't have any friends. I still have all of them. I enjoy looking back and seeing how far I've come in life.

Had a 2 night hospital stay for hydration purposes. Couldn't take anything in. Once I was released felt fine. I live on a steep hill, walked up the hill on day 4. ( I did have to stop a couple of times!) I can now walk up my hill at a fast pace. Goal now is to run up my hill. I love trying new exercises and just getting out there. WLS, best decision I ever made:-)

Good luck on your surgery this morning. Hoping everything goes well for you.

Starting weight 153 Goal weight 148 ( Trying for 5 lb increments.) Status- post op, sleeve Something I'm proud of: Started jogging\running. Would like to participate. In a run/walk this summer. Doing my squats and crunches now, feeling good! Bring it on!!

March challenge day 31. SW 159 CW 152. I was trying to get to 150, but I'm okay with this loss. What defines my personal success: Perseverance. Not giving up, no matter how many times I was knocked down. I'm a closet runner. Even at my highest weight, I still walked and jogged as much as I could. My goal is to complete a run\walk this summer.

Thanks, GreenTeaLael, you truly are an inspiration to me with your comments and with the different boards that you start. I'm noticing now certain foods are "sliding" down easier. Still fighting to get my protein in. I found some protein crisps that are delicious. I also noticed I was eating way to many of them and felt no restriction at all. I didn't buy any this week. So sad😒!

Had my 6 month checkup today. Yay, I'm a sophomore! Weight loss has slowed down. I knew this would happen, I'm not going to stress. I'm going to amp up my exercise more. I want to start running.My surgeon and nutritionist were pleased with my progress. I hope to reach goal in the next few months.

I had a 2 night stay. I couldn't drink anything, I would become nauseous. I had to stay on IV fluids. They suggested I stay another night to get hydrated.

Love them! I bought the assorted flavor box. My favorite is the coconut. To me the orange and raspberry flavors are too strong. I like the subtle flavors.

DAY #27. Biggest goal for the upcoming year. Never giving up. Past failures will not define me. Tomorrow is my six month checkup. I haven't weighed myself because I was getting too caught up on the "number. " Failing to remember how far I've come.

DAY 18: Idea I'd like to Persue: Becoming a writer. I love to read and would love to write a book about nothing some day! B-side question: drink more when I'm sick, then lay in the bed miserable all day!

Gosh, I was just talking about this today! If one more person tells me I'm getting too thin, I'll scream! I agree with you, when I was heavy no one said anything about my weight. Even when I had constant back and knee pain. Now I'm exercising daily without pain and I'm losing too much weight. Really!!

DAY 14: One thing people tell me I'm good at: Remaining calm under pressure. Fake it till you make it! Right! B-side question: What are you having a hard time with post surgery? Looking ahead 3-5 years from now. Will I still be in this happy "honeymoon" phase. Can I stay vigilant and keep the weight off? The closer I get to goal the more I'm starting to stress.

That is so true. It is hard to be logical in the midst of a struggle. I'm trying to stay away from the scale and look at the NSV's that I've accomplished.

DAY 12: One negative thought I'm ready to let go of. Failing and regaining my weight back. In the past this has always happened. Things are going well now, however there's that little devil whispering in my ear, making me nervous. I'm older and wiser now and I want to put that negativity behind me.

Take care of yourself. Hope you feel better soon.🤒

How do you handle dissatisfaction/disappointment/discouragement in life? I didn't handle it well. That's why I weighed 232 lbs. I "ate" my dissatisfaction,disappointment and discouragement. I've always internalized everything. I'm learning to be more vocal. I can't, won't eat my feelings away.

Excited about trying a mix of yoga and Pilates this morning. One piece of advice: I made the right decision to have WLS. Three years of my life worrying about should I or shouldn't I have the WLS. One thing I'm good at: Trying to look at the positive side of life.

Loving the yoga poses! Did the tree and warrior poses today. Felt really strong. Found myself doing some mindless munching on protein crisps. I'm glad that I recognized what I was doing and stopped. They were to easy to eat, if that makes any sense to you. A bad habit to break: Doubting myself. Am I going to be successful with my weight loss? Can I maintain the weight loss? As I get closer to goal , I'm getting nervous. I keep telling myself , one day at a time and breathe.