china

happy birthday josie im here been alot going on these days and welcome back diva. i'm not able to post much but, i have been keeping up with what everyone is posting. glad to see everyone is hanging in there. will try and come post 2morow. and as far as my eating its all screwed up but, im working on that again:rolleyes:

you will get there rain:smile: and vicki i will come and give everyone a good laugh. i miss chating with everyone.

yesterday i was watching the tyra banks show and she had guests on the show that blew my mind about how they felt about overweight people. one lady said they were gross and discusting and lazy. i wanted to choke this lady. then i thougt about it. i experience it every day when i walk out the door the looks. it is so wrong and i was so angry. the nice side of me wants to say im still a person reguardless of how i look on the outside. the world is a cold place and there is just way to much judgeing going on. and what gives them the right to say we are lazy. im far from it and im a damn good person and i wish others could look beyond the outside and see the angel within. but, the sassy person that i am will tell that ass off. i refuse to put up with anyone treating me this way. you can look but, you better not say any thing foul or its on. i lost that nice gene along time ago. i dont know why this upset me so i think cus i know thats what alot of people think. how childish can you be really.

thanks everyone for the replys as this was a blow to me and had me really angry. on the show one lady was at a beach and this lady to her she was disgusting and needed to move now. i thought about that and i must say i would have whooped that ladys ass rite there. but, yesterday i went into the chinese place by my house and the lady in there has not seen me since i had surgery she goes u so skinny now i smile and say not yet she goes u was super huge before and laughed can you believe it i tried to laugh it off but, she started talking in her langueage to the other workers and one goes ya u was really fat now you look good i go that is just fucking rude u know. she goes but you pretty now i go give me my damn food i was pretty before. i have had enough of it i use to just not say any thing now i do i will speak my mind hell you try an embarrase me and you gone caugh hell. if we dont speak you its gonna keep happening. and yes i think you get it worser from family some times. i to cant wait to get to a normal weight my best friend said to me one day that she had to go on a diet i go oh yeah she asked how much i weighted and i tell her she goes damn how you let your self get that big i wanted to tell her off so bad but, i didnt to make a long story short she getten bigger by the day. now she wanna ask me for help so she can get it off i dont even bother with her. im finding myself removing people that i though was my friend and meeting alot of new ones and it feels good. i like the new me and the thing that im trying as the old me would have never did it.

what's up ya, glad to see everyone is doing so well. ok i know i have been m.i.a but, after reading everyones post feels like i have been here all along:biggrin: well ya a hot damn mess ok i was rolling reading the posts. and i must say i would have hit the damn ceiling if she said that to me. i would have read that A$$ straight for real, who the hell does she think she is. i lost the nice gene along time ago dont have time for the rude stuff and dont put up with it. if they act funny to me i tell them off and i feel so much better but, thats me ladies. im still young and dont know any better at least thats what my old man says when i tell him off:thumbup: and ms rain you go girl work it. :thumbup:are you still doing the auqatheropy? well me i have good days and i have bad days. i just came back from the bahamas oct 1st it was nice i got sunburned out of this world. and for the first time in a while i wore a swim suit. i must have been drunk nah i wasnt. i looked good on that ship ladies, it felt good all the guys that was trying to talk to me. oh biggurlx i did sneak you a nice man back in my suitcase:tt2: feels like we havent talked in ages im still crazy. oh my god did anyone see the tyra banks show yesterday? it was about how overweight people are viewed. this one lady lord if i could have been there with her she would have gotten beat down for real. she said fat people was gross,discusting, and lazy and told this lady while she was at a buffet she needed a salad and water she shouldnt even be at a buffet she was fat enough. i had to take a nerve pill after watchin that show:ohmy: it reminded me how cruel others can be. but, either way im not gone let anyone take my joy im proud of how far i have came and i dont give a damn how other judge they better keep that on the low :mad: so ms vicki hell with her dont be angry cus she tried to rain on you she stupid and gone gain it back and then some and then thats when u say guess you should have gotten the band hun:thumbup: i hear you big-gurl saying stop china i kno im working on it anger management just aint worken today honey:tongue2:

yesterday i was watching the tyra banks show and she had guests on the show that blew my mind about how they felt about overweight people. one lady said they were gross and discusting and lazy. i wanted to choke this lady. then i thougt about it. i experience it every day when i walk out the door the looks. it is so wrong and i was so angry. the nice side of me wants to say im still a person reguardless of how i look on the outside. the world is a cold place and there is just way to much judgeing going on. and what gives them the right to say we are lazy. im far from it and im a damn good person and i wish others could look beyond the outside and see the angel within. but, the sassy person that i am will tell that ass off. i refuse to put up with anyone treating me this way. you can look but, you better not say any thing foul or its on. i lost that nice gene along time ago. i dont know why this upset me so i think cus i know thats what alot of people think. how childish can you be really.

hi everyone hows it going me im ok. just taking it one day at a time. so here is were i am. have been doing alot of reading and one think or two keeps sticking in my head. these things 1. you are only guranteed to fail if you never try. 2. you'll be shocked how much you can accomplish if you believe in yourself. attitude = like 80% to 90% of your success. this is so true, its hard losing weight when you have found a safe place in food as we all have. we have stepped out on faith with this band. and we should be ever so proud of how far we have came. be proud of every inch and every pound as its getting us closer to the finish line:thumbup:. i was watching the tyra banks show last nite and i was blew away how cold some people can be toward fat people. trueth is no i wasn't i see it everyday i have lost and im happy with it as i remember where i was last year. and i have to keep remembering that and not let anyone steal my joy as i have worked my a$$ off to get here. and its hard some days hell ya and it will but, here the motivation life, to just be able to play with the kids and not have to rest afterwards, to be med free, and to shop in the skinny girl store. i can taste that like cheese cake honey:biggrin:. and most of all the walk in public and not be judged as being fat and lazy in which most are not. hell if the biggest loser can do it hell we can and will to. josiebies maybe this will help you some if we all tell what motivated us to get the band. i will go first. all the above reasons but most of all i was scared that one day i was gonna go to sleep and die in my sleep and my baby would find me. :thumbup: that though just sticks in my head. and that is my i did some thing about it. how can i tell them to eat healthy and im over here doing it all wrong they are young so i have to get it right now. kids learn by exsample and that is not one i want to pass on. this world is eveil to over weight people and i never want my kids to experience that. sorry for the drawn out speech. any ways here is what i eat. 10/14 2c grits w/cheese 2slices of deli roast beef 1/2c yogurt w/nuts 1sm slice of lb. cake 2med. cof,splenda,cream 10/13 4shrimps 1oz pepper j cheese 3mini pancakes w/syrup fish w/grits cup of coco 40oz c.lite 6mini rice cakes 10/12 17oz muscle milk 1oz jerkey 6oz shrimp w/mushrms 1.5c salad w/out lettuce 1/4c sunlower seeds.

hi everyone hows it going sorry i have been m.i.a there has been alot of sh!t going on but, im ok now gotta do what i gotta do. sorry cordovachick i didnt see your post but, how are you feeling these days. glad your band didnt flip. how is your eating going. laurel glad that you have good restriction that is really important. i think i need a fill some days then others days i feel so tight its not funny. i will talk to the dr when i go nov.4th. rose how are you hope all is well. well lets keep posting love ya china:biggrin:

hey everyone hows it going, im doing alot better today. i guess i just needed some time to come up with a plan. well this was my breaking point was in dollar tree getting me candy and say an old friend of mine and she said you shopping for candy already(she meant halloween). i felt so ashame cuz it was all for me so i put it back and got me a turkey lunchable. trust me it was better than what i had. i stood there thinking what the hell am i doing to myself. im stronger than that. and monica you are so right every thing happens for a reason. if you fall you gotta get up and dusted myself off and just gotta move forward. i love this group. now this is the funny part while at the dr's i got on the scale and just knew i had gained nope in fact i lost 3lbs now how in the hell did that happen. in any case i sat down and made me out a menu for the wk and put it on the fridge with an old pic of me at my biggest. i may not set the world on fire but, i sure as hell am gonna try. im ready. i thought about how far i have came and all the wonderful people i met and this feels right. i wasnt happy that the old weight, so why would i do that to myself to bring it back. gotta learn new methods for when i get upset. well enough of me going on and on. just wanted everyone to know i was ok.:thumbup: oh and thank you all for the support i really needed that. and welcome monica glad to see you made it 10/09/09 b-2 sm grilled chix stripes, 8oz apple juice s-nothing l-a noodle soup, 2sm grilled chix stripes d-ww creamy chix parm

hi everyone hows it going, sorry i have been m.i.a for the last few days but, i have alot on my mind right now things at home are really foul just learned by old man lost his job and having issues w/my oldest kid. i can deal with my kid but, the man losing his job is just a bit much. now im sitting here trying to see how i can pay for every thing until he gets another and i just dont see how. the store is doing ok but, our bills exceed what the store does. i have a cc but, dont want to really use that the intrest rate is kind of high, i feel mad with the world, yet everyone is going through it rite now. and i just have been eating what ever and i just dont give a damn at this point. i will get back on track in time just gotta get my head together. so here is what i eat today b-nothing l-12oz cof,sugar,cream and 1c ice cream s-1c ice cream,2 pb cookie d-ww creamy chix parm. s-lg cof,cream,splenda thanks for letting me vent it helps more than you know. any motivation would be welcomed with open arms right now.:biggrin: love china

go look on e-bay they had some scales that went up to 500lbs i think and they were alot cheaper than 80-100. i to am glad to have found others lets keep this thing going.

hello im china i use to weigh in the 4s to maybe we can chat. but there is a lady on here named big becky in texas i think she lost like 321lbs i think in like less than 2yrs i think go look under the 200+ weighloss sections if i find her address i will send it to ya

im back everybody trip was nice except i got really sunburned. but, other than that i had a nice time met alot of people. and for the first time in yrs i wore a swim suit and without a shirt covering it and felt ok. and the dresses i wore i felt sexy and i havent felt that in a minute. and got alot of action. so now im home and back on track. 10/1/09 b-4crackers w/pb, snack drink box l-1/4c gr.chix salad,mini rice cakes d-1c spighetti w/m-balls,sauce,1c cof w/splenda,cream s-3mini reeces,1c cof,splenda,cream gotta pick my water back up and get back into the gym

hey girl whats up well my trip was nice except for me getting sunburned and it is bad.my back is all flakey. well on a good not this is the first time in yrs that i can say i wore a bathing suit and without a shirt to cover it. i was very pleased with myself and how people reacted to me. i must say i looked good in the sexy dresses i bough to were. and got alot of action from the men on the ship :smile: although im in a relationship it just felt got to know i still have it. food was good there at least a dinner. i did work out at the gym on the ship. i took alot of pictures to i just have to get a cord so i can put them on the net and learn how to do it:biggrin: but, im gonna get my aunts web address she also took alot of pictures and uploaded them so everyone can see what i look like. i think we are going to hawii next yr. i was reading in womens day mag about this lady who walked and lost 410lbs in 5yrs i guess. she eat 1200cals a day that gave me the needed motivation to keep walking this journey with ya. its hard even with the band.but, having help and support that i get here is really what keeps me going. i love this site and group. ok qustion for those of you that joined the e-tools are you allowed to attend meetings i have been thinking i gotta give it my all or just sit my ass down and deal with it. and im no quiter so i gotta get in it to as i have not been giving it my all. ok tell me this if i get the points counter and turn every thing i eat into points is that cheating. what do ya think im gonna see what i can swing and see if i can join ww even if its just for a month. well thanks for letting me clear my mind. oh and what i eat yester day is b-4crakers w/pb, 1 snack drink box l-1/4c grilled chix salad, whole bag of mini rice cakes d-1c spighetti w/m-balls,1c cof,splenda,cream s-3mini reeces,1c cof w/cream,splenda gotta get my water back up gonna try and get more water in today.

hi everyone im back had a nice time got sunburned now im all flakey. so now that im back i gotta get my tail in gear and get back on track so i started today. im gonna go back and read what everyone posted so i can be updated. will come back later and post. i really missed everyone im glad to be back

im glad to be back as i missed all of you guys. and i was a nice trip except i got sunburned really bad now im all flakey.

hi all im back and had a nice time except the part of sunburn. ya i got it bad. so im back and now i gotta bet my ass back on the right track as i eat way to much on the trip. so now i gotta get back on track. glad to see everyone is doing so well i also see we have some new people want to welcome you to the group. and welcome back rose im glad to see everyone is doing so good keep you the good work.

well everyone just wanted to say bye im leaving for da bahamas tonight. will start back keeping track of everyone when i get back on the 29th.

well everyone im off for vacation in the bahamas. i will be back on 9/29/09 im gonna miss everyone well wish me luck.

well everyone im off to the bahamas:thumbup: tonite

hi laurel hows it going. glad to hear you are getting some excerise in. well im leaving on saturday morning 3am. and will be back the 29th.

9/16/09 well hello everyone im up late 2-nite i guess there is some thing on my mind. i'm thinking about life. and after some thought i must say i feel blessed:smile:. im not gonna say this band is the easyest thing becuz its not. hell in fact its harder than i thought it was gonna be but, im in it for the long haul. i have meet alot of folks on here and it makes it easier to get by that is for sure. so i just wanted to say thanks everyone for the help.:thumbup:

9/16/09 well hello everyone im up late 2-nite i guess there is some thing on my mind. i'm thinking about life. and after some thought i must say i feel blessed:smile:. im not gonna say this band is the easyest thing becuz its not. hell in fact its harder than i thought it was gonna be but, im in it for the long haul. i have meet alot of folks on here and it makes it easier to get by that is for sure. so i just wanted to say thanks everyone for the help.:thumbup:

9/15 b-lean cusine-meatloaf,mash p s-2oz pork rhines w/hot sauce l-inners of 2 hotpockets s-.50c f/f ice cream d-1/4c shrimp w/mushrooms s-1pb cookie, sm. french v coffee w/cream,splenda _________ 400cals burned walking park