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So tomorrow morning (08/06) I'll start my final attempt at getting WLS done. I haven't told many people this time around (third overall) just my mom, grandmother, and my best friend. I'm super nervous that I'm going to sabotage myself again but I keep trying to tell myself that this is the best thing to do for myself. I work in surgery, bariatrics to be specific, and I know exactly what is done and why they are done. I know the instruments and every moment of the procedure like the back of my hand but I am a nervous wreck. I know if I get approval I can't back pedal this time like the ones before and I know I'll be fine the day of the procedure but this initial meeting is making me emotional and anxious as all get out. Any words of encouragement to help me through the night? Sent from my SM-S906L using BariatricPal mobile app

'Tis me! I have arrived! Thanks for the heads up, Frustr8 Sent from my SM-S906L using BariatricPal mobile app

Sounds wonderful! I'll check into now! Thanks for the info! Sent from my SM-S906L using BariatricPal mobile app

So my appointment went well, considering. I have to start the process now with the nutritional education class and have an EGD before moving forward. 90 days nicotine free is a requirement which I had my last cigarette today. So in the next 90 days I have a host of appointments and things to get in order. Yay. Sent from my SM-S906L using BariatricPal mobile app

Whew, lort. If my place of employment wants to dictate where I receive my services they can either provide them free of charge to me (as an employee) or pay me a hefty raise. I have also not told any of my coworkers nor my management team and when I request my time off for recovery only my department head will be on the need to know list. [emoji16][emoji16][emoji16] Sent from my SM-S906L using BariatricPal mobile app

This appointment tomorrow will determine the amount of trust for the surgeon and staff. I changed facilities due to not wanting my coworkers having to be all up in my body business, if you catch my drift. I think I would be more at ease with people I don't work with on a daily basis, so this venture will be one of blind faith for me as well. I will definitely keep you up to date. It's nice to have people who know what's going on but I just can't go throwing the information around open in my personal relationships because of biases of the people around me. Last year when I had approval but couldn't get ahead of quitting smoking people were constantly asking me when I was having my surgery and I was left feeling like a failure because I couldn't control myself. Anyway, I'm rambling now but I wanted to say thank you for your response. [emoji16] Sent from my SM-S906L using BariatricPal mobile app

Not starting the process at all, the first time I started the process I was 18 and so very not ready to commit to such an endeavor. Then in 2015 I went to one facility and made it all the way through their program but I was not as ready for this as I thought because I could not shake my smoking addiction. My approval expired last November and I took some time to re-evaluate why I started this journey and have recommitted myself to seeing this through one more time. I have since changed hospitals because I work daily with the surgeon who would have done my surgery last year and am not 100% comfortable with having my coworkers all up in my business. I'm very excited to get this done and start a life where I am not obese and live one where I am healthy. Thanks for your encouragement, I think more than anything it's my anxiety trying to make me worry. Sent from my SM-S906L using BariatricPal mobile app

Thank you for your kind words. I think I'm just letting my anxiety get the best of me. Just have to remind myself to breathe in and release it. Sent from my SM-S906L using BariatricPal mobile app