kimbermomma

I regret having the surgery. I did have complications but even beyond that I regret it. I didn’t give it enough thought or research before choosing to have it. I wish I’d never done it. It is freaking me out that I could eat something now that will make me throw up and that I have to spend months and months figuring that out. I want to have coffee and sweets and beer. Right now I’m on a feeding tube and protein shakes and water. I’m praying that once I can eat food and start being able to add stuff in that my feelings will change. But I’m realizing that food was a much bigger part of who I am than I realized.