sassygal

Hi, I am really trying to figure out if the lap band is for me. I am 5'11 and weight 319...that was difficult to write. I am a mom, wife, working full time out side the home and I am 44 years old. My sister died 5 years ago due to complications of obesity. I do not have diabetes, high blood pressure, I am experiencing lots of jt pain, difficulty sleeping (no apnea), I hate myself because of my weight but I cont to slowly pack on more pounds. I have 3 sons 15, 9, and 4 and I want to live to see them grow up, but even more I want to be a more active part of their lives. Was it worth it to everyone, are the side effects bad, how do you all manage the emotional part of not eating. I mean I know you have to go through something when you go from overeating and medicating yourself with food to not being able to do that.

Thanks everybody for your encouragement. I guess the hardest part is admitting that I have not been able to do this "on my own" and the fear of how changing my relationship with food will change my whole life. Does that sound too 'weird'? I am trying to prepare myself for the "mental" aspect of doing this. I want to "live" a great life with my family. I guess my problem right now is knowing that enjoying "food" , going out, barbques, family dinners are a joyful part of everyones life fat or thin. How does the band change all that. Does that make sense at all or do I just sound like someone obsessed with food :rolleyes:at the cost of good sense!