Veritas

Hello All - I have posted a few times here but never made a formal introduction, so I thought it was high time I did so. My name is Kayla, I live in Boise, ID and will be banded on February 27th by Dr. Cahn. I chose the name Veritas as my user name because it is Latin for truth and I felt like that was an appropriate word for me right now. I think I am finally ready to be honest and truthful with myself about why I am overweight and what it is going to take to change my life. I grew up on a farm and have been overweight practically my whole life. I always told myself it was because I was "big boned" and came from "sturdy stock" (come to think of it, I think my parents told me the same things) But over time I went from being chubby to downright fat and am now medically considered morbidly obese. What an ugly description!! I have always had my head in the sand when it came to my weight. I take the utmost care in my appearance (most of the time anyway) and have worked hard on focusing on other aspects about myself that are positive. I am smart and funny and very capable and talented in so many different areas. But the truth finally hit me hard recently when I realized none of those things really matter if i drop dead of a heart attack or become so limited by my weight that I can't lead a normal life! I turn 30 years old in August this year. I am determined that my 30's will be better than my 20's. And if I don't have children, it won't be because I am too overweight to conceive. I am also married and while our relationship is struggling right now, I truly believe that as I am able to lose weight and finally be at peace with myself when it comes to food, I will also be able to be a better partner to my husband. I am so looking forward to being banded and taking the next step in this journey. I am glad I found this website. It seems like a wonderful community of people and I am looking forward to getting to know everyone. Kayla

Hi Wheetsin! Are you in Idaho or studying long-distance from even further away? I went to BSU for awhile, hope you enjoy it!

I finally have a surgery date for February 27th and am now on the pre-op diet. Which for my doctor means 3 Protein shakes a day and unlimited fruits and veggies. My nutritionist said to try and follow that 75% of the time and the other 25% to focus on lean Proteins and whole grains. Stay away from the sugar, refined foods, etc. I need to lose a minimum of 16 pounds and ideally closer to 24 pounds before surgery. I guess I was just very naive as to how hard this pre-diet would be. I do not have a scale at home that goes high enough to weigh me. So I have no idea how I am doing. It's been about a week and a half now of this eating plan and I am doing just ok. Not great. In the midst of all this change and anticipation, my marriage is on the verge of collapse. We've been having problems for awhile and it just doesn't seem to be getting better. We had a major confrontation on Sunday night and although we've decided to give it one last try, I am still feeling very uncertain and sad about it. And I've had to come to the hard conclusion (although it's certainly no surprise) that food has been the one constant source of comfort for me. And I need to give it up. And I am just having such a hard time with it. I am usually a much happier person, but this week circumstances seem to be getting the better of me and I am so frustrated becuase I feel like this is "crunch time" and I can't afford to back down! I have to lose weight or I will not be able to have the surgery. But despite all that I find myself very discouraged and depressed and lacking motivation. :think :think :think :think :think :think :think

Hi Susan - I'm so happy to see someone else from Boise as well. I do love Dr. Cahn, he has been most understanding and easy to work with. I'm so looking forward to getting this surgery done! I picked the name Veritas after a friend of mine just recently bought a used bookstored and changed the name to Veritas Fine books. I found out the word is Latin for truth and I just thought it was an appropriate word for what this journey is all about for me. I think I'm finally ready to be honest and truthful with myself about my weight problems. I'm looking forward to victory!

Thanks to all of you for your support. I am feeling a bit better now after having read your responses as well as other threads on this site. I am so glad I found this community! I just need to remember to log in here when I am feeling tempted by the potato chips. :biggrin1: Thankyou PhotoNut especially for your words about marriage. I love my husband dearly and I value our relationship as well. I appreciate your support!

I have had my surgical consult and my doctor requires that I lose 5-10% of my current body weight before surgery. Yikes! For me that's between 19-36 pounds. I am focusing on 20 lbs. My surgery will be either Feb 27th or March 13th (depending on how quickly insurance approves it). Today is my first day on my pre-surgery diet which is supposed to be 3 protein shakes a day and unlimited fruits and veggies. I am supposed to follow this 75% of the time and the remaining 25% have lean protein. Little to no carbs except for what's in the fruits and veggies. My question is this - how many of you all had to do something like this and was the diet similar? My problem is I always feel hungry when I diet (thus the need for the band) and I am nervous about having to do this before I can have surgery. Would love to hear from others who have been through or are going through something similar. :help:

A co-worker turned me on to APEX chocolate Protein shake. we can only get it at a Gold's Gym or online. It's $30 for a HUGE tub that will last about a month. i make it with 1% milk and (this is KEY) blend it with ice. it gives it a milkshake consistency. I am SUPER sensitive to that vitamin-ey taste that a lot of shakes have. Even stuff that my friends swear has no after-taste, I can pick up on. so I highly recommend this. also - before I found APEX I was using the Slim-Fast Optima shake. not nearly as much protein but tasted just like chocolate milk to me.