My question is, were you signed off by a psychologist and nutritionist? Were you honest with both of them about your continued addiction to food? I'm surprised either of them would approve you for surgery if you are not mentally ready. I agree with others, definitely seek out some therapy and then reconsider surgery. If you go into the surgery with these unresolved issues, you will find it very hard to be compliant and stick to very small portions of food for the rest of your life. Good luck!